gualapa
me magic man! me gualapa!
Warning: We all know people respond differently to psychedelics and their doses. I am able to take a large amount and remain perfectly fine in my room, alone with my thoughts and my experience. I also tend to pull inside with psychedelics as I'm an introverted person. I do not recommend a 10-strip unless you fully know what you're getting yourself into beforehand.
Note: this is not a trip experience/report, there are plenty of those online. I have a few topics that I wanted to share, don't really care whether anybody responds or reads this, I just wanted to get it out there in case someone else in the future searches "lsd therapy"; then this thread will come up as a result to show that you can be your own therapist.
Background:
So the Monday before last I became my own clinical therapist on a 10-strip of the best lucy I've ever had. It's impossible to know how many ug's each tab had but I'm gonna have to guess 150ug because I've some other pure lucy before but it wasn't this strong, so it was probably a 1500 microgram trip.
I've never done anything higher than 2 tabs before, probably done so at least 15-20 times, this year being my first exposure to psychedelics. I recently had a 9 gram shroom trip (it was my third trip, my first two were on 3.5g) and it went surprisingly well. I realized bad trips DO NOT exist. As Hendrix said in his song Spanish Castle Magic "but it's all in your mind". I've never had a bad trip. Sure I've been scared before when I encountered a huge spider or an uncomfortable social setting with the wrong people, and I've also been many a times in deep and crying because I've been trying so hard to find myself the past year.
So I figured I knew everything I was getting into when choosing to do a 10-strip. I'm not going to write the trip report out, there's plenty of them online. Here were a few qualities I'd like to remark on:
-everyone said a 1500ug microgram experience is completely different, I don't believe it entirely was. Man things were slowed down but the visuals and audio distortion is exactly what 2 tabs is MULTIPLIED by 5 (2 tabs X 5 = 10 tabs)
-you really understand the fractals of what lucy produces or helps you to see. I wish I would've drawn them because I saw these for nearly 14 hours after the trip. They weren't complicated, it was the same little fractal in embedded in everything to the nth degree. I coudl've easily drawn it, even with my terrible drawing skills
-I peaked for 4-5 hours as any normal trip, but came down over 16 hours slowly
-funny story: so while I was tripping some sort of outside terrible smell was occurring. Somebody called a maintenance guy and at one point I was looking out my first floor apartment window and he appeared right in front it with an alien-face mask like thing, with some sort of beeping technology and asked me if I smelled anything. I had smelled something for sure, but my sense of smell was so distorted I could barely understand if the smell was still there or not. I told him yes and told him where I smelled and he continued to look there. Well, eventually more people were outside my apartment (I'm the end apartment)... then someone starting hitting hard against something. Well, as we all know we can go thru extremes of emotions. I started to panick thinking oh shit, what if it's something really bad and I can't be in my apartment. Long story short, I had 4 tabs left in my apartment. I cut 2 of the tabs up and thru them away! then I decided not to cut the other 2 tabs up and just give them to my friend when he comes back in an hour... unfortunately the 2 tabs I decided to destroy were 250ug tabs, so I had just cut up 500ug of lsd... so stupid haha. I didn't care though, something to laugh about now. tabs are tabs, I'm not materialistic in any shape or form.
LSD vs. other psychedelics: LSD is the only synthetic psychedelic I'm interested in. It seems to me all the other weird man-made substances don't offer anything else except a different trip, and a lot of them can be dangerous. Natural psychedelics are usually non-toxic (shrooms, cacti, aya, etc.) and they have a strong spiritual nature to the trip, something LSD heavily lacks. Nevertheless, since one is more able to communicate on LSD than say on shrooms, I can see why it worked well for therapy when it was legal to use it. I look at LSD as a great molecule because it's efficiency (no dealing with eating shrooms or cacti, not that I'm saying cacti or shrooms are bad for this) and it lasts longer, which can be a good or bad thing.
Clinical aspect: After I came down, I started thinking heavily. I shouldn't have taken it that day for I had school that day even tho the class was nothing important (I'm finishing up my degree in college right now). I eventually did something I've never done before. I grabbed a notebook and turned it to a blank page to record my thoughts. I've always been an introverted person that can be happy alone when I want. I also am always trying to change myself for the better and am highly conscious of my actions and ways.
What happened next is I was able to become my own therapist. I started writing down ideas for the first time ever, ideas that were hard to remember after the trip. For hours, I wrote. I delved into so many things. Psychedelics (including maryjane!) for whatever reason allow you to think at a pretty fast rate and of course differently at things-you look at things with no fences in your mind, they're clear. I found the root of two life problems I had, one of them had been causing me deep sadness over the past year. All sorts of other creative ideas were written on the paper, including how I would never recreationally use psychedelics anymore, except for my curiosity into what a 14g shroom trip would be like as well cacti & of course the most interesting of them all, dmt, which I will be experiencing very soon.
I can't even been describe how much life thinking I got done that day, and I had it all on paper! I originally took it at 9 am Monday. I started my "therapy" sessions at around 4 pm, and was still thinking of things at 5 am the next morning while trying to go to bed. The trip changed my life and it broke me of my recreational use (I had started using lucy every weekend).
I strongly encourage others to try breaking out a piece of paper. Looking back at the paper, I used none of the notebook lines. I wrote pieces of ideas and info all over the page at every angle, with arrows going everywhere. It's literally amazing. You just can't remember all the ideas you have on a psychedelic as you constantly forget what you're thinking about, that's why a paper helps. Some people just like to wake up the next morning and then reflect, but I was not only thinking but doing the "after-math" reflecting part during the long come-down. I had never accomplished more in my life as far as self awareness & realization goes. Literally, I have saved myself from going down a detrimental path (with regards to one of the two life problems I concerned myself with during the trip).
Last interesting note: One thing kept standing out during the trip, visually. I was in my apartment the whole time, so I had no contact with nature. But something from across the room kept almost glowing with the signature LSD fractals. Everything else had not so bright of fractals. What I later realized was that the thing that had bright fractals on it was my small rock that a shaman had let me choose out of a basket 6 months ago. It wasn't a special a shaman rock, just a nature rock.
But then it hit me like a diamond bullet! It was the only piece of nature in my room. And it being a circular yet flat rock/pebble, it had fractals wrapped around it perfectly. I couldn't believe it. What the hell does this mean? It means there's something completely different with man-made/man-altered things vs nature in its natural state. Everything's nature to a degree, but the only fully natural things in my room were my self as a being of this planet and that rock.
At this realization, I just knew entities in other realms were proud of me, if present (I don't have any religious beliefs, just spiritual beliefs that many other realms or existences take place to the most ineffable magnitude). That the realization that nature will always be king and that love and respect for nature (which includes not only plants, animals, rock, land of all sorts, etc. but human beings as well. Are not nature that's only twisted its path to affect everything else?).
Anyways, that's all I really wanted to share-the fact that you can pull out a piece of paper and become your own therapist while on some psychedelics. Also, the fact that love for humans is also love for nature, and to not love nature is to not live at all. Why exist here on Earth? You could go to mars if you don't like nature. It'd be easier to pave cement across that planet, since there's no trees to cut down, am I right? Just something to think about.
). My apologies.
when people talk about how many micrograms their doses are. Having been, at one point in the past, in a position to know how such things are done I can say that people overstate their doses all the time, and by a lot. LSD is super potent....it doesn't take nearly as much as most people think. Dosage gets talked up a lot along the way. This is exacerbated by people not really knowing how potent it really is.