Mister_Niles
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Hi. I have made great strides lately with my mental health. Covid turned into long Covid and the depression really took over. I couldn't bring myself to take any psychedelics even though I knew they would help me. A few weeks ago I started dipping my toe back in.
And boy am I glad I did.
Here's what I've been doing. Rectal ROI harmaline, 30 mg one hour pre-trip then another 30 mixed with 50 mg dmt acetate, rectal ROA, followed by repeated 15 to 20 mg vaporized doses of freebase DMT while lying in bed.
The experiences have been incredible. Healing. Deeply healing. I was finally able to mourn the death of my brother which happened over a decade ago. I have finally embraced my autism which was diagnosed in the 1970s. I have resolved to no longer hide my intelligence and artistic abilities from the world.
My anxiety went from a constant, solid 10 to about a zero. My depression was wiped away almost completely. Cognitive functioning and creative ability are returning to normal.
However… There's always a however. I need one more experience to cement this stuff in place a little bit better. I keep on getting pushback from the universe. Yeah yeah I know. Loaded woo woo language.
It's just easy short hand.
Anyway, any progress I make is seemingly noted and some event or chain of events will happen that seem to be attempting to undo my progress. It's so annoying. Sorry if I seem to be imbuing abstract concepts with agency. It's just very strange. So today I am doing a larger rectal dose of pharma.
Here's my plan for today:
50 milligrams of harmaline rectally, an hour or so pre-trip.
30 more milligrams of rectal harmaline and either 75 or 100 mg of DMT acetate.
50 mg has previously put me into the proper headspace to make vaping a completely worry free act. Zero preflight jitters.
Usually I have a hard time getting myself to take the first vaporized hit.
With 50 mg directly on top of the harmaline, I also get tracers and slight OEV at 50 mg.
Here's my question. Should I go straight to 100 mg? Or should I go with 75 mg? I have heard that the rectal ROA increases bioavailability by up three times. I don't mind being in breakthrough for a while. I am looking for a strong experience but I don't want to traumatize myself. I use the rectal ROA because nausea is so bad orally.
I could always do 75 and have my rectal syringe with 25 mg standing by but I'd rather not try to administer a substance that way while I am tripping. I suppose it's not as difficult is vaping but for some reason I worry that I would spill it or something..
Does anyone have any opinions or experiences that they can share with me? If I don't get a reply in time I imagine that I will get fearless and go with 100mg. I'm still going to have my vapor genie standing by, loaded, just in case.
Thanks for any help. I'm looking forward to this but I am slightly apprehensive about the dosage. I don't want to take too much. I also don't want to take too little. Thanks again.
And boy am I glad I did.
Here's what I've been doing. Rectal ROI harmaline, 30 mg one hour pre-trip then another 30 mixed with 50 mg dmt acetate, rectal ROA, followed by repeated 15 to 20 mg vaporized doses of freebase DMT while lying in bed.
The experiences have been incredible. Healing. Deeply healing. I was finally able to mourn the death of my brother which happened over a decade ago. I have finally embraced my autism which was diagnosed in the 1970s. I have resolved to no longer hide my intelligence and artistic abilities from the world.
My anxiety went from a constant, solid 10 to about a zero. My depression was wiped away almost completely. Cognitive functioning and creative ability are returning to normal.
However… There's always a however. I need one more experience to cement this stuff in place a little bit better. I keep on getting pushback from the universe. Yeah yeah I know. Loaded woo woo language.
It's just easy short hand.
Anyway, any progress I make is seemingly noted and some event or chain of events will happen that seem to be attempting to undo my progress. It's so annoying. Sorry if I seem to be imbuing abstract concepts with agency. It's just very strange. So today I am doing a larger rectal dose of pharma.
Here's my plan for today:
50 milligrams of harmaline rectally, an hour or so pre-trip.
30 more milligrams of rectal harmaline and either 75 or 100 mg of DMT acetate.
50 mg has previously put me into the proper headspace to make vaping a completely worry free act. Zero preflight jitters.
Usually I have a hard time getting myself to take the first vaporized hit.
With 50 mg directly on top of the harmaline, I also get tracers and slight OEV at 50 mg.
Here's my question. Should I go straight to 100 mg? Or should I go with 75 mg? I have heard that the rectal ROA increases bioavailability by up three times. I don't mind being in breakthrough for a while. I am looking for a strong experience but I don't want to traumatize myself. I use the rectal ROA because nausea is so bad orally.
I could always do 75 and have my rectal syringe with 25 mg standing by but I'd rather not try to administer a substance that way while I am tripping. I suppose it's not as difficult is vaping but for some reason I worry that I would spill it or something..
Does anyone have any opinions or experiences that they can share with me? If I don't get a reply in time I imagine that I will get fearless and go with 100mg. I'm still going to have my vapor genie standing by, loaded, just in case.
Thanks for any help. I'm looking forward to this but I am slightly apprehensive about the dosage. I don't want to take too much. I also don't want to take too little. Thanks again.