Hugin
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This is three experiences in one report. the first two that are short are linked together and important to share before getting into one of my most profound experiences i’ve had with my dmt girlfriend.
It was in the middle of the night. My roommate at the time ,who sometimes would travel with me wasn’t feeling up for it that night. He’d had a few beers earlier so he wasn’t in shape. He was playing a video game on my pc with headphones on while I lined up a 0.05g breakthrough dose, sandwich-style, and got comfy on the couch. I Hit it clean, pulled the hoodie over my eyes. That familiar buzz ringing in my ears started. Vibrating. I float gently into hyperspace.
I was in a calm, dim dimension. A cosmic runway lined with frame like archways stretching into infinity. Soft geometric waves shimmered faintly around me.
Then she appeared walking, dancing toward me. A divine goddess. She transformed, her body shifting through pixel like tiling, scale like skin to soft perfect feminine curves. She was nude, her breasts bounced as she moved closer. She smiled at me. Her beauty was not of this world.
then it hit me, a full-body orgasm, not like any human climax i'd known. starting in my perineum the orgasm ripped violently through my body. Not in my genitals, not a singular male orgasm but serial climaxes one after another. Feminine in nature. Only females can have this kind of serial orgasm. It was euphoric but unbearable. I couldn’t see, couldn’t breathe properly the whole time it was so intense. I was completely overtaken by this constant climax. That was the whole experience. I just got sexually violated by this goddess for 20minutes.
Otherside of my room my friend still playing, Headphones on, lost in his game.
I sat up, stunned. Told him what happened. He laughed. I said, man you have no idea, I’ve just been sexually violated by a divine entity.
I told him Ima go in again, private this time.
So I tell my roommate, if it’s like this I’m going to do it privately in your room
I grab my sleeping bag/journey bag, grab my gear and a candle that’s melted on a can from my table. I lay my sleeping bag on the floor and light the candle. Let a cigarette burn down and use its ash as filler in between layered with my spice and topped with my weed mixed with little tobacco to burn slowly into the dmt. I had turned off the lights so it’s just my candle light. I get real comfy laying on the floor in my bag up on my elbow to hit the doze. I hit half the dose, I felt the buzz build, then finished it off. As I exhaled the last smoke I blew out the candle.
The room went pitch black. I immediately start feeling intense bizarre body distortion. I grabbed my crotch, my balls feel like it’s just an empty sack, my nuts feel like turned to slush and my nut sack feels like rubber. Im thinking what the fuck is going on. I freak out a little bit and sit up just checking on my balls again and I immediately kinda just want to skip this experience, I realised I may have gotten a bit greedy going back to back this time.
As you know there’s no skipping when you have smashed a breakthrough doze.
(Unless your receptors are done)
As I’m thinking this, freaking out a bit by this freaky body distortions at this point sitting up in my sleeping bag with my balls in my hand I look to my left.
right next to me in my face, this massive wizard like entity, just staring at me with intense eyes, like he'd been waiting for me to notice him, he was way too close for comfort, I panicked. I jump up in terror. I only did catch a glimpse of the entity as I freak the fuck out. I jump up dazed as fuck I want to get to the door.
As soon as I jump up to my feet, trying to escape outof the sleeping bag in panic, Beneath me mirror like triangular portals, reflecting and stacking into infinite mirror maze triangles. I looked left triangles in infinite maze. Looked forward another infinite mirror maze. The whole room became a fractal triangle prison. A mirror maze dimension. The entity had warped the entire space. I can barely walk in full effect from the hit. I walked blindly by memory to the door, just three or four steps to reach the door. As soon as I opened it, I bolted into the bathroom and sat down with my back against the door.
I realized I’d ruined it. I was devastated. The entity might’ve been important. Not malevolent. Maybe even a guardian, teacher. Or maybe a trickster. But I’ll never know I freaked out. Mostly because of the bizarre body distortion, the trickster I could have handled the distortion freaked me out. Maybe a combination of both.
I didn’t travel for few days after that one.
Then two or three small and light journeys later I go for a breakthrough again. And there she was again my dmt girlfriend.
