I'm feeling compelled to share some recent observations, with little bit of prefacing what i've been up to. I'm not looking for any sort of judgement as in 'your use has been abuse' type of deal, i can pretty much suss that out myself. Several days ago i hit about 60mg in my mighty vape and while i did feel something, it kinda shocked me a bit it was like a sort of TOTAL lockout. Normally I have pretty 'extreme' tolerance to DMT and I feel like my brain is just wired differently after so many years of chronic cannabis use. I remember a youtube video where an anesthesiologist or doctor was saying that people that do weed need way more of the sedative drugs they give in order to keep them sedated during surgery. Also I saw someones post on here talking about how cannabis seems to block DMT. This might not be true for everyone but I can definitely say I have for whatever reason a giant tolerance for DMT.
I've never fully broken through, there was a time where I was existing without my body existing. Not entirely, somewhere i could feel myself breathing there, but it was like total bliss, I have this theory that we are not our bodies we are the consciousness perceiving this reality or whatever but we associate 'ourselves' with these bodies we inhabit here but this body isn't the 'real me.' Anyways After I did the 60mg dose and felt almost nothing I was like okay maybe that is a sign to stop for a while. Ignored that as two days later I did another mighty hit, I think it was around 40-50mg and it was about the same. Anyways Still didn't completely persuade me from stopping, I mean even though I knew I had just done some 'monster hits' I thought maybe it was my vaping technique (even though for once I had actually achieved thick vapor with the mighty, and knew it wasn't my technique.)
Recently though I had another encounter with the void, I did a large hit of changa and there was a brief moment of nothingness when I closed my eyes. It was so immediate and total, I was just gone it freaked me out. Normally I see the waiting rooom pattern or whatever but this was just *poof* utter nothingness so I opened up my eyes and it was like I was back, phew. The next time I did it the next day, I also had a brief moment of like 'breakthrough.' I feel like when doing changa, the DMT kicks in faster than the MAOI and there is a brief few moments where it's a purely DMT high and then the harmalas start to ramp up and do their thing. So during the initial 'blast' I feel like I made contact with a cat entity or something, it was just a total blip and felt like what I could only describe as a glitch in the matrix but then it was gone.
Getting to the crux of this post, I would like to share some bizarre thing that has been happening the past few times. I sometimes do changa/freebase in the bathtub. Yes I know the bathtub isn't the best place to blast off but I don't tend to ever blast off. Even with like 150mg of changa I still don't get there. Anyways this has completely messed with me... this sticky skin experience. I have done changa baths many many many times but recently i had my skin literally turn all sticky on me. It's happened about 3 times so far. Maybe it doesn't even have to do at all with changa, or maybe it's just some sort of interaction with the MAO inhibitor or something. Because I feel like it wasn't imagined.
First time it was like I had noticed my shins and calves were coated in a blackish substance, I was like WHAT THE HECK... I was weirded out while on changa seeing this, the black stuff washed off and I felt like draining the bath and running another one, somehow I didn't want to be stewing in the bathtub with this black shit. I am thinking it was some microplastics from my sweatpants, had been biking and at the gym in these black pants. However I realized then it was like my whole freaking body had been sticky. I was freaking out and did my best to wash it off like using insane amounts of soap but it was really hard to get this residue off my skin, like castille soap just wasn't doing anything to get this off.
I was a bit weirded out by this experience, and did some googling on sticky skin. It turns out that you can get sticky skin from taking too much iodine, and I had been taking iodine recently, something I've never done before. As well, during one of my previous changa baths, i had the genius idea of putting peppermint oil in the bath water and found myself kinda burning all over. Google was also saying that sticky skin can be a result of undiluted essential oils.
So it's like the next time I go in the bath I had the same thing after doing changa, the weird sticky skin and I was freaking out thinking that I had somehow destroyed my skins dermal barrier somehow taking iodine or something (even though I was taking as much iodine as it was reccomended on the bottle) and/or melted it using peppermint oil. Also I had the whole static pattern overlay on my legs, kind of a leopard print looking thing. I was kind of mesmerized by the beauty of it but kinda just still a bit weirded out with the skin stickyness.
