Thank you upwaysidedown!

What you've said makes a lot of sense to me. I was very frightened and panicked, thus making things a lot worse. I also was quite traumatized and came here straight away looking for advice. Just now I have tried a lower dose 15mg, this time with someone in another room sending me love and good thoughts, and there was no choking, no breakthrough, but wonderful visuals nonetheless. I believe my state of mind was the cause of all this, not my method of smoking. Thank you again for the advice.

I am going to take a break for a week, I have exams coming up and need to focus on this. I will attempt a breakthrough next week some time. This time with someone very loving and positive present again. Even if to just allow me to relax and let go.