Caespitosa
Rising Star
Hello everyone,
So yesterday I attempted to breakthrough using GVG 40mg nndmt. I did not manage to breakthrough and instantly began to choke, I ran to the bathroom trying to vomit and couldn't, I felt like something was trying to kill me, physically, actually, kill me.
At the time I assumed it was the dmt, and that I was having a bad trip, and somehow denied access to hyperspace, as I have never broken through, and have been attempting for a few days.
Today I tried again, this time 25mg x 2. The first hit I was okay, I wasn't broken through however felt a presence approach as I laid on the bed, and began to realize and make sense of what happened yesterday. So I came to the conclusion that I just needed to relax, understand that everything will be alright, and stop trying to be in control of everything. Then I took the 2nd 25mg...
Same thing as yesterday, I began to be choked, i again ran to the bathroom trying to puke but couldn't. I could sense what I make out to be some parasitic entity. It IS trying to kill me!!
It is somehow denying me entry to hyperspace and is physically trying to kill me. I feel that if I attempt to breakthrough again that it is going to be there waiting for me and try and kill me.
I know it sounds like I'm being dramatic, but I'm not. I fought for my life two days in a row. I know its good quality dmt, I know this isn't poisoning, or overdosing. This is something, interdimensional? spiritual? evil? But it is trying to kill me. I know this.
I haven't physically seen it, but I can sense it, see it in my minds eye, not physically, but its presence is so physical I felt i could punch it, though I know it would have no effect.
Please my dear Nexians, have any of you encountered this before? Can you offer some advice as to stop this. It was torture, and very very real. I'm not very literate so I'm trying my best to put this into words. I don't know where else to speak about this.
Please help.
Caespitosa
So yesterday I attempted to breakthrough using GVG 40mg nndmt. I did not manage to breakthrough and instantly began to choke, I ran to the bathroom trying to vomit and couldn't, I felt like something was trying to kill me, physically, actually, kill me.
At the time I assumed it was the dmt, and that I was having a bad trip, and somehow denied access to hyperspace, as I have never broken through, and have been attempting for a few days.
Today I tried again, this time 25mg x 2. The first hit I was okay, I wasn't broken through however felt a presence approach as I laid on the bed, and began to realize and make sense of what happened yesterday. So I came to the conclusion that I just needed to relax, understand that everything will be alright, and stop trying to be in control of everything. Then I took the 2nd 25mg...
Same thing as yesterday, I began to be choked, i again ran to the bathroom trying to puke but couldn't. I could sense what I make out to be some parasitic entity. It IS trying to kill me!!
It is somehow denying me entry to hyperspace and is physically trying to kill me. I feel that if I attempt to breakthrough again that it is going to be there waiting for me and try and kill me.
I know it sounds like I'm being dramatic, but I'm not. I fought for my life two days in a row. I know its good quality dmt, I know this isn't poisoning, or overdosing. This is something, interdimensional? spiritual? evil? But it is trying to kill me. I know this.
I haven't physically seen it, but I can sense it, see it in my minds eye, not physically, but its presence is so physical I felt i could punch it, though I know it would have no effect.
Please my dear Nexians, have any of you encountered this before? Can you offer some advice as to stop this. It was torture, and very very real. I'm not very literate so I'm trying my best to put this into words. I don't know where else to speak about this.
Please help.
Caespitosa