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Most intense experience of my life, bar none

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grizzlyspirit

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Hey all,

Wanted to write up this post as quickly as I could. I first tried DMT out of a bong, and had a level 2 or so experience, as I definitely wasted some of it through my terrible smoking method.

Second time rolls around, and I put a little bit (10mg) in a meth/oil burner pipe, just to try and gauge how to correctly hit the stuff.

Third time, and I most certainly broke through. My experience is still fresh in my mind, albeit I do not recall (regrettably) a good portion of the experience. I took two solid hits out of the pipe. By the time I was holding the second one in, everything in my vision completely disintegrated and changed. I tried to place the pipe down in the place I had planned on beforehand, but at that point none of what I was seeing made any sense whatsoever. My ego was completely obliterated shortly thereafter. I've experienced an ego death before, but definitely not to this degree. I was definitely in hyperspace - I had no idea who, what, or where I was. I distinctly recall having a connection with everything, or rather, I WAS everything. I also remember thinking there was something on the tip of my tongue that was VERY, VERY important - however I could not think of it. I had various thoughts relating to my personal beliefs on society, specifically our infatuation with getting 'fucked up' on any sort of drug. It did feel like a sort of dream-state, so I can now understand where people get that idea from. I also, crazy as it sounds, had thoughts that I had discovered the secret to life, so to speak.

Slowly things began to come back to me...I realized I was human, that I had taken DMT, and that I would be alright soon. I had music playing and it seemed extremely loud to me, though it was not at all. I remember crawling into a ball on my bed, trying to calm myself down...I was admittedly very scared at points throughout the trip.

Unfortunately there are a lot of things I cannot recall from the trip, but I do feel like a changed person now. I have always been a shy person and now feel more capable of putting myself out there, if that makes any sense. I do remember having similar thoughts to some of these on Salvia/Mushrooms as well, I'm assuming this is just due to the ego-death experience.

Thanks for reading and I apologize for the disjointed nature of this report - it was easily the most insane experience of my life. I hope to try it again sometime, when I can gather up the courage.
 
Most certainly...I believe this was just the beginning of my experiences with the spice. I'm probably going to look into doing my own extraction now, provided I can get all of the necessary materials.
 
Thanks for the reply...I should state that, while the trip seems to have faded out of my memory even moreso now, at the time I had thoughts that I should be less shy. As though I was taught this during my trip, but from now on it is up to me to use those thoughts in my life going forward. Its not that I can automatically be less shy now, its that I know that I CAN, if I put my mind to it and hold it as a primary goal.

I'm now looking into undertaking my first extraction, though it has become disheartening to find out the recent troubles people have been having with getting MHRB.

I hope that you, too can overcome your social anxiety as well! I am confident that we both can if we are able to consistently move forward and progress with our thoughts.
 
That first breakthrough is quite something isn't it? :surprised Glad it was so rewarding and you have gotten past some problems. I need to go back soon, but need to sort some stuff out earth-side before that can happen :thumb_dow

I wish you well on your journey!
 
mescaline-man said:
Im excited to hear that it has opened you up from being shy. I tend to procrastinate about dmt because of the way its the experience is described im honestly terrified but in my heart i know its something i have to do (one of these days lol) if i ever want to change. I have a problem with shyness and social anxiety i know stems from my upbringing and past traumatic experiences obtained from using near-death like doses of alcohol (i did have a NDE in combination w/ pills), i used to suppress all of it. That is all i could ever hope for using dmt, so congrats, i'm very happy for you. :)

I had a pretty terrifying experience yesterday with a substance that was either dmt or 5-meo. Clearly I need to do better research, ( source and dose) on what I put into my body. I was terrified that I took some 2c and was in for some horrible 6 hour trip and prayed to god that it would stop. It did, and I made some revelations about life. Without question the most damaging substance I've ever taken is alcohol. Even this scary experience yesterday pails in comparison to the dark, decaying, agonizing pit of alcohol addiction. Bravo to you if you've faced up to that reality yourself.

J.J
 
Suffer from the same social anxiety. At times it's minimal, at times more pronounced. Hoping to explore this as well. Thanks for sharing. I'm new and still picking up clues as to where and how. Hoping a PM might help me review my options. One in this thread was willing to share.
 
Nice report. I totally sympathise with the memory loss. I have the feeling that so much wisdom has been lost like sand through my fingers. Good luck with your extraction.
 
I could really relate to your journey GrizzlySpirit, and I haven't even broke through yet. More vivid than the best of dreams yet just as elusive. And the fear, part of me is scared to attempt it again, but the other part can't wait.
Good luck on your extraction:)
 
On the subject of being granted some important knowledge but
not being able to to tell what it is, I had a very similar
experience with salvia.

As I was waiting for the effects to kick in (salvia has a way
of making me feel completely normal until I realize I'm completely gone)
I suddenly felt I knew some ancient secret about life. I got
super excited and felt this overwhelming urge to sit up and
tell all my friends who were there with me. I needed to share
it with them. It was so groundbreaking. I needed to find my
way back to them, but I realized I had no idea where I was.
I thought to myself "how did I even get here". Then I heard
a completely separate voice in my head say "you've been here
all along". It was so totally out of nowhere that it was actually
startling. Like you think you are in a room alone and you hear
someone behind you start talking. At this point I realized where
I was and was able to sit up. But I could not, for the life of
me remember what it was that I learned and needed to tell my friends.

And then I devolved into the giggling mess that salvia tends to turn
people into. :-P

I hope someday I can return and bring that knowledge back with me.
 
Good to hear you gained something of constructive value from your experience, having recently properly broken through for the first time, I relate.. completely. I had a long time pill habit that nearly ruined my life and to compare any of that garbage to this is like comparing apples to nuclear fusion.. lol
 
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