The Art of Being Humbled

[Metanoia]

I recently had a very humbling experience but I'm not sure I'm allowed to talk about the particular substance...as it's a relatively unknown one. It is of the dissociative class. I know some people on the Nexus kind of frown on them as well, which gives more reason for hesitation.

Still, it was very humbling. Incredibly rewarding. Seems to have produced a lasting shift in my perception/thinking about a particular area of my life. Which I guess is why I sort of feel compelled to share :d

 

[nexalizer]

All I could say was what the fuck..over and over and over again.

know exactly what you mean....:shock:

 

[nexalizer]

I recently had a very humbling experience but I'm not sure I'm allowed to talk about the particular substance...as it's a relatively unknown one. It is of the dissociative class. I know some people on the Nexus kind of frown on them as well, which gives more reason for hesitation.

Still, it was very humbling. Incredibly rewarding. Seems to have produced a lasting shift in my perception/thinking about a particular area of my life. Which I guess is why I sort of feel compelled to share :d

share!!

 

[Metanoia]

share!!

I just don't want to break the rules by discussing a substance that doesn't have an established safety profile...

Needless to say it is ranked pretty high up on the scale in terms of profundity for me. I spent eternity in an endless void of bliss and love. Only occasionally interrupted by fleeting images of cherished memories. It completely wiped any lingering negativity away and left me feeling like I just popped off an assembly line somewhere, all shiny and new. I have only experienced this magnitude of humbling on a handful of occasions, after many years spent working with powerful psychedelics.

I could do nothing but prostrate myself before the magnificence of the experience. This was a couple weeks ago and the changes seem lasting. I have become far more patient and understanding, empathy is off the friggin' scale, it's like I'm immersed in a current of pure love and I can't help but have it spill out constantly :lol: If you believe in the chakra stuff, this was a massive opening of the heart chakra.

I love all you Nexians, you beautiful people! :lol:

 

[TGO]

share!!

I just don't want to break the rules by discussing a substance that doesn't have an established safety profile...

Needless to say it is ranked pretty high up on the scale in terms of profundity for me. I spent eternity in an endless void of bliss and love. Only occasionally interrupted by fleeting images of cherished memories. It completely wiped any lingering negativity away and left me feeling like I just popped off an assembly line somewhere, all shiny and new. I have only experienced this magnitude of humbling on a handful of occasions, after many years spent working with powerful psychedelics.

I could do nothing but prostrate myself before the magnificence of the experience. This was a couple weeks ago and the changes seem lasting. I have become far more patient and understanding, empathy is off the friggin' scale, it's like I'm immersed in a current of pure love and I can't help but have it spill out constantly :lol: If you believe in the chakra stuff, this was a massive opening of the heart chakra.

I love all you Nexians, you beautiful people! :lol:

Well, whatever the substance was, I am glad it turned out so well for you! Sometimes that "reset button" gets pushed harder than other times, and it is good!

 

[tseuq]

Offtopic:

Each of us are in the middle.
in the middle of space, in the middle of eternity.
in the middle a raindrop meets the surface of a muddy puddle.

Because we are always in the middle, what sense is there then to delay or make haste,
if we know we are the current iteration of a game of hide and seek we've been playing forever and ever.

OM

The title of TGO thread reminds me on:

tseuq

 

[NotTwo]

After a double experience last night that took me beyond any that I'd had before, yes, I can say I am truly humbled by this substance, this treasure, this gratuitous gift that is provided for us.

I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I am overwhelmed by the beauty of what it offers.

 

[○]

After a double experience last night that took me beyond any that I'd had before, yes, I can say I am truly humbled by this substance, this treasure, this gratuitous gift that is provided for us.

I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I am overwhelmed by the beauty of what it offers.

:thumb_up:

 

[Metanoia]

Well, whatever the substance was, I am glad it turned out so well for you! Sometimes that "reset button" gets pushed harder than other times, and it is good!

It got mashed in with such force it is beyond description :lol: :lol: I think I really needed that sort of experience at that moment, it all just fell nicely into place

 

[TGO]

In my latest experience (pharma style), I was shown that "I am always halfway between everything." What does that mean? I'm not entirely sure yet but I am spending some time integrating and figuring it out.

