paulieg2609
Rising Star
- Merits
- 42
Hi all, I need to relate some of my recent dmt experiences.
I have fallen in love with this substance for starters.
Its hard to know where to start, I have been experimenting etc etc, I have had my dmt speak to me several times.
During one extremely high dose trip I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom and noticed in the pattern of the tiles the clear image of a dark haired beautiful woman watching me as I was taken by the flow. For some reason I decided to call this person/entity to me. So in my mind I stated "Come to me" to this beautiful woman. The trip continued to its conclusion and I gave no more thought to the episode.
During a subsequent journey I was using a candle to help with lighting my changa, I finished the dosing and blew out the candle, I marveled for a second at the beautiful shape the smoke of the blown out candle made, then I turned away and put my bong etc away, when I turned back to the candle it was alight again with an incredible halo of patterned coloured light around it and it was singing a kind of song, like it was trying to tell me something, I sat and listened to this incomprehensible sound and thought on how beautiful the dmt experience can be.
A few days later I had just finished a smoke and was going to the lounge room to relax, suddenly I was seized by something and laid flat out on my back, its hard to explain but one second I was walking and the next I was on my back completely unable to move, but I didnt fall down, I was taken hold of physically and laid on my back. Looking up I could see a truly spectacular and astonishingly beautiful pearl white light radiating from the light in the ceiling, it was like it was raining down upon me and there was an intricate pattern within this light. It was a startling experience but not really frightening. After several minutes I was able to move again and the light had gone. I felt like I had been thoroughly examined and analyzed, but there was no feeling of malevolence or badness to it, more like it was curiosity and a sense of questioning to it. There was also a distinctly feminine feel to the entity that did this to me.
A day or so later I was having a smoke, I was in my bathroom and was going to have a shower, I like to have a dmt hit before my shower. I was sitting on the floor in my boxers, having just taken the hit when everything changed, my mind was taken hold of and I started to fall forward, then I was roughly seized hold of, my boxers were stripped from my body and I was forced into position similar to what the faithful assume when praying, that is I was put on my knees and bent forward with my elbows and forearms on the floor and my head pressed to the floor, this after having been stripped naked. I felt an overwhelming sense of anger directed at me by what felt to me to be a male entity. The understanding I felt was that I was being punished for summoning the female entity that I saw in my previous vision, I believe that the female was the first entity that had seized me and shined the beautiful light on me a day earlier. I was stunned and afraid, and my wife must have heard something because she came to the bathroom asking if I was ok, I said I was fine, though I was far from it at that point. I started frantically explaining in my mind to this person? that I meant no harm and was not intending any harm to anyone, that I really just wanted to learn and did not know what I had done. After a while I was released again feeling as if I had been read like a book. I think maybe this person was the father of the female being I had summoned inadvertently. Its all so strange and hard to get my head around.
The next day I was frightened to have a smoke as I was convinced I was going to be snuffed out like a candle, but I took hold of courage and smoked again, before I had even finished the smoke the changa in my stash jar stood up like a snake and said in a clear and frightened voice "He is coming" I then felt an incredible pressure of attack within my head, I kind of I dont know steeled my mind and everything around me started to dissolve, I was babbling in my mind that I was not trying to hurt anyone, and in a flash of understanding I realized that these entities thought I was trying to bind the female entity to me in the way that evil sorcerers do, I repeated again I meant no harm, that I was a person of love and would never seek to dominate anyone. I think I must have been believed because all pressure released and everything solidified again. It was scary and hugely profound.
Looking at what I have written it seems so unbelievable, but truly this is what has happened. I have more to this story to tell but must go now, I will try and finish the whole thing off soon, but for now Im gone.
Comments and insights would be welcome.
I have fallen in love with this substance for starters.
Its hard to know where to start, I have been experimenting etc etc, I have had my dmt speak to me several times.
During one extremely high dose trip I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom and noticed in the pattern of the tiles the clear image of a dark haired beautiful woman watching me as I was taken by the flow. For some reason I decided to call this person/entity to me. So in my mind I stated "Come to me" to this beautiful woman. The trip continued to its conclusion and I gave no more thought to the episode.
During a subsequent journey I was using a candle to help with lighting my changa, I finished the dosing and blew out the candle, I marveled for a second at the beautiful shape the smoke of the blown out candle made, then I turned away and put my bong etc away, when I turned back to the candle it was alight again with an incredible halo of patterned coloured light around it and it was singing a kind of song, like it was trying to tell me something, I sat and listened to this incomprehensible sound and thought on how beautiful the dmt experience can be.
A few days later I had just finished a smoke and was going to the lounge room to relax, suddenly I was seized by something and laid flat out on my back, its hard to explain but one second I was walking and the next I was on my back completely unable to move, but I didnt fall down, I was taken hold of physically and laid on my back. Looking up I could see a truly spectacular and astonishingly beautiful pearl white light radiating from the light in the ceiling, it was like it was raining down upon me and there was an intricate pattern within this light. It was a startling experience but not really frightening. After several minutes I was able to move again and the light had gone. I felt like I had been thoroughly examined and analyzed, but there was no feeling of malevolence or badness to it, more like it was curiosity and a sense of questioning to it. There was also a distinctly feminine feel to the entity that did this to me.
A day or so later I was having a smoke, I was in my bathroom and was going to have a shower, I like to have a dmt hit before my shower. I was sitting on the floor in my boxers, having just taken the hit when everything changed, my mind was taken hold of and I started to fall forward, then I was roughly seized hold of, my boxers were stripped from my body and I was forced into position similar to what the faithful assume when praying, that is I was put on my knees and bent forward with my elbows and forearms on the floor and my head pressed to the floor, this after having been stripped naked. I felt an overwhelming sense of anger directed at me by what felt to me to be a male entity. The understanding I felt was that I was being punished for summoning the female entity that I saw in my previous vision, I believe that the female was the first entity that had seized me and shined the beautiful light on me a day earlier. I was stunned and afraid, and my wife must have heard something because she came to the bathroom asking if I was ok, I said I was fine, though I was far from it at that point. I started frantically explaining in my mind to this person? that I meant no harm and was not intending any harm to anyone, that I really just wanted to learn and did not know what I had done. After a while I was released again feeling as if I had been read like a book. I think maybe this person was the father of the female being I had summoned inadvertently. Its all so strange and hard to get my head around.
The next day I was frightened to have a smoke as I was convinced I was going to be snuffed out like a candle, but I took hold of courage and smoked again, before I had even finished the smoke the changa in my stash jar stood up like a snake and said in a clear and frightened voice "He is coming" I then felt an incredible pressure of attack within my head, I kind of I dont know steeled my mind and everything around me started to dissolve, I was babbling in my mind that I was not trying to hurt anyone, and in a flash of understanding I realized that these entities thought I was trying to bind the female entity to me in the way that evil sorcerers do, I repeated again I meant no harm, that I was a person of love and would never seek to dominate anyone. I think I must have been believed because all pressure released and everything solidified again. It was scary and hugely profound.
Looking at what I have written it seems so unbelievable, but truly this is what has happened. I have more to this story to tell but must go now, I will try and finish the whole thing off soon, but for now Im gone.
Comments and insights would be welcome.
