adrian89987 said:
acolon_5 said:
I am more that delighted to talk about it, what it is, how it is believed to work etc. if anyone else is interested.
I would love to hear what you have to say about it.
My wife suffered a lot of abuse at the hands of her mother, step father and “friend’s” of her parents. This led to a splitting of her conscious persona. Most therapists now see it as a defense mechanism to keep the mind from having to deal with abuse or severe trauma.
My wife was somewhat aware that something was not right for a long time. She would find that she had holes in her memory. Large chunks of her childhood seemed to be missing as were random times in her day-to-day life. She would pass by a playground and then realize she was in a swing and two hours had gone by. She would come to and find that she had destroyed her room, or not be where she last remembered being.
During our courting days, we frequently enjoyed some of Shulgen's molecules (TIHKAL/PIHKAL). However, none of those were able to do what Achuma (T. Bridgesii) was able to accomplish. On a rather high dose of this wonderful cactus my wife was able to come face to face with these personalities that were causing her to loose time. She has four active alters. The Host (who is usually out and is the person I know as my wife), the child (about 5 years old), the teenager (about 14) , and the protector (unknown age). Due to this awakening of sorts, the memories of abuse that other alters had held became available to her again. This was quite traumatic for her and she spent about two weeks in tears, in bed, and quite depressed.
About this time she sought therapy. A specialist in Dissociative Disorders and trauma was found in our area and has been quite helpful. My wife was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (aka MPD) and has become quite functional again. While the therapist cannot ethically/legally suggest that we continue using illegal psychedelic she has been quite interested in hearing how much assistance they have been to my wife. Both my wife and I believe that some of our psychedelic experiences have been more helpful to her than all of her therapy combined. Even the therapist said that it usually takes years before all the alters make themselves know. She was also simply amazed at the intensity and speed at which my wife gained back her repressed memories. It happened so fast that she started having abreactions (literal flashbacks of the abuse, all five senses fully active and aware).
None of her alters have any desire to integrate (become 1 personality again) and that is a-ok with me. It is quite interesting have 4 wives, each with their own interests, desires, likes and dislikes!
Another interesting thing I wanted to mention is that the phenethylamine series (MDXX, 2C-X, DOX, and mescaline) are rather gentle on her system and there is little ego death. However, the tryptamines, especially in higher dosages can really mess her up. It seems that ego death disrupts the system completely and all alters are thrown together (integrated) for a short period of time. While this can be quite confusing and scary for her, it has seemed to help all the alters find common ground where none seemed to be before. She has not yet tried DMT, as she is pregnant right now and all psychedelic experiences have been discontinued for the time being. We are both quite interested in seeing what DMT will do to her system. We are planning on both doing a spice journey shortly after our baby boy is born (and she has healed somewhat from her c-section).
To reply more fully to the original post: while I do not believe that MPD is simply a pinel gland malfunction, it very well may be that it does play a role in the disorder, or maybe it is simply that a psychedelic experience can mimic what happens within a DID/MPD's brain.
