The feminine teacher

[adam]

The energy so strong so real
just back from where that was words fail
She tried to tell me something show me something
She was pointing to this energy we call it god
It was pure
It can be channeled and brought “down to earth” through us in us
It can move mountains
She was the loving teacher but more then a teacher she seemed to embody the feminine other I was looking for
She was the ideal of feminine
I wonder what secrets she had
I realized she couldn’t share because I wasn’t ready
Because I profane the sacred
Because I fail where I know I can succeed
The lesson from her was forsake doubt.

To this teacher of love I say I love you too
May I always remember your love and the purity that is achievable through sacred union that you so lovingly taught me, the attainment of my dreams is possible ,i just need to learn to wait.


I seemed to have known this girl for an enternity. It made me realize I need to overcome my primal desire to just engage in sex that is shallow. That there is an ocean of boundless love that is attainable through true union. For me it was a lesson to be patient and know that love will come when I am ready for it, which is my biggest fear, that is being alone. Alone in my soul. Union with the feminine is stepping into the stream of absolute love/bliss ecstasy/ God. Patience though, good things come to those who wait.


= my revelation via 50mg vaped via gvg, my realest breakthrough to date. And it wasn't even near the most I have vaped. Goes to show that dosage isn't everything

 

[Global]

I'm familiar with that feminine energy as well. I think of it as the "energy of the goddess". To me, it feels like the most motherly, loving, peaceful, adorable feeling right at my core. It's the most settling, satisfied kind of state one can attain it should seem. Even the over-the-top "masculine" or neutral bliss can be a little bit much sometimes.

 

[adam]

yes of all my experiences so far I have to say my favorite ones and seemingly most productive ones are with the Goddess! The feeling of balance when I interact with this energy is just so profound that I feel glowing for days afterwards.

 

[Aftermath]

So what exactly did you learn about sex?

That huge thing that I'm still totally missing out on...

 

[adam]

that sex can go a lot deeper then just your typical orgasm. For me it was like a lesson in the sacramentalization of sex and that there are levels of bliss and connection far deeper then just the physical act of coitus. It was very ecstatic me and this being seemingly merged energies but, not completely it was like she was holding back because I wasnt ready to see such things because of how I have treated sex in the past. Basically I learned it can be sacred and far,far more satisfying then I have allowed myself to realize.