side note- im placing these writings here first at the good advice of trav. im not sure what people will make of these writings but feel id like to share these thoughts and ideas with my closest nexus family. im having a very mind blowing experience out here and as always i lean on the community to help integrate and grow. here you go.
The ayahuasca lessons.
The following words and ideas are that which have been shown to me from my experinces with ayahuasca. Although some, if not most I do believe to be accurate and real I'm not claiming that they are anything other than my personal experinces and perception. These words are for you to do what you wish with them, take what you find interesting or helpful or simply disregard them if thats what feels right. I'm not claiming to know anything although I must be honest and say I have found no reasons to not believe them to be possible if not probable. With that I shall begin.
The setting ive chosen to do my work with ayahuasca is in the small Shipibo village of San Francisco in the southern Amazon of Peru near the Ucayali river. The master shaman of the Shipibo village is named Don Mateo and has 2 apprentices; Emelio and Efrian. The two men have been learning under Mateo for over ten years now. They drink and hold ceremony 7 nights a week for the past decade! Each one has their own special qualities and gifts and I find myself feeling a unique connection to all three men. The ayahuasca we drink is made from various caapi vines as well as chacruna. At my request they have reserved for me a more concentrated brew of ayahuasca with larger amounts of chacruna as i was having to drink up to five times of the groups brew to reach my desired state. The shamans here are very accomodating and understand and encourage my desire to go as deep as possible to learn all I can.
My fist 3 ceremonies were all very different but mostly about cleansing my body. The purges were many and usually happen at the end of the ceremony and out of both ends.The purge is essential and as important as the visions and information I am learning. I am watching myself grow younger each day as the medicine removes physical, emotional, and spirtual toxins from my body. I will discuss the purge in more detail at a later time because I feel its very misunderstood and needlessly feared by many people interested in ayahuasca.
On my fourth ceremony ayahuasca felt I was cleansed enough to begin recieving her message and information. What follows in the following paragraphs is what I was shown in the most in depth and intense psychedelic experience of my life. In order for me to explain this first lesson however I must first discuss the nature and definition of reality as I see it.
For me reality is the foundation in which everything else is built upon other than consiousness. Before there can be matter, physical laws, univerese's, multiverses, and even higher dimensions there must first be reality. Nothing as we understand it could exist without reality so its no wonder that understanding what, and how reality exists would be my first lesson from ayahuasca.
What was show to me cant actually be described with words but before i go any further id like to take a minute to focus on the word "shown" rather than using the word told and explain why its such a brilliant way to recieve information. Quite simply put I can tell you how a combustion engine works in as much detail as words will allow but no description spoken could ever be more clearly understood than if I was to show you a working cross section of an engine. In other words the impressive thing about the aya lessons to me is that she didnt tell me anything, she showed me. What this all looked like I can not describe as any psychedelic explorer can understand how words fall so painfully short in describing a psychedelic vision.
Lesson one was quite suprising to me because it contradicted my previous notion of ONE-NESS. That meaning we are all one. In a way this is true but in another way its not entirely accurate. However although it contradicted one of my previous beliefs it also confirmed another. That being that there is and always must be perfect balance. The example of sound could not exist without silence is a good one. Without silence there would just be a continous sound that in itslef would be un-identifyable or impossible to perceive.
Heres what was shown to me. In the begining there was a single form of primordial consiuosness, a singularity that chose to divide into two in order to evolve and be able to experience and perceive itself. (again think of the sound without silence analogy) The division looked much like a cell self replicating and created the needed universal balance with 2 opposing but harmonious consciousness's. Sentient being consiousness and what at this time i can only describe as the others and their consiuosness. What the others are has not been shown to me and i have a feeling wont or more likely cant be so i will just have to leave that for now. I use the words sentient being consiousness because human consiousness is a false belief as there are many different sentient entitys or beings that exist and to think only advanced life forms from planet earth are the only ones to have consiousness is absurd.
In sentient being consiuosness, or s.b.c. for short, we are all one and we are all connected and entangled. Feeling we are separate from another person is no different from a dog chasing its own tail thinking its separate from her/him. What was shown to me was that for reality as we know it to exist it must be agreed upon to exist by both forms of consiousness. I was shown that at the most grass root level of existence, the only thing that does actually does exist is this agreement. The agreement must be of free will between the 2 forms of consiousness, the s.b.c and the others. For reality to be created both sides agreed it to be so of free will. The reason shown to me for the need to have reality was to create a setting for consciosness to grow and evolve as this is the master law of all things. nothing stays the same. For consiousness to grow it requires sentient beings to become self aware of their true nature and for these beings to exist their must be reality otherwise the primordial singularity would simply remain static as is thus breaking the first master law. Everything must change, evolve and progress.