I had another bath just now, normally when doing my changa baths it's like I do it as soon as i jump in the water (and mind you i only put enough water so i can lay back fully and still be breathing fine) but this time I waited like 20 minutes or so, and I didn't have sticky skin. I thought it was gone, did the changa, Kept a hand on my chest or whatnot and I could literally feel my skin transition from 'normal skin' to this 'sticky film skin' over the course of like 5 seconds or so. I'm not sure what the heck is going on other than I'm taking an actual break this time. I've been going pretty solid with this whole changa mission for like well over a month now almost daily and it's time for some serious integration.
I'm not sure what the sticky skin issue is. Normally dmt/changa gives visual disturbances, like I have become a 'putty/clay person' many a time. Also I have experienced my own version of 'legoland' time and time and time again - my own version because I thought legoland was the specific 'caricature look' that reality takes on when on the molecule. But then I looked in the lexicon and it mentioned that legoland is like literally comprised of lego blocks. I don't get the lego block effect but things do take on this look. But I've never had any sort of tactile disturbances like this sticky skin thing. Like I could literally feel my fingers sticking after i rubbed my skin, and i could feel like i was actually sticking to the bottom of the bathtub. I've seen the pattern overlay and the visual distortions of reality but never something tactile. Also, I distinctly could taste something bitter in my mouth. I thought I was just imaginging things but it happened again and my theory was I was tasting the epsom salts in the water - seeping in through my skin. DMSO the solvent is suppsed to like carry things through the skin, I was thinking like maybe because my dermal barrier is messed up for whatever reason, my skin had become permeable. I've never done DMSO but I had the feeling if your skins lipid or dermal barrier or whatever is compromised stuff would be able to get in.
Google said that if you repeatedly have sticky skin happening u need to go see a dermatologist asap. But what just weirds me out is why did my skin 'transition' to being like sticky only after hitting the changa? Perhaps I could try taking a bath tomorrow and seeing if harmalas themselves produce the same effect, because I thought maybe there is some sort of interaction from the harmalas and whatever is goin on in my body right now. But the rapidity with which my skin changed to sticky after hitting changa makes me think it was all an illusion. But how convincing, like I said I was sticking to the bottom of the tub, not like stuck there but could feel my skin not sliding like it normally would. Anyways I get that it's time to take a good long break and do some integration and work, but this was too insane not to share. If anybody has any ideas or relevant insights/experience I would love to hear.
I've never fully broken through, there was a time where I was existing without my body existing. Not entirely, somewhere i could feel myself breathing there, but it was like total bliss, I have this theory that we are not our bodies we are the consciousness perceiving this reality or whatever but we associate 'ourselves' with these bodies we inhabit here but this body isn't the 'real me.' Anyways After I did the 60mg dose and felt almost nothing I was like okay maybe that is a sign to stop for a while. Ignored that as two days later I did another mighty hit, I think it was around 40-50mg and it was about the same. Anyways Still didn't completely persuade me from stopping, I mean even though I knew I had just done some 'monster hits' I thought maybe it was my vaping technique (even though for once I had actually achieved thick vapor with the mighty, and knew it wasn't my technique.)
Recently though I had another encounter with the void, I did a large hit of changa and there was a brief moment of nothingness when I closed my eyes. It was so immediate and total, I was just gone it freaked me out. Normally I see the waiting rooom pattern or whatever but this was just *poof* utter nothingness so I opened up my eyes and it was like I was back, phew. The next time I did it the next day, I also had a brief moment of like 'breakthrough.' I feel like when doing changa, the DMT kicks in faster than the MAOI and there is a brief few moments where it's a purely DMT high and then the harmalas start to ramp up and do their thing. So during the initial 'blast' I feel like I made contact with a cat entity or something, it was just a total blip and felt like what I could only describe as a glitch in the matrix but then it was gone.
