Lexter
Slow Down and Enjoy the journey
Hi all, thought I would share my first experience with 5 Meo toad medicine with you. I'm pretty new to this and in the past have tried DMT wHich has had opened me up to new realities.
My experience was definitely one that will stay with me forever.
I did it with Dr Gerry, he is a very kind person and we had a chat prior to the ceremony. He explained how the procedure starts but never gave me information on what would happen as every experience is different.
So I'm taken into a room with the smell of incents in the air and I lay day on a mattress on the floor.
I took the pipe and he lit it and said in hale. Then he said hold for 10 secs but I remember only counting to 3 and I was out of here.
I remember being in bliss and having a presence around me. A welcoming to the source. I could feel so many beings all coming to me it. There was so many, I could feel individuals coming to me.
There was the feeling of immense light and vibration.
It then felt like we were at the beginning of the universe and we were creating a new one. The power kept growing and more and more beings came.
The light became stronger and I could feel many beings at the same time. It felt like millions of souls were joining me.
It then felt like it was getting out of control and it was getting too much for me to handle. I literally felt that I was going to destroy the universe as it was becoming so Immense and powerful.
It's hard to describe the power but it was so strong, it felt like we were experimenting and it was getting out of control and and absolutely everything would come to an end.
All I remember is trying to contain this force as I did not want to destroy everything. At this point the thought of its too much power came to me.
I then felt on my hand a grill which happened to be in the room. I had shifted of the mattress and was near a wall. I then realised I was coming back which was some relief.
I then opened my eyes to see Dr Gerry smiling at me.
I was too weak and disorientated and after a few minutes Dr Gerry helped me up to another room to recuperate.
I had gone with my brother who I was so happy to see.
I had no energy to move and it took me around 40 minutes to be able to stand.
I could not wait to go home and sleep. When I got home I slept from around 4pm in the afternoon till morning.
The experience was amazing but it didn't end there.
Every day for two weeks I had reactivation. I could not go to work (I work some nights)
For the first 4 nights I could not sleep. I would dose off for 30 minutes and be awake for 30 minutes and then around 3 I would have a reactivation and be at the source again. At first it was great but then one night I could not tell what reality I was in. I was awake but everything around me was vibrating. This scared the shit of me and for 10 minutes I could not focus on anything. My wife to say the least was not impressed.
After that I would even have reactivation during the day during a nap.
Too be honest I wanted it to stop. I had no control of when it was going to happen.
The positive sides was it was like my body had reset. I could meditate with ease. I had no desires for alcohol, sugar and I could not eat the same portions of food as I could before. Literally after eating half a plate I was stuffed.
I felt more creative and went for walks, it felt great being around nature. Even after 4 months I still have not touched alcohol (I only drank socially)
I am more rational now and realise that this is just an experience and nothing that really mattered to me doesn't any more.
Looking back if I had been told about the reactivations I would have been less worried and enjoyed the experience after. It was important to let them pass. As each day went on they became less intense. Dreams were more vivid and meditation was easyier to get in too a relaxation state.
I searched everywhere for something about the reactivations but could not find any. If your going through it just let goooo. They will pass once the 5 meo is out your system. I've tried dmt before but this is on another level. I would not be in a rush to do again as the experience is still so strong within me.
Thanks for taking the time to read my experience and if it helps just one person going through the same after effects then I'll be happy.
My experience was definitely one that will stay with me forever.
I did it with Dr Gerry, he is a very kind person and we had a chat prior to the ceremony. He explained how the procedure starts but never gave me information on what would happen as every experience is different.
So I'm taken into a room with the smell of incents in the air and I lay day on a mattress on the floor.
I took the pipe and he lit it and said in hale. Then he said hold for 10 secs but I remember only counting to 3 and I was out of here.
I remember being in bliss and having a presence around me. A welcoming to the source. I could feel so many beings all coming to me it. There was so many, I could feel individuals coming to me.
There was the feeling of immense light and vibration.
It then felt like we were at the beginning of the universe and we were creating a new one. The power kept growing and more and more beings came.
The light became stronger and I could feel many beings at the same time. It felt like millions of souls were joining me.
It then felt like it was getting out of control and it was getting too much for me to handle. I literally felt that I was going to destroy the universe as it was becoming so Immense and powerful.
It's hard to describe the power but it was so strong, it felt like we were experimenting and it was getting out of control and and absolutely everything would come to an end.
All I remember is trying to contain this force as I did not want to destroy everything. At this point the thought of its too much power came to me.
I then felt on my hand a grill which happened to be in the room. I had shifted of the mattress and was near a wall. I then realised I was coming back which was some relief.
I then opened my eyes to see Dr Gerry smiling at me.
I was too weak and disorientated and after a few minutes Dr Gerry helped me up to another room to recuperate.
I had gone with my brother who I was so happy to see.
I had no energy to move and it took me around 40 minutes to be able to stand.
I could not wait to go home and sleep. When I got home I slept from around 4pm in the afternoon till morning.
The experience was amazing but it didn't end there.
Every day for two weeks I had reactivation. I could not go to work (I work some nights)
For the first 4 nights I could not sleep. I would dose off for 30 minutes and be awake for 30 minutes and then around 3 I would have a reactivation and be at the source again. At first it was great but then one night I could not tell what reality I was in. I was awake but everything around me was vibrating. This scared the shit of me and for 10 minutes I could not focus on anything. My wife to say the least was not impressed.
After that I would even have reactivation during the day during a nap.
Too be honest I wanted it to stop. I had no control of when it was going to happen.
The positive sides was it was like my body had reset. I could meditate with ease. I had no desires for alcohol, sugar and I could not eat the same portions of food as I could before. Literally after eating half a plate I was stuffed.
I felt more creative and went for walks, it felt great being around nature. Even after 4 months I still have not touched alcohol (I only drank socially)
I am more rational now and realise that this is just an experience and nothing that really mattered to me doesn't any more.
Looking back if I had been told about the reactivations I would have been less worried and enjoyed the experience after. It was important to let them pass. As each day went on they became less intense. Dreams were more vivid and meditation was easyier to get in too a relaxation state.
I searched everywhere for something about the reactivations but could not find any. If your going through it just let goooo. They will pass once the 5 meo is out your system. I've tried dmt before but this is on another level. I would not be in a rush to do again as the experience is still so strong within me.
Thanks for taking the time to read my experience and if it helps just one person going through the same after effects then I'll be happy.