Microdose as preparation for full dose

[DK_one]

Skeptical before the trip, I loaded an immeasurable amount of DMT into my Orbit vape using my 0.00 scale. It was out of curiosity to see how effective a microdose of DMT would be. Very interesting...

I knew perfectly well I would be normally far away, outside my body already, but practically nothing happened.
Yet, in a corner of my room far from me, the frequency of the DMT trip began to whisper, and I could clearly hear it those two seconds.

Somehow, I felt guilty for having done something for which DMT wasn't given to us. On the other hand, everything looks new, sharper and more precise, more real than real, almost 8K reality...

I could imagine that in the 0.05mg range, it's something like a good warm-up for a full trip an hour later, for example. Because the longer it's been since my last DMT use, the more disconnected I feel from what lies ahead. On the other hand, it has rendered today's plan invalid; the full dose I had planned for today suddenly no longer feels relevant.


Any opinions?
Especially onto the guilty feeling that micro is not entered for this substance?

 

[TransistorBass]

I take short spice vape hits to calm my mind and settle my body before going in for bigger hits, it just makes everything relaxing.
I've had the occasional day where I've taken little hits through the morning then settled in for an hours session in the afternoon, always remembering that I have the choice to do real world thing instead of a DMT session, the DMT can wait but if the Cat needs a cuddle.... the Cat/s win

 

[DK_one]

Like the cat part!

Ya, the calming and mental effects afterwards were definitely positive. But I am still not sure if this will be a thing for me.

But I think it definitely got something to it the idea...

(Sorry didn't throw this one into translator)

 

[universecannon]

Why would you feel guilty? How do you know that breakthrough doses are even the most effective way to use DMT or what's "intended"?

Low doses are incredible, and as you say extremely helpful to break the ice. I think we anthropomorphize DMT too much around here personally.

 

[DK_one]

I didn't want to speak for anyone else but me, sorry if it sounded an other way.

And like I said in second post. I definitely see benefits and a use for mocrodosing it.
Just for the purpose of a microdose to prepare for a later full dose it was not useful for me. Because after the micro dose the full dose was Totally absurd to think about for me.

How it came that I felt guilty I can not tell you, but I that's what I felt. But I for sure did not want to say that this is how anybody else should feel about it!
And for sure you are completely right pointing this out, ty even!


(Additional edit)
I've always thought that language, especially written language, can easily go wrong, as you can see from my first post. I wrote what I thought was right to convey what I felt, but I overlooked how it sounds when read without my internal input. As I said, thank you for pointing it out, as I definitely want to repeat this mistake. Unfortunately, I'm usually not very careful with my words. I hope you can forgive me for really messing up with that sentence.

 

[blig-blug]

I didn't want to speak for anyone else but me, sorry if it sounded an other way.

Don't worry, I don't think it came across that way.

You're not the only one that has expressed here feeling that something is off about lower doses. I personally don't see it that way, but it's not an uncommon sentiment.

How would you describe that feeling of guilt, if you don't mind explaining? E.g. what about the fact of having a microdose would be the part what feels "wrong", specifically?

 

[DK_one]

Let's put it this way: in the moment before the frequency began, there was a subconscious feeling that suggested a connection was being established which would be perceived as disturbing, irritating, or perhaps even disrespectful on the other side. Of course, that might just be wild speculation, or perhaps just my perspective. I think the original shamanistic use, with a great deal of respect, is actually the right way, if you want to put it that way. Of course, I believe no one should be denied a means of alleviating suffering. Perhaps it really was just a feeling that affects me and my attitude towards psychedelics as more than just a chemical process, and thus some inner conflict was brought to the surface. Although I regularly take microdoses of mushrooms, Iboga, and LSD derivatives, somehow no connection or gateway is ever opened. I hope this makes enough sense now without me offending anyone again; as I said, words have never really been my friend.

 

[universecannon]

It's all good! I don't think you said anything offensive whatsoever! We all of course just have subjective experiences and views on these sorts of things so it's helpful to discuss

 

[northape]

Don't be too rigid in how you approach your sessions. The feeling of guilt could be a simple response to your exploration of something new.
It's not like you need a breakthrough each time to feel accomplished, either. Some days, just an intent to use the medicine is enough.
I feel like your microdose worked wonderfully and brought to the surface what you need to pay attention to. If you had used a higher dose, that feeling may have been omitted.

Sometimes I use a microdose with oral teas, especially after a long break from the medicine. You drink just enough to feel the space and then go for a full dose.
It's a good approach to overcome extreme fear and begin the cycle of work once again. Going for a full dose directly would give a bigger opening, but it's much more challenging psychologically. So, read your inner state and what you need at the moment. Don't worry about disrespecting the medicine through exploration. In my opinion, it's a show of respect when you want to learn more about it and yourself.

 

[DK_one]

Ya true, but I still regret that I talked in a hurry which sounded like I spoke for a majority that I definitely should not do. Trient to work on myself so I really appreciate it came up. Wouldn't have noticed otherwise.

 

[Jamie01]

The original shamanistic use often involves low doses. It’s been documented that some curranderos only drink very tiny doses of ayahuasca to connect. Low dosing is very common in peyote NAC stuff. The yopo given to Hamilton is another example. Christian Ratsch talks about how shamans in Nepal use cannabis but consider shamans who require it to be “chickens”…

It really doesn’t seem like there is any tangible connection between the size of the dose and one’s ability to do shamanism in a traditional context. It’s just something you can do, or not.