ducdevil has my attention.
I've been thinking about yoga a lot. I bought a tomb-sized book on hatha yoga eight years ago, thinking I was going to dip into that then.. But I had a lot of other things to work out first, as it happened, and forgot the whole thing entirely for many years.
Until now.
I quit smoking a year ago last month. My main inspiration to quit came from a couple years prior to that when I took up boxing and found that I would get winded quicker than any of the kids who were taking the same class. I'd lost in a match against this highschool kid who was roughly my size and weight, because I was so winded 2 mins in I could barely keep track of his throws. My breathing is no longer as shallow as it was.
I am also drinking a lot less alcohol than I used to. Three years ago I would burn through 60-100 bucks a week, drinking heavily almost every night. Seems like every other day I'd show up to work out of my mind with poor sleep and hung over. The main difference now being that I don't feel nearly as compelled to get drunk in my spare time as I used to feel, and I am also seriously considering taking a real break [more than a couple of months] from it.
I feel this.. anticipation. I've been thinking about yoga, in particular. Which goes hand in hand with serious meditation.
There's a possibility I will be looking into retreats in the near future.
I want to thrive.. and I ache with every bone in my body for peace and quiet.
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