In our univerese this agreement was the moment science refers to as the Big Bang. In that single instant of the agreement reality was created and everything popped into existance, i.e. physical matter, gravity, time/space ext. all in accordence with the master law of evolutionary progression. Sub atomic particles became atoms, atoms become molecules molecules became hydrogen gas which in turn created the stars and eventually all the heavy elements we now have making up everything in our universe such as the planets and eventually primitive life forms that evolved into advanced beings. Nothing remains the same.
What was also shown to me was why this agrrement was needed. In order for there to be perfect balance the others reality can not exist if ours does not and vice versus. Therfore their consiuosness can not evolve without their own form of reality just as ours can not. This is why it must be a mutual agreement between worlds. If there is a God, a creating force, it seems to me it would be the others and since we are the equal opposing half of the balance we too are the creator some choose to call God.
One interesting part of this exeperience of mine was that I was allowed to take an active role in it. I separated from reality and in order to return I too had to make this agreement for myself with the others which i did. When i came back to our reality with this new understanding I found myself sitting on my mat in the moloko listening to the icaro's of the shamans awe struck and amazed at what had just transpired. Even now 3 days later im still in awe of what I experienced. It truly felt as if my reality would not exist if I didnt agree it to exist with the others. Although we can never merge or be part of their consiuosness not even in death, they are sepperate but equal and merging would create an imbalance and break the second master law. There must always be perfect balance. We as s.b.c. will always remain in our own consiuosness. They did however make sure we have a bridge to their reality and this information in the form of medicinal psychotropic plants, fungi, and psychedelic compounds most notably dimethyltrytamine and the tryptamine family. These our or land line's so to speak to the others.
This is very hard to put into words and im probably not doing a very good job. Again im not claiming to know all the answers and much like you I actually now have more questions than answers. For starters what are the others and where did the primordial single consiuosness come from? The only clue i have as to what the others are is that they are the entities seen and contacted in altered states most noteably dimethyltryptamine. What they are I have no clue yet but truly hope I am granted some insights into that question.
This first lesson is far from a complete explanation of what reality is but for me its a good starting point. Its closer than ive come to understanding the true nature of things on my own, that is of coarse if this is all true. Lets face it there has always been three camps here on the nexus. Those that believe the entities are real, those that believe this is all simply nuero chemistry of the brain, and those that are agnostic. I've always leaned tords the agnostic approach but after a very powerful peak dmt experinece a couple years back I most certainly fall under the camp that these beings are as real as you and I if not more so. However after consulting briefly with trav i was given the much needed pause to take a min and look at this all very objectively. Either way I still feel its fascinating and hope some others will enjoy it too. thank you trav.
Thats all for now. Soon will be my 5 th ceremony and i hope to have more to write at the end of it.
Namaste
The ayahuasca lessons.
The following words and ideas are that which have been shown to me from my experinces with ayahuasca. Although some, if not most I do believe to be accurate and real I'm not claiming that they are anything other than my personal experinces and perception. These words are for you to do what you wish with them, take what you find interesting or helpful or simply disregard them if thats what feels right. I'm not claiming to know anything although I must be honest and say I have found no reasons to not believe them to be possible if not probable. With that I shall begin.
The setting ive chosen to do my work with ayahuasca is in the small Shipibo village of San Francisco in the southern Amazon of Peru near the Ucayali river. The master shaman of the Shipibo village is named Don Mateo and has 2 apprentices; Emelio and Efrian. The two men have been learning under Mateo for over ten years now. They drink and hold ceremony 7 nights a week for the past decade! Each one has their own special qualities and gifts and I find myself feeling a unique connection to all three men. The ayahuasca we drink is made from various caapi vines as well as chacruna. At my request they have reserved for me a more concentrated brew of ayahuasca with larger amounts of chacruna as i was having to drink up to five times of the groups brew to reach my desired state. The shamans here are very accomodating and understand and encourage my desire to go as deep as possible to learn all I can.
My fist 3 ceremonies were all very different but mostly about cleansing my body. The purges were many and usually happen at the end of the ceremony and out of both ends.The purge is essential and as important as the visions and information I am learning. I am watching myself grow younger each day as the medicine removes physical, emotional, and spirtual toxins from my body. I will discuss the purge in more detail at a later time because I feel its very misunderstood and needlessly feared by many people interested in ayahuasca.
On my fourth ceremony ayahuasca felt I was cleansed enough to begin recieving her message and information. What follows in the following paragraphs is what I was shown in the most in depth and intense psychedelic experience of my life. In order for me to explain this first lesson however I must first discuss the nature and definition of reality as I see it.
For me reality is the foundation in which everything else is built upon other than consiousness. Before there can be matter, physical laws, univerese's, multiverses, and even higher dimensions there must first be reality. Nothing as we understand it could exist without reality so its no wonder that understanding what, and how reality exists would be my first lesson from ayahuasca.
What was show to me cant actually be described with words but before i go any further id like to take a minute to focus on the word "shown" rather than using the word told and explain why its such a brilliant way to recieve information. Quite simply put I can tell you how a combustion engine works in as much detail as words will allow but no description spoken could ever be more clearly understood than if I was to show you a working cross section of an engine. In other words the impressive thing about the aya lessons to me is that she didnt tell me anything, she showed me. What this all looked like I can not describe as any psychedelic explorer can understand how words fall so painfully short in describing a psychedelic vision.
