EssCee
Rising Star
Hypothesis: Mushrooms will not talk to me @ 5+ g.
Terrence was experiencing groups psychosis brought on by extremely high levels of psilocybin. While he likes to pat himself on the back for being "an explorer", most people would have doubted what they were seeing. He seems to give himself credit for being "hard to influence", however from an outsiders perspective it seems like he didn't doubt himself enough. Furthermore the river/dish experiment failed in the presence of anyone else. Meaning that it was more than likely in his head. He later said. "Don't believe me, prove me wrong. Let's explain this in a way that it was all just some misunderstanding.". This is the challenge I am taking up.
My Tools:
True Hallucinations (either movie or audio book), for the generating sounds.
4:25 minutes the creation noise
True Hallucinations the book, as a guide book to follow the steps they took in LaCarrera.
Scales.
Psilocybin.
Caapi Leaves.
Extracted Rue.
Goal 5g heavy mushrooms (3 subcubs) and possibly an MAOI I will be building up to this. I am going to get there safely.
GOLDEN TEACHER
Dosage 1: (different days building up) 1.5 G Mushrooms, 2.5 g Rue. (MAOI 30 minutes before mushrooms). Mushrooms eaten by Peanut butter and Jelly.
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period. If it isn't strong, then so be it. We are doing this as a test run to make sure I make it to where I want to go safely.
Initial dose, try to force a bad trip. Try to make yourself believe you are talking to something external.
Results: No bad trip, no voices.
Completely in control of my facilities, it was extremely pleasant. I forgot what it was like to feel like you were in the spirit world.
Tried forcing a bad trip. Nothing. Back in the day I was kind of the trip leader, if things went sideways I would be the one to talk them back from the broken gears. That confidence came rushing back. I most definitively want to do a higher dose next time. However I am going to follow my predetermined path.
I felt like the universe was ready and so was I. Almost like foreplay for later.
Need to find better bug spray.
NEW:::::
GOLDEN TEACHER
Next : Dosage 2: 2.375 G Mushrooms, 6 g Rue 3 G Lemon Balm. (MAOI 30 minutes before mushrooms). Mushrooms eaten by Peanut butter and Jelly
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period.I didn't feel like I needed to try to force a bad trip this time. My crud seems very together for tripping.
It was much more visual and a really strong body high! However, again I was very in control.
Visual Hallucinations: The same star I was transfixed on the Orion's belt. Started flickering again, after watching it for a few minutes. The area around the star started getting darker.. then the rest of the universe glowed. it was like the center eye of the universe had geometrically formed.. I was in amazement for what seemed to be minutes, then out of no where.. The universe blinked. All I could think was. It was a test. Something was trying to scare me. My only response.. the same I had during Aya. "Bring it b****, I am more than ready". Unfortunately, after I intervened the visions had stopped. As if because it couldn't warn me to be scared. It didn't want to play.
Within a moment, I noticed a spider falling before my face. As I stood up, it stayed right where it was. It was on me! It had started making a web from my hair to my chest and my left arm. I picked up is web and moved him to a tree that seemed to have a good position near a corner of the forest. It moved and just sat on the leave.
Just then, I had an image where I was controlling the mushrooms with chains and I wasn't allowing them to talk. All I could think was that my steadfastness and what I considered a powerful tool to help me on this journey - my willpower. Was in my way.
Internal Hallucinations: I had a "AHA" moment. When I took Aya, because I was flushed from Puking. I had a 6 pack, and was Charismatic. Over the last 70 days I have been participating in what I should be rather than what I was. When I saw myself in the mirror (lost 30 pounds and started lifting heavily again), I was that vision. I had quit K2, my eyes no longer sunk in with bags. I spent time with my kids swimming and I was tan (both things I told myself I had to do on Aya). I had been in meditation daily. I was that person Aya told me I could be. And it was so F******* beautiful.
I was in Full on Pirate mode.. I felt like I was on a moving ship all night. Familiar to me from high dosage Mushroom trips in my 20's.
Audible Hallucinations:
Nothing, but playing the creation noise. Felt more like vibration like the first time, but I could envision the brothers of the screaming abyss reaching out.
Notes: When I went to the mirror and looked at myself, I said.. "Damn I look good". My wife said "maybe you are dying or something you lost a lot of weight". <-- DOH..
Great news, I didn't think a thing of that statement other than why would someone say that to a tripping person.
Results: No voices, but something was telling me to let go and I was very much about control, not just of myself. But attempted to command the mushrooms.
Dosage 3 [To Come]: 2.75 G Mushrooms, 7 g Rue 3 G Lemon Balm. Wed or Friday (Thursday is Breakthrough night) - Using a real tent so I can stay out longer.
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period. If it isn't strong, then so be it.
