AciBoy1234
Esteemed member
Hey everyone,
I wanted to share something and get some honest opinions from people who actually know what they're talking about.
A bit of background on me: I've been heavily addicted to substances since I was 13. Benzos, large amounts of amphetamines, basically everything you can imagine — but towards the end it was mainly crack and benzos. It got to the point where I ended up in a coma from crack use and nearly died. That's what finally made me stop. I'm 19 now and have been clean for 10 months, which honestly still feels surreal to say.
Lately I've been exploring DMT very carefully and gradually. I started with 5mg, then tried 10mg, and most recently worked up to 15mg — and about an hour later added another 5mg to hit 20mg. It was genuinely beautiful. I felt a real boost, like something in me came back online. More motivation, more joy, just more will to live again. Something I honestly haven't felt in a very long time.
Now I'm thinking about using very small amounts — like around 5mg — once a week, purely as a mood lifter. Not to trip, not to escape, just to feel a little more alive and active.
My questions for you all:
I'm not looking to go back down any dark roads. This genuinely feels different to me — but I also know I'm not the most objective judge of my own patterns. That's exactly why I'm asking.
Appreciate any honest input.
I wanted to share something and get some honest opinions from people who actually know what they're talking about.
A bit of background on me: I've been heavily addicted to substances since I was 13. Benzos, large amounts of amphetamines, basically everything you can imagine — but towards the end it was mainly crack and benzos. It got to the point where I ended up in a coma from crack use and nearly died. That's what finally made me stop. I'm 19 now and have been clean for 10 months, which honestly still feels surreal to say.
Lately I've been exploring DMT very carefully and gradually. I started with 5mg, then tried 10mg, and most recently worked up to 15mg — and about an hour later added another 5mg to hit 20mg. It was genuinely beautiful. I felt a real boost, like something in me came back online. More motivation, more joy, just more will to live again. Something I honestly haven't felt in a very long time.
Now I'm thinking about using very small amounts — like around 5mg — once a week, purely as a mood lifter. Not to trip, not to escape, just to feel a little more alive and active.
My questions for you all:
- Do you think a weekly low-dose like this could be beneficial in the way I'm describing, or does it seem problematic to you — especially given my addiction history?
- Is there any risk of psychological dependence developing with DMT specifically, in your experience or opinion?
- Any general thoughts on using it this intentionally and this infrequently?
I'm not looking to go back down any dark roads. This genuinely feels different to me — but I also know I'm not the most objective judge of my own patterns. That's exactly why I'm asking.
Appreciate any honest input.
