Hi guys,
This morning I’ve smoked dmt for the first time. I did a lot of research beforehand but I already mentioned that in my introduction essay yesterday. For the smoking method I chose to build the machine. After setting everything up (lit up candle, glass of apple juice, mask for covering the eyes, thermal blanket for covering me, as well as a bucket in case of nausea) I’ve laid down in my bed. I scaled my spice to about 20-30mg (it’s a shitty scale with only two digits after the period which we got to our vaporizer. It is obviously more useful for scaling herbs instead of spice). So let’s say it was about 25 mg, give or take a little, more likely a little less I think. I took three hits. After the first one I tasted it, but didn’t feel too much. After the second one I felt a little dizziness and came to the conclusion that I probably didn’t toke hard enough. I inhaled deeply and held the vapor for about 15-20 seconds each time, but I toke kinda soft to not burn the dmt with the flame getting too close. Well after the second hit I called it go-time and took a pretty strong toke. That was when I felt it starting. In the beginning there was the humming which I heard about as the beginning of the trip. At that point I decided to lie down to let it happen. Shortly after I saw the most beautiful visualizations I have ever seen. It was beyond imagination. It started with the kaleidoscopic kind of vision shortly after turning into a wonderful golden light, which felt really warm and comforting. I felt some kind of sweat on my forehead and my hands and shortly after it was like someone was blowing softly onto my forehead to cool me down. At this point I had the urge to check if it was my girlfriend but I didn’t want to open my eyes and becoming distracted of this. I refused to check since I didn’t want to stop what was happening. I remembered hearing about this and I heard that one should not allow himself to be stuck in this first part. Don’t get overwhelmed with the visuals. You have to leave this behind to move on and breakthrough. Upon having this thought the golden light disappeared. It was as if it was slipping away faster when I tried to hold it back. I took a deep breath and tried to focus more on the feeling and the visuals, which kind of pushed everything further away. I had the feeling of not being able to let go. I couldn’t stop thinking. I reached for my machine to get another toke hoping to get back to where I was before, but I didn’t work out. Maybe the tolerance was too high at that point already. So I laid back down to let it slowly fade away enjoying as much as possible out of it. All in all it was a wonderful experience. It felt so safe. I felt so safe and secure. It was some kind of peacefulness which I’ve never experienced in my life before. I was a little disappointed in not being able to break through, but on the other hand it was such a nice feeling and a delighting experience.
I just felt like sharing this story with people who can relate to what I have felt. I tried to tell my girlfriend about it, but it is almost impossible to describe it with words. I think people who have tried dmt before can relate, but someone who never had this wonderful experience just can’t imagine what it is like.
I thought about trying again tomorrow maybe with a higher dose. After 24 hours the tolerance should be back to normal as far as I know.
So do you have any tips for me? Like I said I had the feeling of not being able to let go. And as I tried to focus and clear my mind I seemed to work against my ambitions. Did I just dose too little, or better did I toke too lightly, or did I make other/more mistakes. I had the feeling that I maybe did too much research. I knew what I was going through and tried to pass that phase in order to break through completely. That probably was the mistake. Maybe I should have just enjoyed the visuals and accept the fact that I didn’t break trough right away.
I am curious what other, more experienced psychonauts would say about my experience.
Anyways like I said it was a wonderful experience and it felt really comforting. Such much peace and joy, I don’t know how to describe it proberly. (But I knew that I would probably not be able to explain it due to my researches).
I hope you can give me any advice on how to improve for my next trip.
Greetings, yours
Anon
This morning I’ve smoked dmt for the first time. I did a lot of research beforehand but I already mentioned that in my introduction essay yesterday. For the smoking method I chose to build the machine. After setting everything up (lit up candle, glass of apple juice, mask for covering the eyes, thermal blanket for covering me, as well as a bucket in case of nausea) I’ve laid down in my bed. I scaled my spice to about 20-30mg (it’s a shitty scale with only two digits after the period which we got to our vaporizer. It is obviously more useful for scaling herbs instead of spice). So let’s say it was about 25 mg, give or take a little, more likely a little less I think. I took three hits. After the first one I tasted it, but didn’t feel too much. After the second one I felt a little dizziness and came to the conclusion that I probably didn’t toke hard enough. I inhaled deeply and held the vapor for about 15-20 seconds each time, but I toke kinda soft to not burn the dmt with the flame getting too close. Well after the second hit I called it go-time and took a pretty strong toke. That was when I felt it starting. In the beginning there was the humming which I heard about as the beginning of the trip. At that point I decided to lie down to let it happen. Shortly after I saw the most beautiful visualizations I have ever seen. It was beyond imagination. It started with the kaleidoscopic kind of vision shortly after turning into a wonderful golden light, which felt really warm and comforting. I felt some kind of sweat on my forehead and my hands and shortly after it was like someone was blowing softly onto my forehead to cool me down. At this point I had the urge to check if it was my girlfriend but I didn’t want to open my eyes and becoming distracted of this. I refused to check since I didn’t want to stop what was happening. I remembered hearing about this and I heard that one should not allow himself to be stuck in this first part. Don’t get overwhelmed with the visuals. You have to leave this behind to move on and breakthrough. Upon having this thought the golden light disappeared. It was as if it was slipping away faster when I tried to hold it back. I took a deep breath and tried to focus more on the feeling and the visuals, which kind of pushed everything further away. I had the feeling of not being able to let go. I couldn’t stop thinking. I reached for my machine to get another toke hoping to get back to where I was before, but I didn’t work out. Maybe the tolerance was too high at that point already. So I laid back down to let it slowly fade away enjoying as much as possible out of it. All in all it was a wonderful experience. It felt so safe. I felt so safe and secure. It was some kind of peacefulness which I’ve never experienced in my life before. I was a little disappointed in not being able to break through, but on the other hand it was such a nice feeling and a delighting experience.
I just felt like sharing this story with people who can relate to what I have felt. I tried to tell my girlfriend about it, but it is almost impossible to describe it with words. I think people who have tried dmt before can relate, but someone who never had this wonderful experience just can’t imagine what it is like.
I thought about trying again tomorrow maybe with a higher dose. After 24 hours the tolerance should be back to normal as far as I know.
So do you have any tips for me? Like I said I had the feeling of not being able to let go. And as I tried to focus and clear my mind I seemed to work against my ambitions. Did I just dose too little, or better did I toke too lightly, or did I make other/more mistakes. I had the feeling that I maybe did too much research. I knew what I was going through and tried to pass that phase in order to break through completely. That probably was the mistake. Maybe I should have just enjoyed the visuals and accept the fact that I didn’t break trough right away.
I am curious what other, more experienced psychonauts would say about my experience.
Anyways like I said it was a wonderful experience and it felt really comforting. Such much peace and joy, I don’t know how to describe it proberly. (But I knew that I would probably not be able to explain it due to my researches).
I hope you can give me any advice on how to improve for my next trip.
Greetings, yours
Anon
