Grey Fox
Esteemed member
Different psychedelics come to you at different stages in life, and they affect you differently based on who you are and what your life is like at that stage. How much of those different effects are caused by the attributes of a particular psychedelic and how much are caused by the life stage that one is in? These things are hard to quantify.
LSD entered my life when I was in my late teens. It was that transition point where you have to figure out how to think for yourself and decide what to do with your life. Honestly I can say that LSD was a disorienting, confusing influence. It raised so many questions about what I had been taught to believe. So much solid ground suddenly became weak and shaky. In hindsight this was not a bad thing. But it was very challenging at the time. Coming out of those experiences I decided to take a long break from psychedelics, and that break lasted for over a decade.
Next mushrooms entered my life. At this point I was an adult and had gone down the path of establishing a career and buying into a Christian worldview. But big changes had happened in my personal life, and I was finding Christianity to be less and less satisfying as a way to make sense of life. I began experimenting with mushrooms in order to fulfill a desire to explore my mind and the greater posibilities of life. Mushrooms were wonderful because they allowed for the ability to think freely and openly about new possibilities. I shed many maladaptive thought patterns. My mind was freed from the constraints of the Christian worldview. The mushrooms were so helpful in re-rooting my mind to that internal gut reality of what is and isnt true and right. I shed so much, and came out of it all being so much more open. But the answers, and the way of moving forward from there still eluded me.
Then San Pedro entered my life. It was here that I found what I had been searching for for so long. Finally my feet felt like they were back on solid ground again, and in a way that passed the internal gut check. The cactus experiences showed me that it was possible to construct a meaningful spiritual worldview that did not rely on a paternal deity. My connection to nature and to the well being of my body were strengthened so greatly. I found that it was possible to be challenged and to experience incredible joy both at the same time. It showed me a gentle way forward to recognize and work on my shortcomings. It taught me how to begin becoming a better man and friend. And that work continues. The path of the cactus feels so right. It feels like this is where I was meant to be all along. It is such a good medicine for me.
So in hindsight this is where my life experience with LSD and mushrooms and cactus currently stands. Perhaps years from now things will look very different. But right now this is my reality.
I have learned that everyone is different and is impacted by the different psychedelics in their own way. My experience with any of these substances may be very different from someone else's. But this is what I have found with how these 3 psychedelics have impacted me.
LSD entered my life when I was in my late teens. It was that transition point where you have to figure out how to think for yourself and decide what to do with your life. Honestly I can say that LSD was a disorienting, confusing influence. It raised so many questions about what I had been taught to believe. So much solid ground suddenly became weak and shaky. In hindsight this was not a bad thing. But it was very challenging at the time. Coming out of those experiences I decided to take a long break from psychedelics, and that break lasted for over a decade.
Next mushrooms entered my life. At this point I was an adult and had gone down the path of establishing a career and buying into a Christian worldview. But big changes had happened in my personal life, and I was finding Christianity to be less and less satisfying as a way to make sense of life. I began experimenting with mushrooms in order to fulfill a desire to explore my mind and the greater posibilities of life. Mushrooms were wonderful because they allowed for the ability to think freely and openly about new possibilities. I shed many maladaptive thought patterns. My mind was freed from the constraints of the Christian worldview. The mushrooms were so helpful in re-rooting my mind to that internal gut reality of what is and isnt true and right. I shed so much, and came out of it all being so much more open. But the answers, and the way of moving forward from there still eluded me.
Then San Pedro entered my life. It was here that I found what I had been searching for for so long. Finally my feet felt like they were back on solid ground again, and in a way that passed the internal gut check. The cactus experiences showed me that it was possible to construct a meaningful spiritual worldview that did not rely on a paternal deity. My connection to nature and to the well being of my body were strengthened so greatly. I found that it was possible to be challenged and to experience incredible joy both at the same time. It showed me a gentle way forward to recognize and work on my shortcomings. It taught me how to begin becoming a better man and friend. And that work continues. The path of the cactus feels so right. It feels like this is where I was meant to be all along. It is such a good medicine for me.
So in hindsight this is where my life experience with LSD and mushrooms and cactus currently stands. Perhaps years from now things will look very different. But right now this is my reality.
I have learned that everyone is different and is impacted by the different psychedelics in their own way. My experience with any of these substances may be very different from someone else's. But this is what I have found with how these 3 psychedelics have impacted me.
Since I was brought up Roman-Catholic, I didn't go there again though 
