Hello Again,
I am taking some time to catch up on posting. Sorry it's all coming in a cluster.
When I finished each extraction I sample it. It has come to the point where I share/give away at least a quarter of the total mass of each extraction and I am never going to do this without sampling it first.
I tried for a breakthrough dose and did not consume enough to breakthrough, but I wound up in a fantastic near-breakthrough realm. It was the lower energy and vibration feel and the lack of the super sharp edges and excessive insane angles that make me say this was pre-breakthrough.
The tryp began with my field of vision (closed eyes) going black. I began to see a bright white spear of light in my right-hand field. Soon I could see an incredible and beautiful flower consisting of the black background and beautiful, scallped blue petals. The more I looked at this flower the more vaginal it became in its appearance, kind of like a Georgia O'Keefe painting.
I immediately thought that vaginal is the same as tunnel and I knew that for me the tunnels, vortexes, folds and doors led to the breakthrough spaces. So, I headed for hte vaginal flower and penetrated its outer labia. As I was moving in the inner folds, looking for the actual tubular, vaginal opening, the entire "flower" instantly opened up into a gigantic warehouse sized room. The floor, ceiling and walls of the room were black and covered with the beautiful blue scalloped petal pattern of the original flower.
In the center of this room was a fantastic tryptamine machine. I immediately thought of Terence McKenna's "jeweled self-dribbling basketballs," and then immediately concluded that this was NOT one of those. I guess the closest I have come to seeing anything like that was the tryptamine man-of-war things that the elves were spinning up on their stools in that weird room . . . but that's another tryp.
In the center of the flower-room, extending from floor to ceiling was this machine. It was made up of a large number of medium-sized to large-sized parts, all of them vibrating in time to the music. There were triangles, traditional-looking circuit boards, half-ovals, rectangles, zig-zag lines and thin strips of rapdily moving (right to left) "text" of letters or numbers - hard to see. Reminded me of when Neo "saw the matrix."
For some reason my attention momentarily focused on the scrolling "text" but I thought I would never be able to focus on it. The moment I thought this, it moved into the center of my sensorium, into crystal clarity. It was a scrolling marquee and I could almost read it. I looked a bit closer. The font size was extremely small. Finally, there it was - in focus. But I still could't read it! It was clearly alien text!
Once I realized I could not read the scrolling text I looked up at the rest of the machine. I soon came to realize that there was a woman lodged in the heart of the machine. I do not know if she was one of the anthropomorphic "elves" I have taken to seeing or not. She appeared to be more adult sized. Actually, her body looked a lot like mine.
This woman was floating or suspended in the heart of the tryptamine machine. She looked comfortale, almost ecstatic. THe more I looked the more I realized what was going on. The outer parts of the machine were moving in time to the music and somehow I made the connection/realization that this was a synaesthesia machine that the woman was floating in. This machine took the music I was hearing and translated it manually into other senses for the user who lay inside the machine. This knowledge was somehow instantly transmitted to me.
The woman began to slide out of the machine and using her body (no voice) invited me to plug myself into the machine. I understood exactly what the machine did and expected a very pleasurable experience, as I love hallucination and synaesthesia is one of my favorite types of hallucinations.
As soon as I mentally acquiesced to her invitation, I literally began to float up to the opening and my body rotated such that I was now laying in a horizontal position so that I could easily float/slide into the synaesthesia machine.
Once I plugged in, it worked. I could feel, hear, see, taste, smell and in countless unnameable other ways perceive the music. This experience was just at its very beginning when I began to come out of the vision.
The next evening, I decided to try for a breakthrough. They are there but they are a bit elusive currently. I loaded 60 mg but did not consume it all on my way to the breakthrough space.
I heard the tinnitus tone, though it was distant. I saw fantastic fields of blue and purple colors and 2-D shapes. I told myself to let go and then I was in the breakthrough space.
I was floating around in a room filled with twisting elephantine trunks. The trunks appeared to be twisting in time to the music playing. The tips of these elephant trunks were split into smaller, finger-like appendages. This distinctly reminded me of the creatures in the old Niven/Pournelle novel (which I read over 20 years ago) called Footfall.
I floated around in this space, looking at the trunks until I came across an elephantine shaped being (though man-sized) sitting in a blocky, square-type of chair. The being was relaxed - it was leaned back and looked mellow. It was moving its trunk around in the air in time to the music, and was clearly experiencing much pleasure. Its body was also moving in rhythm to the music.
I wish I could remember more. Just got the impression I entered a scene with the "Pffsssthpp" beings from the old sci-fi alien-invasion epic . . .
