Today has been a weird day. I haven't written anything in a while and yet today I wrote 3 poems, and it seems my style is slowly changing.
I finally watched the 1998 movie SLAM today and right after I wrote the following two poems.
I can say the same thing in a million ways to you
But even so I'm not sure the message will get through
That's the problem of soul to soul connection
When one soul inhabits a higher plane of dimension
And the other soul is somewhere off reservation
It feels me up with fear that
You'll never understand how I feel
And if I think a bit about it
I'll probably never know how you feel about me so
Let's just say: “I love you, babe”
And fuck the night away
Hoping that somewhere in that fucking frenzy
There will be a moment of bliss filled ecstasy
Where both you and me
Are as one as two people can be
Knowing without a doubt that this is what it's all about
And then when the fucking is done
And the moment is gone
All we do
Is try to feel anew
That feeling we had
When I came in you
You see I'm only twenty-three today
But my soul's so old
It could nurse the world
Maybe that's why I'm so depressed
Because the world is run by short-sighted pests
Deciding what should be the status quo
When all their rules
Are for small minded fools
How can it be that half the world
Believes it's free
While the other half
Cries at night
Due to the bars they see
Since when did life end at puberty
And start up again when you hit senility
How can life seem so bleak to me
When I have more than half the world, you see
But all I do is worry about what to do
Cause the whole world's saying
I'm too old to be
Since I didn't pick a path when I was twelve, you see
And here I am today
Twenty-three years old and feeling grey
With no idea of what to do
But by God I swear
By the time I'm through
I'll change this world
For both me and you
So we can wake in the morning
And see the sky as blue
Cause that's the only way to see
If your soul is truly free
Later in the day, I watched three very impressive performances.
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And right after I wrote the last poem of the day.
Today my pen keeps moving
Keeps scribbling and writing
Filling these blank pages
With something from inside of me
Don't know what's causing it
Or what's moving me
Definitely not me thinking
About writing anything
And yet the white space is being filled with words
With words that are not mine
With ideas beyond my grasp
With emotions I've never felt
And as I read what is pouring out of me
It begins to have an effect on me
No longer mere words for personal amusement
But ideas that hold grip on my emotions
And as I see them taking vivid shape on paper
I start to feel
I start to feel things I didn't know I could
Were these emotions bottled up within me
And this is some kind of catharsis that my subconscious decided I need
Or is it my higher self trying to reach out to me
Saying: “I am here and you will feel me,
You will feel me and take action
And through that action you will grant me power
Power to penetrate others as I have you
And when they feel me as you do
They will take action as you did
And as your action increased my power so will theirs
Until the whole world feels the same
And all it took was paper and pen”
Hope the videos I put up will inspire you as they did me.