Lesson one was quite suprising to me because it contradicted my previous notion of ONE-NESS. That meaning we are all one. In a way this is true but in another way its not entirely accurate. However although it contradicted one of my previous beliefs it also confirmed another. That being that there is and always must be perfect balance. The example of sound could not exist without silence is a good one. Without silence there would just be a continous sound that in itslef would be un-identifyable or impossible to perceive.
Heres what was shown to me. In the begining there was a single form of primordial consiuosness, a singularity that chose to divide into two in order to evolve and be able to experience and perceive itself. (again think of the sound without silence analogy) The division looked much like a cell self replicating and created the needed universal balance with 2 opposing but harmonious consciousness's. Sentient being consiousness and what at this time i can only describe as the others and their consiuosness. What the others are has not been shown to me and i have a feeling wont or more likely cant be so i will just have to leave that for now. I use the words sentient being consiousness because human consiousness is a false belief as there are many different sentient entitys or beings that exist and to think only advanced life forms from planet earth are the only ones to have consiousness is absurd.
In sentient being consiuosness, or s.b.c. for short, we are all one and we are all connected and entangled. Feeling we are separate from another person is no different from a dog chasing its own tail thinking its separate from her/him. What was shown to me was that for reality as we know it to exist it must be agreed upon to exist by both forms of consiousness. I was shown that at the most grass root level of existence, the only thing that does actually does exist is this agreement. The agreement must be of free will between the 2 forms of consiousness, the s.b.c and the others. For reality to be created both sides agreed it to be so of free will. The reason shown to me for the need to have reality was to create a setting for consciosness to grow and evolve as this is the master law of all things. nothing stays the same. For consiousness to grow it requires sentient beings to become self aware of their true nature and for these beings to exist their must be reality otherwise the primordial singularity would simply remain static as is thus breaking the first master law. Everything must change, evolve and progress.
In our univerese this agreement was the moment science refers to as the Big Bang. In that single instant of the agreement reality was created and everything popped into existance, i.e. physical matter, gravity, time/space ext. all in accordence with the master law of evolutionary progression. Sub atomic particles became atoms, atoms become molecules molecules became hydrogen gas which in turn created the stars and eventually all the heavy elements we now have making up everything in our universe such as the planets and eventually primitive life forms that evolved into advanced beings. Nothing remains the same.
What was also shown to me was why this agrrement was needed. In order for there to be perfect balance the others reality can not exist if ours does not and vice versus. Therfore their consiuosness can not evolve without their own form of reality just as ours can not. This is why it must be a mutual agreement between worlds. If there is a God, a creating force, it seems to me it would be the others and since we are the equal opposing half of the balance we too are the creator some choose to call God.
One interesting part of this exeperience of mine was that I was allowed to take an active role in it. I separated from reality and in order to return I too had to make this agreement for myself with the others which i did. When i came back to our reality with this new understanding I found myself sitting on my mat in the moloko listening to the icaro's of the shamans awe struck and amazed at what had just transpired. Even now 3 days later im still in awe of what I experienced. It truly felt as if my reality would not exist if I didnt agree it to exist with the others. Although we can never merge or be part of their consiuosness not even in death, they are sepperate but equal and merging would create an imbalance and break the second master law. There must always be perfect balance. We as s.b.c. will always remain in our own consiuosness. They did however make sure we have a bridge to their reality and this information in the form of medicinal psychotropic plants, fungi, and psychedelic compounds most notably dimethyltrytamine and the tryptamine family. These our or land line's so to speak to the others.
This is very hard to put into words and im probably not doing a very good job. Again im not claiming to know all the answers and much like you I actually now have more questions than answers. For starters what are the others and where did the primordial single consiuosness come from? The only clue i have as to what the others are is that they are the entities seen and contacted in altered states most noteably dimethyltryptamine. What they are I have no clue yet but truly hope I am granted some insights into that question.
This first lesson is far from a complete explanation of what reality is but for me its a good starting point. Its closer than ive come to understanding the true nature of things on my own, that is of coarse if this is all true. Lets face it there has always been three camps here on the nexus. Those that believe the entities are real, those that believe this is all simply nuero chemistry of the brain, and those that are agnostic. I've always leaned tords the agnostic approach but after a very powerful peak dmt experinece a couple years back I most certainly fall under the camp that these beings are as real as you and I if not more so. However after consulting briefly with trav i was given the much needed pause to take a min and look at this all very objectively. Either way I still feel its fascinating and hope some others will enjoy it too. thank you trav.
Thats all for now. Soon will be my 5 th ceremony and i hope to have more to write at the end of it.
Namaste
I am glad to hear you are gaining much from your travels and I hope such fortune will continue for you in the future.
