55mg freebase Harmal extract (so mostly harmine and harmaline), smoked with some herbal mix
Setting : silent meditation
I focus on breathing, i go towards equanimity, letting all pass through me, making the empty space --- after some minutes the thoughts vanish in a noisy chaos, and become a rising frequency - then it really felt like this DMT breakthrough coming - the energy went through all the chakra , piuuuu - electric feeling
My identity kind of melted, i was jumping from 1st persn point of view to 3rd ; on and off ; and i morph into many caracters, friends, or random people and faces ; it felt a little bit like out of body exp, but with this unique feeling that give me the harmal.
Adventures into the infinite possibility of imagination
I got a little bit of the fast visions, DXM style, each "zapping" contained a little piece of a random story - what was interesting is that each of them had a different "graphic" style, from realistic, to cartoon, 3D, with all kind of beautiful art-pieces - and this was way more interesting that the stories themself (i don't remember any)
There was piano music in the background, i put my attention towards it, more detail come, then i m in the middle of a piano concerto created on the spot by a fucking don't know which part of myself - but i would like to meet the part of myself capable of composing in direct live this kind of music (i m a pianist). At one point i decide to make grow the intensity of the music, adding more and more notes and instruments, into a sur-abundant apogic climax, symphony of thousands notes, ultimatly ridiculus, so i started laughing - what stoped the meditation and the music.
I finished the pipe and went back to the music composition place - and it was still working
i tried to make more jazzy things, but i could only process the harmony of the classic, mozart - bach etc ; like if this knowledge was about only clear patterns and harmony.
It was also a really good meditation training, becose as soon as i lose the focus, it would diminish so much the effects - it show me how to create this empty space for creation in the center of myself
When i lost focus i sometimes i blame myself or i'm disapointed or anoyed; a caracter, a mix between the devil and the joker (interesting overlap) would pop up and laugh because this reaction are still anchored in duality; when the real purpose is to embrace all ,somehow, and to connect to the undual source of creation, my inner fire... at least is what i understood from this strange caracter
this time, i felt extremly relax and sleepy after the meditation (sometimes harmal give me more energy)
Harmal extract by itself are extremly powerful, but totaly gentle - a clap with your finger and you out of the trip. But the trip can bring me really far, with mystical visions, energetic feeling, and unique awareness of my body.
Setting : silent meditation
I focus on breathing, i go towards equanimity, letting all pass through me, making the empty space --- after some minutes the thoughts vanish in a noisy chaos, and become a rising frequency - then it really felt like this DMT breakthrough coming - the energy went through all the chakra , piuuuu - electric feeling
My identity kind of melted, i was jumping from 1st persn point of view to 3rd ; on and off ; and i morph into many caracters, friends, or random people and faces ; it felt a little bit like out of body exp, but with this unique feeling that give me the harmal.
Adventures into the infinite possibility of imagination
I got a little bit of the fast visions, DXM style, each "zapping" contained a little piece of a random story - what was interesting is that each of them had a different "graphic" style, from realistic, to cartoon, 3D, with all kind of beautiful art-pieces - and this was way more interesting that the stories themself (i don't remember any)
There was piano music in the background, i put my attention towards it, more detail come, then i m in the middle of a piano concerto created on the spot by a fucking don't know which part of myself - but i would like to meet the part of myself capable of composing in direct live this kind of music (i m a pianist). At one point i decide to make grow the intensity of the music, adding more and more notes and instruments, into a sur-abundant apogic climax, symphony of thousands notes, ultimatly ridiculus, so i started laughing - what stoped the meditation and the music.
I finished the pipe and went back to the music composition place - and it was still working
i tried to make more jazzy things, but i could only process the harmony of the classic, mozart - bach etc ; like if this knowledge was about only clear patterns and harmony.
It was also a really good meditation training, becose as soon as i lose the focus, it would diminish so much the effects - it show me how to create this empty space for creation in the center of myself
When i lost focus i sometimes i blame myself or i'm disapointed or anoyed; a caracter, a mix between the devil and the joker (interesting overlap) would pop up and laugh because this reaction are still anchored in duality; when the real purpose is to embrace all ,somehow, and to connect to the undual source of creation, my inner fire... at least is what i understood from this strange caracter
this time, i felt extremly relax and sleepy after the meditation (sometimes harmal give me more energy)
Harmal extract by itself are extremly powerful, but totaly gentle - a clap with your finger and you out of the trip. But the trip can bring me really far, with mystical visions, energetic feeling, and unique awareness of my body.
it's interesting how harmal changes our musical perception.
