Around a week ago I had a very unsettling dmt experience. I don't remember most of the trip, but I know I felt as if our universe doesn't exist and is just my imagination, I am the only existing being and I have lived this life many times already. I know some people here have experienced the same. I made an explanation for myself and I hope you can give me your opinion.
The next paragraph is to make sense of why the universe exists in the first place, but isn't really important or a very good explanation.
I think the only reason why there is existence, is because nonexistence is a paradox. If existence doesn't exist there is no opposite of it, so nonexistence can't exist. The only way nonexistence can exist if existence equals non existence. So our universe only exists within itself. It equals to nothing. Like a sum 1-1=0. In the sum both 1 and -1 exist, but really it's 0.
I think we are all one. I think there's one consciousness that created the perfect story in which everything would eventually converge and restart the cycle by diverging as the big bang. It created the universe so that it's conscious would end as sentient and would slowly give rise to more conscious living beings, never dying. It plays out the role of every character of its story and communicates with itself. For every character there is the opposite whose consciousness combined would equal the sentient state of consciousness that is reached at the end of the cycle of the universe.
This cycle repeats itself over and over again.
I still find this idea very alienating, though not as much as during the trip. I really hope someone can tell me something during their dmt experiences that contradicts this idea. Otherwise I would like if someone simply responds that they've had a similar experience to mine. Not being able to tell anybody who had been through the same about this experience is not a something I want to go through again during my next trip.
The next paragraph is to make sense of why the universe exists in the first place, but isn't really important or a very good explanation.
I think the only reason why there is existence, is because nonexistence is a paradox. If existence doesn't exist there is no opposite of it, so nonexistence can't exist. The only way nonexistence can exist if existence equals non existence. So our universe only exists within itself. It equals to nothing. Like a sum 1-1=0. In the sum both 1 and -1 exist, but really it's 0.
I think we are all one. I think there's one consciousness that created the perfect story in which everything would eventually converge and restart the cycle by diverging as the big bang. It created the universe so that it's conscious would end as sentient and would slowly give rise to more conscious living beings, never dying. It plays out the role of every character of its story and communicates with itself. For every character there is the opposite whose consciousness combined would equal the sentient state of consciousness that is reached at the end of the cycle of the universe.
This cycle repeats itself over and over again.
I still find this idea very alienating, though not as much as during the trip. I really hope someone can tell me something during their dmt experiences that contradicts this idea. Otherwise I would like if someone simply responds that they've had a similar experience to mine. Not being able to tell anybody who had been through the same about this experience is not a something I want to go through again during my next trip.
