Wow, what a year it has been.
I had a thought to look at the results of me meeting the molecule.
In the beginning on 2018 I was on the atheistic side of specturm, rejecting taking seriously anything spiritual. Then came N,N-DMT and its magic circus.
Before: all the gurus, lamas and other popes, were same kind of robed charlatans for me. I dismissed spiritualistic teachings as ramblings of crazy people, who need to validate their behavior with some badly written ancient text and will of bearded sky-dude.
What changed? Well not much in terms me still thinking that many of the religious texts are at least 90% full of bull crap, and most of the gurus are probably still charlatans, but they seeming all have this elusive grain of Truth, which is buried by bad rewriters, illiterate translators and biased interpreters. We humans have this ability to be told and shown the seeds of Truth and then bury it under piles of dogmatic rotten tomatoes.
A lot changed in terms of my own views on life and world and the biggest shock was, how much actual information, which I can relate all experiences to, is lying out there openly in the view since the dawn of times, dismissed by the likes of me. Our ancestors maybe had bad technology, but plenty of time and enthusiasm to investigate entheogens and practices which connect us to the worlds of divine. I mean, come on, these Tibetan dudes even have a manual on how to be proper dead. Isn't it great and funny at the same time?
Now I think that psychology should be taught in a non-dogmatic, but structured and scientific way, to everybody in schools, as a mandatory subject, just like basic math. I am saying that because, if I didn’t consider psychology a major waste of my time during school and university years, I might’ve been better prepared to understand my own consciousness and how to integrate and treat my psychedelic experiences.
My view towards our world and people has certainly changed. My compassion towards people and our world has increased. My view towards who am I and what I do here has changed. When I observe, I can see these parts of my mind, that activate and go dormant depending on situation. This also helps me observing and identifying the same patterns and activities in other people.
This made me feel even more fascinated, how unfathomably complex is this game we are playing and how complex we and our consciousness are.
I see sparkles of divine humor everywhere. I think the God/Creator/Universe is the best joker out there and has a lot of giggles when we step into subtle traps (which are plenty), again and again and again (and again and again and again hahahahaha).
It also made me appreciate science more, which might seem as paradoxical, as people tend to put science and spiritual on a different side of spectrum. Well, I think the time of mutual dismissal by both parties should be long over by now. I am seeing more and more collaborations and mutually respectful relationships from both ends of a spectrum. I think, considering all the bad stuff going in the world, we still manage to drift in a generally right direction, with laws becoming less restrictive towards cannabis and mushrooms and much more focus being put now into entheogen research.
What’s was the most important change, is that molecule made me appreciate our world and just simply being, existing, even more than before.
I haven’t taken DMT since June 2018 after my last breakthrough experience. I had this strange state of mind for several months, which pretty much had me fearing that I am about to break through, just when under any strong substance. It made me feel that breakthrough is possible not only on DMT, but on any substance, just the dose that matters and on some substances breakthrough dose is the same as lethal dose, so nothing new here. I could feel how fragile is veil of reality and how easily it can be lifted. This generally subsided and I could say in November-December of 2018 that I finally got to the pre-breakthrough baseline.
DMT is a harsh teacher, but it teaches you the most important lesson!
Only now I am beginning to hear the call of the molecule again, but it’s faint and I feel that exact time has not yet come, but I think it will
Last, but not least, The Nexus has been in the center of all things spiritual and psychedelic for me. Without people of this forum and their help and advice (and a lot of wisdom from members), this path would be much more painful and bumpy for me, so thank you all people of Nexus for doing what you do!
TLDR: I smoked some DMT in 2018 and it turned my world upside down, it was one of the most lifechanging experiences, so I recount some of what has changed for me.
I had a thought to look at the results of me meeting the molecule.
In the beginning on 2018 I was on the atheistic side of specturm, rejecting taking seriously anything spiritual. Then came N,N-DMT and its magic circus.
Before: all the gurus, lamas and other popes, were same kind of robed charlatans for me. I dismissed spiritualistic teachings as ramblings of crazy people, who need to validate their behavior with some badly written ancient text and will of bearded sky-dude.
What changed? Well not much in terms me still thinking that many of the religious texts are at least 90% full of bull crap, and most of the gurus are probably still charlatans, but they seeming all have this elusive grain of Truth, which is buried by bad rewriters, illiterate translators and biased interpreters. We humans have this ability to be told and shown the seeds of Truth and then bury it under piles of dogmatic rotten tomatoes.
A lot changed in terms of my own views on life and world and the biggest shock was, how much actual information, which I can relate all experiences to, is lying out there openly in the view since the dawn of times, dismissed by the likes of me. Our ancestors maybe had bad technology, but plenty of time and enthusiasm to investigate entheogens and practices which connect us to the worlds of divine. I mean, come on, these Tibetan dudes even have a manual on how to be proper dead. Isn't it great and funny at the same time?
Now I think that psychology should be taught in a non-dogmatic, but structured and scientific way, to everybody in schools, as a mandatory subject, just like basic math. I am saying that because, if I didn’t consider psychology a major waste of my time during school and university years, I might’ve been better prepared to understand my own consciousness and how to integrate and treat my psychedelic experiences.
My view towards our world and people has certainly changed. My compassion towards people and our world has increased. My view towards who am I and what I do here has changed. When I observe, I can see these parts of my mind, that activate and go dormant depending on situation. This also helps me observing and identifying the same patterns and activities in other people.
This made me feel even more fascinated, how unfathomably complex is this game we are playing and how complex we and our consciousness are.
I see sparkles of divine humor everywhere. I think the God/Creator/Universe is the best joker out there and has a lot of giggles when we step into subtle traps (which are plenty), again and again and again (and again and again and again hahahahaha).
It also made me appreciate science more, which might seem as paradoxical, as people tend to put science and spiritual on a different side of spectrum. Well, I think the time of mutual dismissal by both parties should be long over by now. I am seeing more and more collaborations and mutually respectful relationships from both ends of a spectrum. I think, considering all the bad stuff going in the world, we still manage to drift in a generally right direction, with laws becoming less restrictive towards cannabis and mushrooms and much more focus being put now into entheogen research.
What’s was the most important change, is that molecule made me appreciate our world and just simply being, existing, even more than before.
I haven’t taken DMT since June 2018 after my last breakthrough experience. I had this strange state of mind for several months, which pretty much had me fearing that I am about to break through, just when under any strong substance. It made me feel that breakthrough is possible not only on DMT, but on any substance, just the dose that matters and on some substances breakthrough dose is the same as lethal dose, so nothing new here. I could feel how fragile is veil of reality and how easily it can be lifted. This generally subsided and I could say in November-December of 2018 that I finally got to the pre-breakthrough baseline.
DMT is a harsh teacher, but it teaches you the most important lesson!
Only now I am beginning to hear the call of the molecule again, but it’s faint and I feel that exact time has not yet come, but I think it will
Last, but not least, The Nexus has been in the center of all things spiritual and psychedelic for me. Without people of this forum and their help and advice (and a lot of wisdom from members), this path would be much more painful and bumpy for me, so thank you all people of Nexus for doing what you do!
TLDR: I smoked some DMT in 2018 and it turned my world upside down, it was one of the most lifechanging experiences, so I recount some of what has changed for me.
