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Reports of insect like beings while on DMT. My theory/veiwpoint

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Ok. So I've had DMT a few times now and the experience has always been utterly different.
I never know what the source that it's made from is, though I am now growing a few Acacia. Acuminata and Acacia. Obtusifolia to do my own extracts.
This last lot that I bought off a friend of a friend of a friend has been a bit strange. (first time I've gotten some off this person)
The first couple experiences were completely jungle like and mostly plant themed.
I keep reading about these "breakthroughs" and so about half an hour ago I just smoked the biggest one I have had yet which was 60 mg.
My experience was almost identical to what aya describes: A great insectoid being that all things emanate from. It kept putting a thought into my head: "I AM YOUR BREAKTHROUGH!! HOW COULD YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN?! I TAUGHT YOU THIS LESSON LAST TIME!!!!" and I seemed to remember it all perfectly while affected, but now that I am back to "normal" again, I don't remember ever experiencing that before.
I think I was so eager to have this built-up fantasy-like angelic, cosmic break-through described by others that I was ignoring and trying to by-pass this insectoid thing that wanted to communicate with me.
I don't know. Certainly interesting though.
I had Ayahuasca a couple times in Peru a few years back and it was almost always serpent/reptile themed except 1 time when it was totally bird themed.
DMT is certainly a strange strange substance indeed.
 
lyserge said:
Interesting, Eliyahu. I did a google search for "insectoids Bible" and came up with book of Revelations, Chapter 9, wherein I found the below quote. It seems the only insectoid beings mentioned in the Book are of the "bad" variety. Any comment on this?

King James Version said:
3 And there came out of the smoke locusts upon the earth: and unto them was given power, as the scorpions of the earth have power.
4 And it was commanded them that they should not hurt the grass of the earth, neither any green thing, neither any tree; but only those men which have not the seal of God in their foreheads.
6 And in those days shall men seek death, and shall not find it; and shall desire to die, and death shall flee from them.
7 And the shapes of the locusts were like unto horses prepared unto battle; and on their heads were as it were crowns like gold, and their faces were as the faces of men.
8 And they had hair as the hair of women, and their teeth were as the teeth of lions.
9 And they had breastplates, as it were breastplates of iron; and the sound of their wings was as the sound of chariots of many horses running to battle.
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This description sounds like helicopters. Just a thought.
 
well, I'm full of it anyway. Honestly I was lying.
Just something I read in a book and on this website about and had a momentary interest on.
I think I'll be better off having nothing to do with anything like that.
Sorry for the rubbish.
 
Actually your report sounded interesting and it was relevant enough to this four-year-old thread for the bump. Stick around and you'll surely find your way, creative writing or otherwise.
 
I saw a cartoon mantis with a dozen heads--all with radiant, hypnotic, "I'm goofily in love with you" eyes pulling me in and all of his tongues were sticking out, blowing raspberries, saying "Oh la la la! We're just a girl!"
 
I was once dismembered, filled with glowing green geometric jewels, and thrown into resurrection and re-birth a mantis like creature...

I've posted this report a number of times and apologize for being redundant, but I thought it related to the thread title...

*note: the dose range in this report is highly inflated, it is beyond stupid to ever dose this high*

the first time I used N,N-dimethyltryptamine I smoked 200mgs of translucent yellow crystals on top of a small amount of high-grade cannabis, I consumed it in a single inhalation. I held the hit in less than 5 seconds when the rush began, "I don't believe it!" I kept repeating in my head, "this is impossible".... my surroundings began to quiver and slither apart, faster than anything I had ever seen everything began moving away from everything else in a mash of brilliant color geometric form, and speed, before fully shattering the "reality" in my visual and mental field, it came on like a freight train, I remember thinking "oh fuck! Get this stuff out of me!" And frantically trying to exhale. It was pure terror, I thought "now you have done it! You killed yourself!" After brief mourning at the life I had just departed from I began to pay attention to the present, I remember feeling like I was at the bottom of a foggy mountain with dirt roads, the clouds felt like a domed ceiling, everything was wet, misty, cloudy and rainy, I was overcome with an intense feeling of panic and deja-vu, I felt like a lost child, everything I knew about who I was or my life or earth seemed like a distant dream, like I dissolved out of existence, I interpreted this as dying, I knew that I was dead, and I was emotionally overwhelmed while confronting the event of my death, just like sand slipping through finger cracks I tried to hold onto this all as my entire identity as a human was dissolved, I remembered my name, the earth, my family, who I was, being a human, and life, but like grabbing at smoke, it was futile, all of this slipped away and nearly faded entirely out of my memory, impossible to cling to all this, I had to let it go...I kept thinking "what the fuck was life?" ...I could not tell if I was breathing or not, I would take air in, but couldn't feel it, I began taking in panicked deep breaths, thinking that none of the oxygen was entering my system, then noticed a pain in my chest, a giant mantis like being had its claws in my chest! It proceeded to tear open my chest and stomach removing all my organs and insides, I was about to go into shock when I saw a bright green light flash over my shoulder, it nearly hit me, it then became a beautiful fractal-geometric object, morphing and color changing, at times it was metallic at other times it was a beautiful jewel, and all the while to look into it was to view endless geometric fractal patterns, moving, morphing, and changing color. The mantis then put this object in my torn up body, he began to make billions of these objects, each one unique and radiating beautiful colored light, and the mantoid filled my body with them, billions of them, becoming small as atoms to construct the new insides of my mangled corpse, then I was sealed up and propelled into an orange light where I was resurrected, my conscious-being (soul) was becoming reunited with the physical world ...then I felt as if I was being pushed head first through a thick gelatinous membrane, violent gesticulations of the membrane surrounding me were forcing me through this thing...I was being born...slowly I began to recognize my surroundings, my face still covered in tears, I looked up and saw the branches of a tree in the yard all slither in sinister fashion in from all directions to take place and solidify as the tree in the distance, the world began to slither back into place, most things moved in an elegant liquid serpentine slithering motion, or like the dancing movements of a flame, as the world constructed itself back into the familiar, so did my conscious state and memory, I was still disoriented, and fairly traumatized, I thought I had been gone for millennia, "how long was I gone I asked?"...."about 20 minutes" was the answer ....those who were there said in reality I curled up into a ball and began to cry for 20 minutes, I was wondering why my face was wet, because it felt like I had actually just been through being born, I was still covered in tears...any way the immense deep spiritual and psychological implications of this experience left me for ever transformed, reborn as a new person entirely, it was the single most meaningful thing that has ever happened to me, and changed me in many significant ways, all for the better.
-eg
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-eg
 
I've had insectoid experiences under the influence. On ayahuasca I had visions of a little bug happily on its leaf then getting sprayed with insecticide. It survived, but only just. After pulling through it had a terrible grudge against humans. It underwent a transformation somewhat like locusts do when they enter a swarming phase.

At some point after this I merged with a mantis-like spirit form. The most interesting bit was the sensation of having long, whip-like antennae.
 
One night, before eating a large amount of psilocybe fungi, I watched like ten episodes of "Monster Bug Wars" on science channel, and it totally messed up my trip...

It was disgusting feeling, it's a disgusting realm of consciousness, hell exists right along side us, it's just so small it almost never affects us...

-eg
 
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