The shaman's model of the universe is of a system of levels.
Through this system of levels McKenna describes what are like vertical routes of passage,
through which the shaman in his intoxication can travel, like an elevator through hyperspace.
Physics tells us that the universe may be in the nature of a brane,
something like a piece of paper within a stack of infinite pages.

And on my own authority I decree our lives are like an

Immortal dream aware undead,

boredom beget diseased decree;

decayed beauty lies dead destroyed -

consumed en-joyed attached to-hold.

Transient soul appears confused,

Nothing produced mushin iris,

conscious virus besets the dream -

escape unseen persona mask.

Serene relapse empty diktat,

nameless inkblot survives unborn;

disguised be-torn in deep divide -
dream suicide tranquil comply.

Everything exists Between Us, I think,
simply because we are, in each of our points of view, always in the center of everything.
Each of us are in the middle.
in the middle of space, in the middle of eternity.
in the middle a raindrop meets the surface of a muddy puddle.

Because we are always in the middle, what sense is there then to delay or make haste,
if we know we are the current iteration of a game of hide and seek we've been playing forever and ever.

"The Aeon is a child at play with colored balls"

Definitely an interesting perspective, as always Anamnesia, thank you! I like the "Shaman Model of the Universe" ... It seems like I can definitely feel those different levels when administering DMT via Pharmahuasca vs smoking it. It is easier to navigate the/that space on pharma. I think I was halfway between levels/dimensions, like my elevator was broken and kept going up and down and all around instead of just upwards...then again a multidimensional travelling elevator would be able to theoretically move in any/all direction. :d

OM

The title of TGO thread reminds me on:

tseuq

I am indeed only Halfway to Everywhere...or so it seemed. :d Enjoyed the song, never heard it before! Thank you!

After a double experience last night that took me beyond any that I'd had before, yes, I can say I am truly humbled by this substance, this treasure, this gratuitous gift that is provided for us.

I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I am overwhelmed by the beauty of what it offers.

Yes. It is a blessing to be able to work with such a wonderful molecule. It is astoundingly remarkable. Thank you for your thoughts!

It got mashed in with such force it is beyond description :lol: :lol: I think I really needed that sort of experience at that moment, it all just fell nicely into place

That is truly what it is all about. When everything aligns perfectly and you know everything is alright. Good stuff!

 

[TGO]

So my everyday life exposes me to a lot of people throughout the day and what I've realized is that a lot of them go throughout their day being the exact opposite of humble: Arrogant.

The way some people act astounds me. They have that air of superiority about them and are quick to try and rub it in your face. It is with these people that I wish would find a way to be humbled...to look at themselves and realize that they really are no greater than you or me. I am human and you are human. You have no greater right to live than I do but many people are quite blind to this, and some of them willfully so.

We all have our special skills and things we are good at, obviously. And some of these things take us further in life than others but life is way too short to be disrespecting your fellow man for absolutely no reason. You can/could be the greatest human in all existence, but if you don't have a shred of decency or a grasp of what being humble truly means than why are you here?

Yes, it is an idealistic world where everyone gets along but that really isn't the point I'm making. I just had the thought today, "Man, they must have never gone through a humbling experience, otherwise they would never act in such a manner..." Either that or they just don't know any better...but I don't believe that for a second.

These types of "un-humbled" folks truly amaze me. They don't see all life as being precious. They don't realize that they could die in an accident on their way home today....Anyway this is turning into a rant...

This thought basically stemmed from an altercation I saw at Wal-MArt. These 3 African American girls were apparently unhappy with a purchase they made and were screaming over each other at the customer service representative, who was acting very calm. They were belittling her and saying things about how it was surprising that she could even get a job here and yada yada yada....lots of incoherent screaming and stomping and throwing of small objects on the counter...

I said, "Wow, are you serious right now?" But they apparently didn't hear me or just ignored it. Eventually, the police showed up so I left at that point. I didn't really care what happened to them at that point but kudos to the clerk who didn't lose her head.

Maybe a humbling experience wouldn't be enough for people like that.



Edit: Sorry for the double post. I felt this was necessary to share here!