This time, the bond was deep, it was cosmic. Her energy was pure, radiant energy. Again She emerged from tiling stacking together, wavy pixel like tiles shifting between forms, now from feminine human to reptile like forms. Then she transforms again to scale like skin but stayed in tile form she didn’t fully form It seemed limitless. infinite transformations.
She is a shape shifter, a creator.
A powerful endlessly transforming, highly intelligent, multi-dimensional goddess.
To my understanding creators are the royalties of the gods. Her powers seemed endless. She can transform into anything take any shape or form. She is the most beautiful and powerful goddess I have ever witnessed. It was hard to comprehend.
She led me through hyper space
into the city of gods.
Entirely made of gold.
There two other creator gods greeted me. They emerged in the same tiled wave pattern, but they surrounded me in that wavy pixel dimension i was in it as it merged together, We simply looked at each other and exchanged silent, respectful recognition. They were also creators. I moved fast through the city.
I glimpsed others beings that looked like Egyptian gods and Anunnaki.
Then in the distance I saw a massive floating ship. Unlike anything on Earth. Smooth, elegant, impossibly vast. Like it had grown from some organic metal. Or cosmic material. It floated silently, impossibly still. Attached to its top was an antenna like arm, vast and curved. Except it wasn’t mechanical it seemed alive. It moved independently, scanning, reaching, sensing. This antenna was conscious, intelligent, I could feel its awareness.
She led me onward, through something like a corridor of light, a shift of dimension. I don’t know how to describe it, sacred space.
Inside it I felt my form begin to shift into something fluid. Something capable. I could expand, split, merge, transform. She was showing me what she was. And then for a moment she let me become it.
She let me feel her true power.
It lasted only for a moment. I felt her energy surround me, i wasn’t observing her, i was with her. Like we were one.
A moment later feel I’m starting to fade from hyperspace. I wanted more time with her but I’m gently descending back. When I returned i felt the weight of human form again.
I received a message there also.
Not by direct telepathic communication
It was just simply knowing.
This place was home. those who live cruel, immoral lives who cause true harm Are exiled. There was a feeling of eternal consequence. Not heaven and hell exactly, this is cosmic soul sorting.
What I learned and looking back on my experiences.
The tantric energy transfer was not merely sexual. It bypassed language, bypassed thought. A divine Shaktipat.
The repeated, feminine, full body serial orgasms activated my base and root energy centers in a way similar to deep yogic traditions, but beyond anything those systems can map. This was an initiation. I believe It was a direct interface with the energetic template of the feminine divine. It was frequency alignment, she showed me the true power she possesses.
second attempt back to back experience felt like a consequence of overreaching too quickly. The physical distortions, the rubber sack sensation, the entity right in my face that scared the shit out of me, it seems like a boundary test. The entity was not malevolent it might’ve been a guardian or a trickster. The triangle mirror maze might be symbolizing recursive learning loops, this entity may have been there to teach, maybe to protect. it was to bad I didn’t stick around
honestly what was freaking me out the most and fuckt me up was the extreme body distortion. Still I failed the test, but the lesson stuck with me.
The gold city felt like pleroma. Cosmic Source civilisation, the origin point of Cosmic law and divine order. I was granted access to a deep substrate of dimensions. A realm where energy becomes being. Where intelligence is the fabric itself. These entities were not gods in the theological sense. They were sovereign emanations of source. Builders of multi dimensional frameworks. that to me i will only describe as gods and goddesses.
The ship I saw floating silently above was not mechanical it was alive, conscious, organic to the cosmos itself. It’s antenna, intelligent and scanning. In ancient Hermetic terms, this is the Nous. The cosmic mind. it reads soul resonance. It doesn’t act. It observes without interference.
the message i received.
Those who live immorally, in cruelty, who cause true harm, those souls without remorse, do not enter here. Not because they are condemned, but because it’s dissonant. It has chained itself to the lower aeons.
Not because they are punished but because they don’t resonate with the frequency of creation. It is not judgment. It is resonance. They are exiled not to suffer but because they cannot exist in the same harmonic space.
Thank you for reading!