Peace & Love,
Pandora
I am taking some time to catch up on posting. Sorry it's all coming in a cluster.
When I finished each extraction I sample it. It has come to the point where I share/give away at least a quarter of the total mass of each extraction and I am never going to do this without sampling it first.
I tried for a breakthrough dose and did not consume enough to breakthrough, but I wound up in a fantastic near-breakthrough realm. It was the lower energy and vibration feel and the lack of the super sharp edges and excessive insane angles that make me say this was pre-breakthrough.
The tryp began with my field of vision (closed eyes) going black. I began to see a bright white spear of light in my right-hand field. Soon I could see an incredible and beautiful flower consisting of the black background and beautiful, scallped blue petals. The more I looked at this flower the more vaginal it became in its appearance, kind of like a Georgia O'Keefe painting.
I immediately thought that vaginal is the same as tunnel and I knew that for me the tunnels, vortexes, folds and doors led to the breakthrough spaces. So, I headed for hte vaginal flower and penetrated its outer labia. As I was moving in the inner folds, looking for the actual tubular, vaginal opening, the entire "flower" instantly opened up into a gigantic warehouse sized room. The floor, ceiling and walls of the room were black and covered with the beautiful blue scalloped petal pattern of the original flower.
In the center of this room was a fantastic tryptamine machine. I immediately thought of Terence McKenna's "jeweled self-dribbling basketballs," and then immediately concluded that this was NOT one of those. I guess the closest I have come to seeing anything like that was the tryptamine man-of-war things that the elves were spinning up on their stools in that weird room . . . but that's another tryp.
In the center of the flower-room, extending from floor to ceiling was this machine. It was made up of a large number of medium-sized to large-sized parts, all of them vibrating in time to the music. There were triangles, traditional-looking circuit boards, half-ovals, rectangles, zig-zag lines and thin strips of rapdily moving (right to left) "text" of letters or numbers - hard to see. Reminded me of when Neo "saw the matrix."
For some reason my attention momentarily focused on the scrolling "text" but I thought I would never be able to focus on it. The moment I thought this, it moved into the center of my sensorium, into crystal clarity. It was a scrolling marquee and I could almost read it. I looked a bit closer. The font size was extremely small. Finally, there it was - in focus. But I still could't read it! It was clearly alien text!
Once I realized I could not read the scrolling text I looked up at the rest of the machine. I soon came to realize that there was a woman lodged in the heart of the machine. I do not know if she was one of the anthropomorphic "elves" I have taken to seeing or not. She appeared to be more adult sized. Actually, her body looked a lot like mine.
This woman was floating or suspended in the heart of the tryptamine machine. She looked comfortale, almost ecstatic. THe more I looked the more I realized what was going on. The outer parts of the machine were moving in time to the music and somehow I made the connection/realization that this was a synaesthesia machine that the woman was floating in. This machine took the music I was hearing and translated it manually into other senses for the user who lay inside the machine. This knowledge was somehow instantly transmitted to me.
The woman began to slide out of the machine and using her body (no voice) invited me to plug myself into the machine. I understood exactly what the machine did and expected a very pleasurable experience, as I love hallucination and synaesthesia is one of my favorite types of hallucinations.
As soon as I mentally acquiesced to her invitation, I literally began to float up to the opening and my body rotated such that I was now laying in a horizontal position so that I could easily float/slide into the synaesthesia machine.
Once I plugged in, it worked. I could feel, hear, see, taste, smell and in countless unnameable other ways perceive the music. This experience was just at its very beginning when I began to come out of the vision.
The next evening, I decided to try for a breakthrough. They are there but they are a bit elusive currently. I loaded 60 mg but did not consume it all on my way to the breakthrough space.
I heard the tinnitus tone, though it was distant. I saw fantastic fields of blue and purple colors and 2-D shapes. I told myself to let go and then I was in the breakthrough space.
I was floating around in a room filled with twisting elephantine trunks. The trunks appeared to be twisting in time to the music playing. The tips of these elephant trunks were split into smaller, finger-like appendages. This distinctly reminded me of the creatures in the old Niven/Pournelle novel (which I read over 20 years ago) called Footfall.
I floated around in this space, looking at the trunks until I came across an elephantine shaped being (though man-sized) sitting in a blocky, square-type of chair. The being was relaxed - it was leaned back and looked mellow. It was moving its trunk around in the air in time to the music, and was clearly experiencing much pleasure. Its body was also moving in rhythm to the music.
I wish I could remember more. Just got the impression I entered a scene with the "Pffsssthpp" beings from the old sci-fi alien-invasion epic . . .
Peace & Love,
Pandora
