Greetings from Cyb y'all!
I have been visiting nexus forum for some time now to ingest some knowledge, familiarize with other people insane(wonderful) experiences/discussions. I know.. another stalker..
It is really nice community in here, full of individuals who spread some love, passion, anger.. you name it. :thumb_up: Anyway.. back on topic. I'll give short introduction of my self before I share my experience.
Intro:
I am student, soon going to be in my 30ties, I don't use any substances/drugs, nor do I have any psychedelic experience. Religion - no, no.. even thou I was raised in Christian family. I feel myself as open minded, quite active, I do meditation from time to time.
I am interested in psychedelic experiences nearly a year now. The main influence was due to eager to develop my self not only in physical realm. I did research before I used DMT, watch documentaries, followed some Gurus(my favourite was Patricio Dominguez, the way he explained.. superb!).
My launch:
The day I received my substance I was exited, although I knew from other people trips that emotions plays a key part in a take-offs, so I reduced my emotions to minimum. On the evening I prepared my environment for a ritual, spend 30 minutes to reduce anxiety with meditation,I set my best collection of hard-bass techno music and was ready to blast off.
I inhaled around 45-50mg of white/yellowish substance in one go... And it begun..
The feeling when you exhale after 20 seconds of holding was astonishing. I felt falling backwards in the soft clouds; at the same time I heard sound of thousands of pieces of glass braking. I thought to my self "Ok, just keep calm, you always wanted this" and soon after I was introduced with spinning circle of red and yellow triangles with colours brightness like from 16k tv.. At one second I thought that I'm in some kind of super sonic Nintendo DS game.. And from here BOOM!!! ..nothing..singularity.. can't remember anything... And then.. real sh!t started boiling..
It was in a strange feeling that I never had before, I was bombarded with all soft of information: past, present, future.. questions I want to ask and I don't. I was looking for emotions to express my self but I couldn't, such emotions didn't exist. I thought to myself "Why such doors exist..? The doors which can be opened, but couldn't be close. If I knew where it leads to; I would think twice". But I was already in the other side and I couldn't change anything.. I was standing alongside doors in the middle of no where, everything around was black; like in space, but without the stars. And then BOOM!!! again.. singularity...
I couldn't recall how long I was off (had no sense of time), but first thing I remember that I came back to very similar place where I left before my first blackout. A place with spinning circle of red and yellow triangles but this time I felt entity presence. It was before me and I felt that my own freewill was gone. Entity had full control over me. I was placed in some kind of vacuum where I could hear only water bubbles coming up every couple seconds.. Then I noticed that every time I breath air through nose I inhale some kind of plastic at the same time (like harribo gummy bears, just taste was awful). When I tied to say something same plastic was falling from my mouth(trust me, it was scary :shock: ).
I though to my self "That's fucking it. I shouldn't play with the matches.. I stuck here forever" and let me tell ya.. this one was not like from stories about machine trickster elves.. I felt that whatever this thing was it had no emotions, had dominance, control and aggressive intentions. At that moment I understood that Entity had to do something with the human race (It was feeling; I cannot describe why I felt that :?: ).
Then at the most hopeless and powerless moment I appeared in the different place, a place which I knew in world. I've seen the animals running in the fields, bugs on leaves, nature.. and then I Smiled.. I felt relieved
At exact same moment when I smiled I came back to the same place with the entity. Although this time I was no longer in the control. The entity became angry straight away. I felt profound emotions to the entity, but none of them where negative. I smiled again and showed Victory sign and that was enough to scare entity away....and that was my trip.
Thanks for reading,
Much love
(btw I was joking about music
)
I have been visiting nexus forum for some time now to ingest some knowledge, familiarize with other people insane(wonderful) experiences/discussions. I know.. another stalker..
It is really nice community in here, full of individuals who spread some love, passion, anger.. you name it. :thumb_up: Anyway.. back on topic. I'll give short introduction of my self before I share my experience. Intro:
I am student, soon going to be in my 30ties, I don't use any substances/drugs, nor do I have any psychedelic experience. Religion - no, no.. even thou I was raised in Christian family. I feel myself as open minded, quite active, I do meditation from time to time.
I am interested in psychedelic experiences nearly a year now. The main influence was due to eager to develop my self not only in physical realm. I did research before I used DMT, watch documentaries, followed some Gurus(my favourite was Patricio Dominguez, the way he explained.. superb!).
My launch:
The day I received my substance I was exited, although I knew from other people trips that emotions plays a key part in a take-offs, so I reduced my emotions to minimum. On the evening I prepared my environment for a ritual, spend 30 minutes to reduce anxiety with meditation,I set my best collection of hard-bass techno music and was ready to blast off.
I inhaled around 45-50mg of white/yellowish substance in one go... And it begun..
The feeling when you exhale after 20 seconds of holding was astonishing. I felt falling backwards in the soft clouds; at the same time I heard sound of thousands of pieces of glass braking. I thought to my self "Ok, just keep calm, you always wanted this" and soon after I was introduced with spinning circle of red and yellow triangles with colours brightness like from 16k tv.. At one second I thought that I'm in some kind of super sonic Nintendo DS game.. And from here BOOM!!! ..nothing..singularity.. can't remember anything... And then.. real sh!t started boiling..
It was in a strange feeling that I never had before, I was bombarded with all soft of information: past, present, future.. questions I want to ask and I don't. I was looking for emotions to express my self but I couldn't, such emotions didn't exist. I thought to myself "Why such doors exist..? The doors which can be opened, but couldn't be close. If I knew where it leads to; I would think twice". But I was already in the other side and I couldn't change anything.. I was standing alongside doors in the middle of no where, everything around was black; like in space, but without the stars. And then BOOM!!! again.. singularity...
I couldn't recall how long I was off (had no sense of time), but first thing I remember that I came back to very similar place where I left before my first blackout. A place with spinning circle of red and yellow triangles but this time I felt entity presence. It was before me and I felt that my own freewill was gone. Entity had full control over me. I was placed in some kind of vacuum where I could hear only water bubbles coming up every couple seconds.. Then I noticed that every time I breath air through nose I inhale some kind of plastic at the same time (like harribo gummy bears, just taste was awful). When I tied to say something same plastic was falling from my mouth(trust me, it was scary :shock: ).
I though to my self "That's fucking it. I shouldn't play with the matches.. I stuck here forever" and let me tell ya.. this one was not like from stories about machine trickster elves.. I felt that whatever this thing was it had no emotions, had dominance, control and aggressive intentions. At that moment I understood that Entity had to do something with the human race (It was feeling; I cannot describe why I felt that :?: ).
Then at the most hopeless and powerless moment I appeared in the different place, a place which I knew in world. I've seen the animals running in the fields, bugs on leaves, nature.. and then I Smiled.. I felt relieved
At exact same moment when I smiled I came back to the same place with the entity. Although this time I was no longer in the control. The entity became angry straight away. I felt profound emotions to the entity, but none of them where negative. I smiled again and showed Victory sign and that was enough to scare entity away....and that was my trip.Thanks for reading,
Much love
(btw I was joking about music
)