I would like to hear any interpretation, insight from another perspective is always appreciated. As is any feedback.
One love
It was in the middle of the night. My roommate at the time ,who sometimes would travel with me wasn’t feeling up for it that night. He’d had a few beers earlier so he wasn’t in shape. He was playing a video game on my pc with headphones on while I lined up a 0.05g breakthrough dose, sandwich-style, and got comfy on the couch. I Hit it clean, pulled the hoodie over my eyes. That familiar buzz ringing in my ears started. Vibrating. I float gently into hyperspace.
I was in a calm, dim dimension. A cosmic runway lined with frame like archways stretching into infinity. Soft geometric waves shimmered faintly around me.
Then she appeared walking, dancing toward me. A divine goddess. She transformed, her body shifting through pixel like tiling, scale like skin to soft perfect feminine curves. She was nude, her breasts bounced as she moved closer. She smiled at me. Her beauty was not of this world.
then it hit me, a full-body orgasm, not like any human climax i'd known. starting in my perineum the orgasm ripped violently through my body. Not in my genitals, not a singular male orgasm but serial climaxes one after another. Feminine in nature. Only females can have this kind of serial orgasm. It was euphoric but unbearable. I couldn’t see, couldn’t breathe properly the whole time it was so intense. I was completely overtaken by this constant climax. That was the whole experience. I just got sexually violated by this goddess for 20minutes.
Otherside of my room my friend still playing, Headphones on, lost in his game.
I sat up, stunned. Told him what happened. He laughed. I said, man you have no idea, I’ve just been sexually violated by a divine entity.
I told him Ima go in again, private this time.
So I tell my roommate, if it’s like this I’m going to do it privately in your room
I grab my sleeping bag/journey bag, grab my gear and a candle that’s melted on a can from my table. I lay my sleeping bag on the floor and light the candle. Let a cigarette burn down and use its ash as filler in between layered with my spice and topped with my weed mixed with little tobacco to burn slowly into the dmt. I had turned off the lights so it’s just my candle light. I get real comfy laying on the floor in my bag up on my elbow to hit the doze. I hit half the dose, I felt the buzz build, then finished it off. As I exhaled the last smoke I blew out the candle.
The room went pitch black. I immediately start feeling intense bizarre body distortion. I grabbed my crotch, my balls feel like it’s just an empty sack, my nuts feel like turned to slush and my nut sack feels like rubber. Im thinking what the fuck is going on. I freak out a little bit and sit up just checking on my balls again and I immediately kinda just want to skip this experience, I realised I may have gotten a bit greedy going back to back this time.
As you know there’s no skipping when you have smashed a breakthrough doze.
(Unless your receptors are done)
As I’m thinking this, freaking out a bit by this freaky body distortions at this point sitting up in my sleeping bag with my balls in my hand I look to my left.
right next to me in my face, this massive wizard like entity, just staring at me with intense eyes, like he'd been waiting for me to notice him, he was way too close for comfort, I panicked. I jump up in terror. I only did catch a glimpse of the entity as I freak the fuck out. I jump up dazed as fuck I want to get to the door.
As soon as I jump up to my feet, trying to escape outof the sleeping bag in panic, Beneath me mirror like triangular portals, reflecting and stacking into infinite mirror maze triangles. I looked left triangles in infinite maze. Looked forward another infinite mirror maze. The whole room became a fractal triangle prison. A mirror maze dimension. The entity had warped the entire space. I can barely walk in full effect from the hit. I walked blindly by memory to the door, just three or four steps to reach the door. As soon as I opened it, I bolted into the bathroom and sat down with my back against the door.
I realized I’d ruined it. I was devastated. The entity might’ve been important. Not malevolent. Maybe even a guardian, teacher. Or maybe a trickster. But I’ll never know I freaked out. Mostly because of the bizarre body distortion, the trickster I could have handled the distortion freaked me out. Maybe a combination of both.
I didn’t travel for few days after that one.
Then two or three small and light journeys later I go for a breakthrough again. And there she was again my dmt girlfriend.
