12 April 2025
As per usual my dmt usage is pretty much spiritual/ medicinal in nature rarely used for pure recreation. Lately I've kicked up another firestorm of a cluster so I figured to help with it, we sit with the elders tonight.
I took 30mg full spectrum harmala freebase (presumably from Syrian rue) the other night to test the waters and last night was my second time using harmalas but first time taking it in conjunction with DMT
scale is dying and innacurate, claimed 30 mg, allowed harmala freebase material to soak in lime juice one hour until it dissolved
t - 09:00 "30mg" (probably closer to 120-150)
~ t _9:30 member FAFO in chat agrees to join in virtually on the trip
t - 10:00 decide maybe I need more, weigh out what reads as .04 and realize its almost 1/4 what I took earlier and decide to not take it
t - 10;22 we agree we're ready I prepare to take a residual hit of DMT to test the waters
Beyond this I stop watching my times.
We light the rockets.
There isn't as much residual dmt in my machine as I thought there was so I fail to launch.
I load more. And again, I'm locked out.
I add more harmalas freebase AND dmt
I sit back listening to house music and reignite.
This time I can feel the shuttle shaking. We're trying to take off but something is holding it back. I close my eyes and I'm greater by a brief blinding set of dance light bright blues, greens, yellows, orange, red. All moving independently as if I'm staring at the ceiling of a club mid set.
I FEEEEEEEEL the music but I realize I don't feel pain. I open my eyes and it all vanishes never to return. I feel a glow for the next 30-45 minutes and a sharp drop off of all effects.
I take a shower and go to bed
When I wake up I realize the cluster seems to have been destroyed. But in the past It has mislead me only to return a few days later even worse. So tonight, to be sure I will be taking a few grams of dried tampanensis brewed in an acidic boil with some harmalas. Hopefully I can bust this cluster before it continues. I don't think it was going to be as intense as my last couple but they can still really drag you down mentally with how aggravating and degrading they can be over time. From kip7-kip1 over night with less than 2 hours of work is a blessing. The cliché "dmt saved my life" seems to fit well here.
Sometimes these clusters drive me to the legitimate brink of my sanity with how intense and unrelenting as they can get. The fact that this isn't readily available for people who suffer with this and migraines just feels criminal and only goes to show that society "the man" the government is not interested in your welfare as much as they say they are.
As per usual my dmt usage is pretty much spiritual/ medicinal in nature rarely used for pure recreation. Lately I've kicked up another firestorm of a cluster so I figured to help with it, we sit with the elders tonight.
I took 30mg full spectrum harmala freebase (presumably from Syrian rue) the other night to test the waters and last night was my second time using harmalas but first time taking it in conjunction with DMT
scale is dying and innacurate, claimed 30 mg, allowed harmala freebase material to soak in lime juice one hour until it dissolved
t - 09:00 "30mg" (probably closer to 120-150)
~ t _9:30 member FAFO in chat agrees to join in virtually on the trip
t - 10:00 decide maybe I need more, weigh out what reads as .04 and realize its almost 1/4 what I took earlier and decide to not take it
t - 10;22 we agree we're ready I prepare to take a residual hit of DMT to test the waters
Beyond this I stop watching my times.
We light the rockets.
There isn't as much residual dmt in my machine as I thought there was so I fail to launch.
I load more. And again, I'm locked out.
I add more harmalas freebase AND dmt
I sit back listening to house music and reignite.
This time I can feel the shuttle shaking. We're trying to take off but something is holding it back. I close my eyes and I'm greater by a brief blinding set of dance light bright blues, greens, yellows, orange, red. All moving independently as if I'm staring at the ceiling of a club mid set.
I FEEEEEEEEL the music but I realize I don't feel pain. I open my eyes and it all vanishes never to return. I feel a glow for the next 30-45 minutes and a sharp drop off of all effects.
I take a shower and go to bed
When I wake up I realize the cluster seems to have been destroyed. But in the past It has mislead me only to return a few days later even worse. So tonight, to be sure I will be taking a few grams of dried tampanensis brewed in an acidic boil with some harmalas. Hopefully I can bust this cluster before it continues. I don't think it was going to be as intense as my last couple but they can still really drag you down mentally with how aggravating and degrading they can be over time. From kip7-kip1 over night with less than 2 hours of work is a blessing. The cliché "dmt saved my life" seems to fit well here.
Sometimes these clusters drive me to the legitimate brink of my sanity with how intense and unrelenting as they can get. The fact that this isn't readily available for people who suffer with this and migraines just feels criminal and only goes to show that society "the man" the government is not interested in your welfare as much as they say they are.
