sub-breakthrough: things i always see / this is what life was like when i was a baby

[magickalex]

I've recently been able to pull things back from the sub-breakthrough realm that I haven't really been able to pull back to this reality with me before.

The first thing I will mention is the fact that I realized last night that every time I journey I go to the same exact place at some point. It is like space folds in and i'm in a chamber type thing that has to do with a feminine entity that is always there. It almost seems like she sits at some dimensional corner and is always there but I am only aware of her in this state. She seems somewhat seductive and is showing me all sorts of little movements or tricks or something that I'm always amazed by. There is also another place I go that seems very connected to this scene that I have much more trouble remembering and describing. All I can really say about it is it seems like and engine or something that is also always there that i'm not usually conscious of. I see this 2 things EVERY SINGLE TIME.

I also had the epiphany last night while in the subbreakthrough space where I was seeing all the life in my living room and how all these dimensions were pinned together (with things that look alot like the kabbalistic tree of life) that I experienced this same space as a baby...I think that everyone does and I feel we abandon this perspective when we begin to speak.

 

[Atlas_]

every time I journey I go to the same exact place at some point. It is like space folds in and i'm in a chamber type thing that has to do with a feminine entity that is always there. It almost seems like she sits at some dimensional corner and is always there but I am only aware of her in this state. She seems somewhat seductive and is showing me all sorts of little movements or tricks or something that I'm always amazed by. There is also another place I go that seems very connected to this scene that I have much more trouble remembering and describing.

I too, more often than not, find myself in that chamber-like room with a female entity in the corner. I have found the majority of my time, while experimenting with the sub break through dose (1 big puff off ~20mg) I end up for what seem to have been long stretches of the trip, in that chamber, feeling as if im hashing things out with her, though on a strange subconscious level. The chamber often depicts Alex Grey-style fire patterns, but of many different pastel colors.

The last time I was able to make her out, she had multiple arms and her skin was green. Keep us posted if you have any interactions with her!

 

[Rifle]

I encounter sexy entities but they have generally been androgynous. Except one time there were 2 like alien nurses (which I regarded as feminine, maybe due to being nurses) that brought this thing out that demonstrated how much sexual contact 2 surfaces could have. That experience sounds similar to yours. I definitely never see the same thing everything, but there are a range of different motifs that commonly come up.

Glad to hear some sub-breakthough talk! I'm frequently amazed how far I can get w/ eyes closed on a low dose.

 

[magickalex]

To conceptualize the Shekinah and her role it is necessary to look to the stories of creation. This is because the very first act of creation is where the Shekinah emerges. Kabbalah teaches that before the beginning was the En Sof, the Source of all things. En Sof is everything and nothing...It is all potential yet nothing manifested...It has no beginning and no end...It is neither masculine nor feminine, and yet both at the same time. Alchemically speaking, one might see the En Sof as the One Mind, the One Thing, the Prima Materia, etc all rolled into One. Everything that you might say about the En Sof you can also say the exact opposite about it, so it is often difficult to talk about. In other traditions the En Sof is called the Tao, the Void, the Zero Point Field, God the Source. There is no place that the En Sof is not found, for it is infinite. Thus, in order to begin the process of creation, for the potential to become actual, the En Sof had to first withdraw from Itself to create a tiny vacuum. This withdrawal or contraction is called Tsimtsum in Kabbalah. Through this, a singular point, a primordial vessel was created, and into this vessel the essence of En Sof could flow and be concentrated to such a degree that creation burst forth in a Big Bang. It is this vessel, into which the concentration of the God essence flows, that is the Shekinah, the Feminine Womb or Birth Canal of Creation. Now, it is not accurate to say that the Shekinah was created, for she already existed within En Sof. Rather, as the En Sof withdrew, the Shekinah remained; She was the vessel. It is through Her that Light and Energy came into being, for before Her, there was only the potential of existence. Thus, the Shekinah represents the self-restraint that God/En Sof had to impose upon Itself in order to create the Universe, and She embodies the eternal quintessence that results from the flow of Source energy into Her. Thus, here we can see that the Shekinah is more all encompassing than the Luna archetype of Alchemy. She is more like the Mother of both Luna and Sol. But she is also more than an archetypal mother. In a sense, we might say that the Shekinah is the Quintessence itself....

source:http://www.universalkabbalah.net/Shekinah

shekinah! i think i found my girl. this definitly resonates with my experience. no doubt the lady from my experience is accuratly described as being the 'womb of creation'.

i saw on another website where she is asscoiated with a caananite goddess named ashreh or somthing like that and they are both asscoiated with serpents as well. also kinda sounds like it could have relation to the concept of shakti, the feminine energy assoiated with kundalini (which is often depicted as 'serpent energy').

i dont know if i mentioned it earlier but the female entity from my experience was surrounded by psychedelic cosmic snake scales.

 

[Azot]

I recently met a green skinned woman at sub-breakthrough dose, she had the warmest and most loving smile imaginable. I also read on this forum that several people have seen a green skinned lady and associated her with green tara.

 

[Global]

There are definitely infantile themes, colors, emotions, sensations, music and aesthetics that can crop up in the DMT experience. I've heard lullabies, I've had entities toss around tantalizingly soft high frequency pastel lights while being flooded with all these emotions that it feels like one must have as a baby because it at least seems to be like the magnification of the feelings we project onto babies, often subconsciously. In these states, the imagery can get over-the-top cute and adorable that it has made me gag from just not knowing how to process the sheer cuteness of it all. In other experiences I've encountered a goddess kind of entity who has bathed me in the warmest motherly love in its purest, most unadulterated form. Such experiences are gifts.