Morphing Interstices
What is real anyway?
If ever there was an argument for not smoking too much weed...I joined this nexus a few years ago and even posted on it but I'll be buggered if I a can remember what my login details were and I have changed email addresses since then. So starting back as a newbie member...
I have experimented for the past 15 years with a few kinds of psychedelics and many other kinds of drugs. I asked everyone I knew for years if they could put me in touch with someone who had dmt, and then FINALLY at an outdoor party a few years ago I was given some dmt by a nice party organiser who saw me perform there. I bought a whole bunch of the stuff from him when I realised what it was he was giving me! And many profound experiences have ensued.
One thing I am struck by is that I never see elves or multiple entities, always a feminine deity who is wise, funny, compassionate and loving. She mocks me, caresses me, fills me with ecstatic pleasure, tickles me, answers my questions, welcomes me back when I return, asks me why it has taken me so long to come back. I always feel full of gratitude to her. It is incredibly visual, psychedelic, fractal and ecstatic.
Anyway, this has always been though free-base dmt powder in a glass pipe (melting it to get the smoke) or in a double-chamber bong with some marshmallow or some similar demulcent herb. But I realise now that the dosage system I have been using was pretty fallible after reading posts here about density and weight in determining dosage, and how unreliable it is to use visual cues. I have calculated that i was probably smoking about 20mg, and getting full cross-over visions most of the time, though occasionally not quite. I am pretty small (45 kg) but my guy who is more like 70kg got cross-overs almost as often on that dose too. But we realise now that we actually could be taking more. How exciting....
So thankyou to those informative and generous posters who have already helped me work something important out about taking dmt effectively.
It is the only drug I have ever taken that just seems to have no negative effects on my body, and that is very valuable to me as a committed yogini. It does not dull my mind or cause me to forget things, which is incredibly valuable to me as a professional academic.
It is also the wisest and most profound drug i have ever taken, and the depth of its teachings for me have already massively surpassed anything I got from acid, mushrooms, salvia or cannabis.
I feel such love for that world and always wonder how I can spend more time in it. The entity that inhabits it certainly seems to like me visiting. So I am keen to share knowledge with all others who have been touched by its magic. I don't know what it means in metaphysical terms, but i can see its effects in instrumental ones. It has a powerful potential for our spiritual understanding and it is with this motivation that I intend to keep using. I would love to learn to synthesise it. I have grown mushrooms and found that to be a great joy and delight. I have a number of friends I have shared my dmt stash with, and it would really be an honour and pleasure to be able to make some of my own to give to them.
I have experimented for the past 15 years with a few kinds of psychedelics and many other kinds of drugs. I asked everyone I knew for years if they could put me in touch with someone who had dmt, and then FINALLY at an outdoor party a few years ago I was given some dmt by a nice party organiser who saw me perform there. I bought a whole bunch of the stuff from him when I realised what it was he was giving me! And many profound experiences have ensued.
One thing I am struck by is that I never see elves or multiple entities, always a feminine deity who is wise, funny, compassionate and loving. She mocks me, caresses me, fills me with ecstatic pleasure, tickles me, answers my questions, welcomes me back when I return, asks me why it has taken me so long to come back. I always feel full of gratitude to her. It is incredibly visual, psychedelic, fractal and ecstatic.
Anyway, this has always been though free-base dmt powder in a glass pipe (melting it to get the smoke) or in a double-chamber bong with some marshmallow or some similar demulcent herb. But I realise now that the dosage system I have been using was pretty fallible after reading posts here about density and weight in determining dosage, and how unreliable it is to use visual cues. I have calculated that i was probably smoking about 20mg, and getting full cross-over visions most of the time, though occasionally not quite. I am pretty small (45 kg) but my guy who is more like 70kg got cross-overs almost as often on that dose too. But we realise now that we actually could be taking more. How exciting....
So thankyou to those informative and generous posters who have already helped me work something important out about taking dmt effectively.
It is the only drug I have ever taken that just seems to have no negative effects on my body, and that is very valuable to me as a committed yogini. It does not dull my mind or cause me to forget things, which is incredibly valuable to me as a professional academic.
It is also the wisest and most profound drug i have ever taken, and the depth of its teachings for me have already massively surpassed anything I got from acid, mushrooms, salvia or cannabis.
I feel such love for that world and always wonder how I can spend more time in it. The entity that inhabits it certainly seems to like me visiting. So I am keen to share knowledge with all others who have been touched by its magic. I don't know what it means in metaphysical terms, but i can see its effects in instrumental ones. It has a powerful potential for our spiritual understanding and it is with this motivation that I intend to keep using. I would love to learn to synthesise it. I have grown mushrooms and found that to be a great joy and delight. I have a number of friends I have shared my dmt stash with, and it would really be an honour and pleasure to be able to make some of my own to give to them.
