Hi All,
Apologies if this belongs in a different section.
I am wondering if anyone else experiences the type of fear/anxiety that I do when taking DMT. I am not talking about the fear or nervousness that seems quite common such as pre-flight or when experiencing the unknown, but something quite different.
Pre flight I sometimes get butterflies in my stomach as I know what is coming. But this feels normal and expected to me, much as I would feel prior to a bungee jump or parachute jump. This is not an issue.
The issue is as the DMT kicks in, I experience a sense of fear, dread, anxiety, like I have never experienced elsewhere. And this happens every time without fail, and no matter the dose.
I have used DMT somewhere between 50 to 70 times, ranging in doses typically from 10mg to 40mg, and the fear is there and at the same level of extreme intensity every time. My usual dose is between 10-20mg. I am not going for a breakthrough, but more of an adaptation of regular micro dosing. 10mg for me gives no real visuals at all other than with eyes closed it is similar to if I rubbed my eyes quite hard. And I see the same patterns in the same order every time. I absolutely know what to expect and visually it is very pleasant. So, mentally, I am enjoying the experience (or at least I should be) but physically it is the worst thing ever.
And that's my point. This is a physical reaction rather than a psychological or emotional one (as far as I can tell). I get spasms in my abdomen and legs as well which does seem to be quite common, but I haven't found anyone else describing the same anxiety reaction I seem to get.
I extract my own DMT so I am confident of what I am taking. And I use a Vandy Vape set up to ensure I burn at the right temp every time. I have tried it with meditation, breathing, fasted, non-fasted, morning or night, alone, and with a trusted sitter. Nothing makes any difference. Even at 5mg, where I know I will experience zero visuals nor any sense of "flight", I still get the same extreme physical fear reaction. It lasts for the 7 to 10 minutes of the trip (even when there is no trip because of the low dose). Afterwards, I am left happy and content, so the longer lasting effects are always positive, but my goodness, it takes all my courage to go through the experience to begin with because it is so unpleasant.
Recently I have taken these small doses every day for 2 weeks. There is no tolerance build up or reduction in the feeling of fear.
Has anyone else experienced this or have any knowledge or information that may help? It almost feels like I am somewhat allergic to the substance, but I find that hard to believe.
Thank you in advance for any comments.
Apologies if this belongs in a different section.
I am wondering if anyone else experiences the type of fear/anxiety that I do when taking DMT. I am not talking about the fear or nervousness that seems quite common such as pre-flight or when experiencing the unknown, but something quite different.
Pre flight I sometimes get butterflies in my stomach as I know what is coming. But this feels normal and expected to me, much as I would feel prior to a bungee jump or parachute jump. This is not an issue.
The issue is as the DMT kicks in, I experience a sense of fear, dread, anxiety, like I have never experienced elsewhere. And this happens every time without fail, and no matter the dose.
I have used DMT somewhere between 50 to 70 times, ranging in doses typically from 10mg to 40mg, and the fear is there and at the same level of extreme intensity every time. My usual dose is between 10-20mg. I am not going for a breakthrough, but more of an adaptation of regular micro dosing. 10mg for me gives no real visuals at all other than with eyes closed it is similar to if I rubbed my eyes quite hard. And I see the same patterns in the same order every time. I absolutely know what to expect and visually it is very pleasant. So, mentally, I am enjoying the experience (or at least I should be) but physically it is the worst thing ever.
And that's my point. This is a physical reaction rather than a psychological or emotional one (as far as I can tell). I get spasms in my abdomen and legs as well which does seem to be quite common, but I haven't found anyone else describing the same anxiety reaction I seem to get.
I extract my own DMT so I am confident of what I am taking. And I use a Vandy Vape set up to ensure I burn at the right temp every time. I have tried it with meditation, breathing, fasted, non-fasted, morning or night, alone, and with a trusted sitter. Nothing makes any difference. Even at 5mg, where I know I will experience zero visuals nor any sense of "flight", I still get the same extreme physical fear reaction. It lasts for the 7 to 10 minutes of the trip (even when there is no trip because of the low dose). Afterwards, I am left happy and content, so the longer lasting effects are always positive, but my goodness, it takes all my courage to go through the experience to begin with because it is so unpleasant.
Recently I have taken these small doses every day for 2 weeks. There is no tolerance build up or reduction in the feeling of fear.
Has anyone else experienced this or have any knowledge or information that may help? It almost feels like I am somewhat allergic to the substance, but I find that hard to believe.
Thank you in advance for any comments.