Terrence was experiencing groups psychosis brought on by extremely high levels of psilocybin. While he likes to pat himself on the back for being "an explorer", most people would have doubted what they were seeing. He seems to give himself credit for being "hard to influence", however from an outsiders perspective it seems like he didn't doubt himself enough. Furthermore the river/dish experiment failed in the presence of anyone else. Meaning that it was more than likely in his head. He later said. "Don't believe me, prove me wrong. Let's explain this in a way that it was all just some misunderstanding.". This is the challenge I am taking up.
My Tools:
True Hallucinations (either movie or audio book), for the generating sounds.
True Hallucinations the book, as a guide book to follow the steps they took in LaCarrera.
Scales.
Psilocybin.
Caapi Leaves.
Extracted Rue.
Goal 5g heavy mushrooms (3 subcubs) and possibly an MAOI I will be building up to this. I am going to get there safely.
GOLDEN TEACHER
Dosage 1: (different days building up) 1.5 G Mushrooms, 2.5 g Rue. (MAOI 30 minutes before mushrooms). Mushrooms eaten by Peanut butter and Jelly.
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period. If it isn't strong, then so be it. We are doing this as a test run to make sure I make it to where I want to go safely.
Initial dose, try to force a bad trip. Try to make yourself believe you are talking to something external.
Results: No bad trip, no voices.
Completely in control of my facilities, it was extremely pleasant. I forgot what it was like to feel like you were in the spirit world.
Tried forcing a bad trip. Nothing. Back in the day I was kind of the trip leader, if things went sideways I would be the one to talk them back from the broken gears. That confidence came rushing back. I most definitively want to do a higher dose next time. However I am going to follow my predetermined path.
I felt like the universe was ready and so was I. Almost like foreplay for later.
Need to find better bug spray.
NEW:::::
GOLDEN TEACHER
Next : Dosage 2: 2.375 G Mushrooms, 6 g Rue 3 G Lemon Balm. (MAOI 30 minutes before mushrooms). Mushrooms eaten by Peanut butter and Jelly
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period.I didn't feel like I needed to try to force a bad trip this time. My crud seems very together for tripping.
It was much more visual and a really strong body high! However, again I was very in control.
Visual Hallucinations: The same star I was transfixed on the Orion's belt. Started flickering again, after watching it for a few minutes. The area around the star started getting darker.. then the rest of the universe glowed. it was like the center eye of the universe had geometrically formed.. I was in amazement for what seemed to be minutes, then out of no where.. The universe blinked. All I could think was. It was a test. Something was trying to scare me. My only response.. the same I had during Aya. "Bring it b****, I am more than ready". Unfortunately, after I intervened the visions had stopped. As if because it couldn't warn me to be scared. It didn't want to play.
Within a moment, I noticed a spider falling before my face. As I stood up, it stayed right where it was. It was on me! It had started making a web from my hair to my chest and my left arm. I picked up is web and moved him to a tree that seemed to have a good position near a corner of the forest. It moved and just sat on the leave.
Just then, I had an image where I was controlling the mushrooms with chains and I wasn't allowing them to talk. All I could think was that my steadfastness and what I considered a powerful tool to help me on this journey - my willpower. Was in my way.
Internal Hallucinations: I had a "AHA" moment. When I took Aya, because I was flushed from Puking. I had a 6 pack, and was Charismatic. Over the last 70 days I have been participating in what I should be rather than what I was. When I saw myself in the mirror (lost 30 pounds and started lifting heavily again), I was that vision. I had quit K2, my eyes no longer sunk in with bags. I spent time with my kids swimming and I was tan (both things I told myself I had to do on Aya). I had been in meditation daily. I was that person Aya told me I could be. And it was so F******* beautiful.
I was in Full on Pirate mode.. I felt like I was on a moving ship all night. Familiar to me from high dosage Mushroom trips in my 20's.
Audible Hallucinations:
Nothing, but playing the creation noise. Felt more like vibration like the first time, but I could envision the brothers of the screaming abyss reaching out.
Notes: When I went to the mirror and looked at myself, I said.. "Damn I look good". My wife said "maybe you are dying or something you lost a lot of weight". <-- DOH..
Great news, I didn't think a thing of that statement other than why would someone say that to a tripping person.
Results: No voices, but something was telling me to let go and I was very much about control, not just of myself. But attempted to command the mushrooms.
Dosage 3 [To Come]: 2.75 G Mushrooms, 7 g Rue 3 G Lemon Balm. Wed or Friday (Thursday is Breakthrough night) - Using a real tent so I can stay out longer.
Trip Rules: No playing with Kids. Go outside in the dark alone at the peak. Sit in silence, smoke some Caapi. - "Come in little green men". Ask for them to talk to me. No dosing again period. If it isn't strong, then so be it.
