Things got a little out of hand today. Up on the mountain again after a 2 week break .
It took an unusually long time to breakthrough into the "zone" even after a full dose of caapi tea .
After a number of attempts right when i was ready to give up it came on.
The first round was intense, a trans dimensional space with each consecutive hit.
it was fast and furious . The only way I can describe it is that it was a cross between some kind of sport game
and a jetti training session.
Each hit allowed me to squeeze through and link with a space that was some kind of energy force, It seemed to have
finite dimension at least the area of it I was able to percieve. All I can say is it was big, it was dynamic and alive.
I had a fleeting thought and wondered if the military knows about this thing. There was a moment where it felt like some kind of very advanced ship way beyond anything conceivable at the moment.
A hyperdimension star ship built with consciouness.
I was it and it was me it was a linking togethor or a merging of some sort.
The visuals were not unfamiliar. Fun house opaque fractal infinity. Many room lke structures, stunning reds oranges and yellows. My brain was using this completely different mechanism of perception. This is not unfamiliar to me. I was fully present and intact during the whole thing.
Fast forward after a break and some lunch I got the urge to go again. SO of course i did I probably should have quit while i was ahead but i couldn't resist.
almost immediate connection once again. This time more of a one on one feeling. Felt it many times before.
It likes the connection to me, wants me to smoke more and more. It wants to deepen its connection to me.
At first I was joking with it saying " you like It don't you? " with each consecutive hit i could feel the connection getting stronger and stronger. I felt weird sensations in my brain. It felt like it , they were poking at my brain.
then i began to feel a totally new sensation, I felt pain in my shoulders an my arms. This force was extending down into my body trying to become me. It was really scary and I began to protest and tell it to stop,
things became very diabolical at this point where i suddenly realized this thing was invading my body as if it wanted to feel our world through me. Its a symbiotic or parasitic life form of some kind.
I told it to fuck off and get out !!! I felt pressure in my back and arms like this force was trying to infiltrate my body in some way. I got up and tried to shake it off. I felt sensations in my brain and body that were new to me.
I felt heat in my hands like it was running a specific test checking temperature . it turned up the heat in my arms then down. it was too much and the implications of it filled my mind. I felt like this thing was using me in some way. I have to trust my instincts at this point.
At the moment i'm not feeling too good about this and plan a very extended break.
sorry for the rambling just needed to get this down while its still fresh
It took an unusually long time to breakthrough into the "zone" even after a full dose of caapi tea .
After a number of attempts right when i was ready to give up it came on.
The first round was intense, a trans dimensional space with each consecutive hit.
it was fast and furious . The only way I can describe it is that it was a cross between some kind of sport game
and a jetti training session.
Each hit allowed me to squeeze through and link with a space that was some kind of energy force, It seemed to have
finite dimension at least the area of it I was able to percieve. All I can say is it was big, it was dynamic and alive.
I had a fleeting thought and wondered if the military knows about this thing. There was a moment where it felt like some kind of very advanced ship way beyond anything conceivable at the moment.
A hyperdimension star ship built with consciouness.
I was it and it was me it was a linking togethor or a merging of some sort.
The visuals were not unfamiliar. Fun house opaque fractal infinity. Many room lke structures, stunning reds oranges and yellows. My brain was using this completely different mechanism of perception. This is not unfamiliar to me. I was fully present and intact during the whole thing.
Fast forward after a break and some lunch I got the urge to go again. SO of course i did I probably should have quit while i was ahead but i couldn't resist.
almost immediate connection once again. This time more of a one on one feeling. Felt it many times before.
It likes the connection to me, wants me to smoke more and more. It wants to deepen its connection to me.
At first I was joking with it saying " you like It don't you? " with each consecutive hit i could feel the connection getting stronger and stronger. I felt weird sensations in my brain. It felt like it , they were poking at my brain.
then i began to feel a totally new sensation, I felt pain in my shoulders an my arms. This force was extending down into my body trying to become me. It was really scary and I began to protest and tell it to stop,
things became very diabolical at this point where i suddenly realized this thing was invading my body as if it wanted to feel our world through me. Its a symbiotic or parasitic life form of some kind.
I told it to fuck off and get out !!! I felt pressure in my back and arms like this force was trying to infiltrate my body in some way. I got up and tried to shake it off. I felt sensations in my brain and body that were new to me.
I felt heat in my hands like it was running a specific test checking temperature . it turned up the heat in my arms then down. it was too much and the implications of it filled my mind. I felt like this thing was using me in some way. I have to trust my instincts at this point.
At the moment i'm not feeling too good about this and plan a very extended break.
sorry for the rambling just needed to get this down while its still fresh