Getting to the crux of this post, I would like to share some bizarre thing that has been happening the past few times. I sometimes do changa/freebase in the bathtub. Yes I know the bathtub isn't the best place to blast off but I don't tend to ever blast off. Even with like 150mg of changa I still don't get there. Anyways this has completely messed with me... this sticky skin experience. I have done changa baths many many many times but recently i had my skin literally turn all sticky on me. It's happened about 3 times so far. Maybe it doesn't even have to do at all with changa, or maybe it's just some sort of interaction with the MAO inhibitor or something. Because I feel like it wasn't imagined.
First time it was like I had noticed my shins and calves were coated in a blackish substance, I was like WHAT THE HECK... I was weirded out while on changa seeing this, the black stuff washed off and I felt like draining the bath and running another one, somehow I didn't want to be stewing in the bathtub with this black shit. I am thinking it was some microplastics from my sweatpants, had been biking and at the gym in these black pants. However I realized then it was like my whole freaking body had been sticky. I was freaking out and did my best to wash it off like using insane amounts of soap but it was really hard to get this residue off my skin, like castille soap just wasn't doing anything to get this off.
I was a bit weirded out by this experience, and did some googling on sticky skin. It turns out that you can get sticky skin from taking too much iodine, and I had been taking iodine recently, something I've never done before. As well, during one of my previous changa baths, i had the genius idea of putting peppermint oil in the bath water and found myself kinda burning all over. Google was also saying that sticky skin can be a result of undiluted essential oils.
So it's like the next time I go in the bath I had the same thing after doing changa, the weird sticky skin and I was freaking out thinking that I had somehow destroyed my skins dermal barrier somehow taking iodine or something (even though I was taking as much iodine as it was reccomended on the bottle) and/or melted it using peppermint oil. Also I had the whole static pattern overlay on my legs, kind of a leopard print looking thing. I was kind of mesmerized by the beauty of it but kinda just still a bit weirded out with the skin stickyness.
I had another bath just now, normally when doing my changa baths it's like I do it as soon as i jump in the water (and mind you i only put enough water so i can lay back fully and still be breathing fine) but this time I waited like 20 minutes or so, and I didn't have sticky skin. I thought it was gone, did the changa, Kept a hand on my chest or whatnot and I could literally feel my skin transition from 'normal skin' to this 'sticky film skin' over the course of like 5 seconds or so. I'm not sure what the heck is going on other than I'm taking an actual break this time. I've been going pretty solid with this whole changa mission for like well over a month now almost daily and it's time for some serious integration.
I'm not sure what the sticky skin issue is. Normally dmt/changa gives visual disturbances, like I have become a 'putty/clay person' many a time. Also I have experienced my own version of 'legoland' time and time and time again - my own version because I thought legoland was the specific 'caricature look' that reality takes on when on the molecule. But then I looked in the lexicon and it mentioned that legoland is like literally comprised of lego blocks. I don't get the lego block effect but things do take on this look. But I've never had any sort of tactile disturbances like this sticky skin thing. Like I could literally feel my fingers sticking after i rubbed my skin, and i could feel like i was actually sticking to the bottom of the bathtub. I've seen the pattern overlay and the visual distortions of reality but never something tactile. Also, I distinctly could taste something bitter in my mouth. I thought I was just imaginging things but it happened again and my theory was I was tasting the epsom salts in the water - seeping in through my skin. DMSO the solvent is suppsed to like carry things through the skin, I was thinking like maybe because my dermal barrier is messed up for whatever reason, my skin had become permeable. I've never done DMSO but I had the feeling if your skins lipid or dermal barrier or whatever is compromised stuff would be able to get in.
Google said that if you repeatedly have sticky skin happening u need to go see a dermatologist asap. But what just weirds me out is why did my skin 'transition' to being like sticky only after hitting the changa? Perhaps I could try taking a bath tomorrow and seeing if harmalas themselves produce the same effect, because I thought maybe there is some sort of interaction from the harmalas and whatever is goin on in my body right now. But the rapidity with which my skin changed to sticky after hitting changa makes me think it was all an illusion. But how convincing, like I said I was sticking to the bottom of the tub, not like stuck there but could feel my skin not sliding like it normally would. Anyways I get that it's time to take a good long break and do some integration and work, but this was too insane not to share. If anybody has any ideas or relevant insights/experience I would love to hear.


