I've found that letting go has been one of my biggest battles. Sometimes I have to work at it for hours during my spice work before I 'm able to break myself down enough to allow myself to fully let go. I have come face to face with my inability to just let go and not be held back. I am my biggest stumbling block sometimes. In most cases its not out of fear its some kind of strong part of my personality that won't allow myself to let go and enjoy. Its amazing how we can learn so much about ourselves from this kind of work. Sometimes its a comedy wresting match with my self: "ME vs. ME
a Fight to the ego death!!"
When the resistance finally gives way its the most liberating amazing feeling of all for me. I live for that moment. Thats when the real stuff begins. It seems to be about the flow, flowing flowing flowing.
The work starts days before I go. I try and button up all loose ends and prepare myself in all ways. Sometimes one small unresolved thing out of place can be enough to cause difficulty. I try to remove all ability for my mind to hold me back. No distractions at all. I have the ultimate natural wonderland as my launch point with numerous beautiful locations to choose from. I'm getting excited just writing about it.
I have been working diligently to overcome myself. It seems to take steady practiced work.
LET GO LET GO LET GO!!!!! I'm TRYING i'm TRYING!!!!!!!!
lots of great stuff in this thread.
thank you
a Fight to the ego death!!"
When the resistance finally gives way its the most liberating amazing feeling of all for me. I live for that moment. Thats when the real stuff begins. It seems to be about the flow, flowing flowing flowing.
The work starts days before I go. I try and button up all loose ends and prepare myself in all ways. Sometimes one small unresolved thing out of place can be enough to cause difficulty. I try to remove all ability for my mind to hold me back. No distractions at all. I have the ultimate natural wonderland as my launch point with numerous beautiful locations to choose from. I'm getting excited just writing about it.
I have been working diligently to overcome myself. It seems to take steady practiced work.
LET GO LET GO LET GO!!!!! I'm TRYING i'm TRYING!!!!!!!!
lots of great stuff in this thread.
thank you