No Knowing
fool adept
- Merits
- 42
Before this experience I had used DMT once with a full breakthrough to cosmic isness. This was only a month after that experience and it still resonated strongly in my soul. I met up with a friend, "Louis", who had DMT and was about to go smoke some with an experienced friend and two noobs. I told him that I was still reeling from last time but that I would come along in order to watch. Me and my three companions proceeded to make our way to a small forest of bamboo next to some traintracks. Here we sat down and smoked a bowl of weed with a little DMT on top and passed it around. This made me only high and caused a bit of acid wobble and shine in my surroundings. But it also made me rethink if I would use tonite. After this bowl we got up and began to walk down the traintracks. Louis hit some DMT while walking and passed me the bowl. I hesitated for a second but he gave me a look of reassurance and my conscience said, "Go for a little trip." This is impossible with the spice. I hit the small bowl and held it in as long as I could. As I let it out I felt an immediate sensation of being here before and simultaneity while also remembering a few of the deep revelations from my earlier breakthrough trip. Visually at this point the river rocks under the traintracks were all formed into intense spiraling zigzag patterns and when I looked at the sky it was a pulsing dome full of light. I immediatedly felt how I was all these people while also being everything else around me. The strongest feeling was one of simultaneity or isness like everything that was happening was not a fleeting moment lost iin time but was actually a permutation of some universal program that had been run many times before. As the revelations continued to hit and the hallucinations grew stranger I sat down on the tracks to compose myself. As I closed my eyes I felt as if I was going to breakthrough like my last time but then some commotion between my companions disturbed me. I opened my eyes to see my three companions in a sort of frantic search for some object on the ground. They looked stressed but I couldn't understand what they were doing it all seemed so unneccesary. As I watched them my fear grew as I felt and magnified their franticness. I heard that it was a wallet that had been lost. Hearing this I put all concentration into my companions and hoped with all my consciousness that they would find the wallet. As the stress neared a peak the owner of the wallet exclaimed, "Ah, whatever I don't need my wallet." Immediatedly after this he looked at his feet and there it was. My trip mellowed out and I began to wonder if I had somehow manifested the wallet or if my friend in his debonaire attitude had allowed the cosmos to bring it back to him. Not saying this is what I thought really happened but it is how my mind construed the situation at this time. Since this I have yet to take the rde again but believe I will soon be ready. :surprised Anyone else get that eery feeling of being here before when there in a hallucinatory yet not breakthrough trip?