This time, the bond was deep, it was cosmic. Her energy was pure, radiant energy. Again She emerged from tiling stacking together, wavy pixel like tiles shifting between forms, now from feminine human to reptile like forms. Then she transforms again to scale like skin but stayed in tile form she didn’t fully form It seemed limitless. infinite transformations.
She is a shape shifter, a creator.
A powerful endlessly transforming, highly intelligent, multi-dimensional goddess.
To my understanding creators are the royalties of the gods. Her powers seemed endless. She can transform into anything take any shape or form. She is the most beautiful and powerful goddess I have ever witnessed. It was hard to comprehend.
She led me through hyper space
into the city of gods.
Entirely made of gold.
There two other creator gods greeted me. They emerged in the same tiled wave pattern, but they surrounded me in that wavy pixel dimension i was in it as it merged together, We simply looked at each other and exchanged silent, respectful recognition. They were also creators. I moved fast through the city.
I glimpsed others beings that looked like Egyptian gods and Anunnaki.
Then in the distance I saw a massive floating ship. Unlike anything on Earth. Smooth, elegant, impossibly vast. Like it had grown from some organic metal. Or cosmic material. It floated silently, impossibly still. Attached to its top was an antenna like arm, vast and curved. Except it wasn’t mechanical it seemed alive. It moved independently, scanning, reaching, sensing. This antenna was conscious, intelligent, I could feel its awareness.
She led me onward, through something like a corridor of light, a shift of dimension. I don’t know how to describe it, sacred space.
Inside it I felt my form begin to shift into something fluid. Something capable. I could expand, split, merge, transform. She was showing me what she was. And then for a moment she let me become it.
She let me feel her true power.
It lasted only for a moment. I felt her energy surround me, i wasn’t observing her, i was with her. Like we were one.
A moment later feel I’m starting to fade from hyperspace. I wanted more time with her but I’m gently descending back. When I returned i felt the weight of human form again.
I received a message there also.
Not by direct telepathic communication
It was just simply knowing.
This place was home. those who live cruel, immoral lives who cause true harm Are exiled. There was a feeling of eternal consequence. Not heaven and hell exactly, this is cosmic soul sorting.
What I learned and looking back on my experiences.
The tantric energy transfer was not merely sexual. It bypassed language, bypassed thought. A divine Shaktipat.
The repeated, feminine, full body serial orgasms activated my base and root energy centers in a way similar to deep yogic traditions, but beyond anything those systems can map. This was an initiation. I believe It was a direct interface with the energetic template of the feminine divine. It was frequency alignment, she showed me the true power she possesses.
second attempt back to back experience felt like a consequence of overreaching too quickly. The physical distortions, the rubber sack sensation, the entity right in my face that scared the shit out of me, it seems like a boundary test. The entity was not malevolent it might’ve been a guardian or a trickster. The triangle mirror maze might be symbolizing recursive learning loops, this entity may have been there to teach, maybe to protect. it was to bad I didn’t stick around
honestly what was freaking me out the most and fuckt me up was the extreme body distortion. Still I failed the test, but the lesson stuck with me.
The gold city felt like pleroma. Cosmic Source civilisation, the origin point of Cosmic law and divine order. I was granted access to a deep substrate of dimensions. A realm where energy becomes being. Where intelligence is the fabric itself. These entities were not gods in the theological sense. They were sovereign emanations of source. Builders of multi dimensional frameworks. that to me i will only describe as gods and goddesses.
The ship I saw floating silently above was not mechanical it was alive, conscious, organic to the cosmos itself. It’s antenna, intelligent and scanning. In ancient Hermetic terms, this is the Nous. The cosmic mind. it reads soul resonance. It doesn’t act. It observes without interference.
the message i received.
Those who live immorally, in cruelty, who cause true harm, those souls without remorse, do not enter here. Not because they are condemned, but because it’s dissonant. It has chained itself to the lower aeons.
Not because they are punished but because they don’t resonate with the frequency of creation. It is not judgment. It is resonance. They are exiled not to suffer but because they cannot exist in the same harmonic space.
Thank you for reading!
I would like to hear any interpretation, insight from another perspective is always appreciated. As is any feedback.
One love
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