timeloop
Rising Star
I have not been posting any of my recent experiences on this forum, although I feel the need to get some feedback and perspective from some of my respected fellow hyperspace explorers. There have been times when some of the beings I have met in hyperspace have hinted that I should not talk about my experiences... but at the moment I am really perplexed and would like to seek some help...
Recently It feels like my experiences have evolved onto a new level. I went through a period of quite regular journeying... with an even balance of low doasge pleasant experiences ...and high dosage amazingly cosmic, hyper-dimensional, mind-twistingly epic carnival rides filled with many riddles and epiphanic discoveries. I had begun to begin to navigate through the space somewhat... and returned regularly to the same tribe of entities or collective entity energy to commune and gain knowledge. Although it is always hard to bring back all of the information learned during a experience, I felt that even though I did not have direct conscious knowledge, on some level I was growing and gaining important lessons... and as always whenever I returned to hyperspace my previous journeys were instantly downloaded back into my consciousness, only to once again evaporate back into the ether on re-entry... There were a number of experiences that seemed directly linked to other important psychedelic initiations I had at other periods in my life... A direct continuation of an awakening and remembrance of something important....
There is so much that I would like to try and communicate based on many experiences so please forgive me if this post seems chaotic and all over the place...
For a while I have had some inklings of parallel realities. Then there were a couple of experiences that showed me the veil between these worlds... There are parallel synchronous realities that are running on a time line like our own. These realities are also moving towards a point in the future of immense change. I will not go into details about this time of change as it deserves a thread of its own. In these journeys I met some beings morphing and pushing against the membrane of the veil that were travelers just like me! What I mean is that I got the sense that they were literally conscious beings who were using DMT as an interface to travel the matrix of hyperspace to meet other beings, like me. I got the message that there was a huge battle going on in their dimension and that things were very dark there, with a hugely oppressive dark force controlled and dominating the light. However these beings were using DMT as a tool to connect to other realities... and at the very last moment before the cataclysmic time of change and ultimate domination by the forces of dark, they are going to use DMT to save and evolve their whole reality! It was the utmost divinely sacred secret that their underground of shamans were using to manifest a much better higher dimensional reality. After this experience I believed that DMT is the most preciously amazing tool that we have in this life and it must be protected and kept secret at all costs. For a long time I was totally silent about this revelation and did not speak about it at all. After a lot of deep contemplation I came to the realization that although this appeared to be a totally separate but synchronous parallel world... it was but a mirror of our own experience here and now...
so after this rather deep and perplexing enigma, I had a number of deeper experiences that all were quite enjoyable and filled with light... there were a number of journeys where I could feel my being vibrating to higher and higher frequencies until I was experiencing traveling as embodying a flat transforming geometic pattern. OOn one journey I reached a high enough vibrational frequency so that I was shunted through a number of training 'rooms'. There was intense preparation underway and at the end of it I felt like I was getting put aboard a lightship and saying goodbye to everything. A totally 'out-there' cosmic experience but very enjoyable. The trippiest thing about this experience is this: It actually occured to the side of a chill music stage at a large music festival. As I was re-entering and becoming aware of my reality again a dark skinned tribal man walked up to next to where we were sitting and started chanting in time to the chill music. He was shaking these shaker type things that kind of spun around his hand and chanting in a very deep low resonant tone in a language I did not understand. This dude was dressed in full tribal gear... feathers, grass skirt, arm bands, etc. He chanted to the music for about a minute (while I was still under the trailing remnants of the DMT) and the turned towards us bowed said thankyou and walked off! One of the most unexpected and synchronistic experiences of my life. I would like to add that the DMT during this journey was smoked with a caapi leaf mix and that there was a friend with me who also saw the tribal man chanting and confirmed for me that it was actually real.
I was getting confident that I knew how to control my experiences in the other world... too confident
This is where some of my experiences get quite serious.
There was an experience that I find very hard to translate into words. I do not believe that I have consciously brought back the majority of this puzzle but it is my first experience of the energies of hyperspace directly affecting my reality and life here in the real world.
This is the short version of this tale:
It was NYE. I was at an outdoor music festival with my soul-mate. After the new year clicked over I took advantage of an opportunity to wander back to our campsite alone to enjoy my first journey of the new year. It was a medium sized dose that should have been borderline breakthrough. I would like to add that I was on a little mdma and in a very happy and relaxed state of mind. I do not remember much of the experience other than overall it was quite pleasant, although md seems to always make it pleasant for me... There is one part that I do definitely remember.
I was in hyperspace and got the re-occuring sense that (for lack of a better description) there was some kind of struggle going on... It was an epic battle between light and dark. This is a feeling I have had a number of times and have the urge to strongly share with anyone reading this that DMT space is not all fractals and swirling geometries... there is some serious shit that goes on over there that we cannot fully understand.
So... I found my awareness perceiving a large amorphous purplish entity. I think it seemed female. This entity seemed to be sort of hollow and it appeared to have a number of smaller green/white entities living inside of it. I then perceived that the dark energies were conducting some kind of evil experiment. They were working/operating on some of the little green/white beings they had captured and manipulating what would translate as their DNA (or some fundamental structure of their makeup). I am not entirely sure what they were doing but it was not good at all. I then perceived the purple entity again and was watching as lots of the little green/white entities were entering though the purple entities mouth/womb... Suddenly the purple entity realized that something had been done to some of the other entities that were entering it and it freaked out and closed its mouth/womb. There were lots of little entities outside jumping up and down and trying to get in... suddenly the large purple entity seemed sort of sick and ejected all of the little entities that were living inside of it. This was not good at all
The experience pretty much ended then... although I have some recollection of a couple of simple glowing blue energies that seemed somewhat dark. This experience was not un-enjoyable at all, but was noticeably dark.. It seemed very psychedelic and it was not until I was not on mdma and a few days had passed that I linked the experience to what was to come next... - My beloved partner and soulmate had a very very bad trip (from a tiny dose of LSD) after my DMT experience. As far as I can tell the bad trip started at around the same time as my DMT trip. Basically I returned from the campsite to find her in a very badly altered state of mind... I will not burden you with all of the details... but I will say it was one of the worst experience of my life. My partner became locked into a totally delusional psychotic state and stuck in a re-occuring negative thought loop that continued, ever so slightly diminishing over about 10 hours. This peaked with her getting extremely violent and suicidal. A very horrible way to begin the new year... and something I will never forget
It was not until much later that I begun to try to draw connections between my DMT experiences and her mental state that night...
Several weeks later, after we had worked through some of the dark issues that surfaced on NYE and begin healing, we were at another outdoor music festival. She had decided to sample a small dose of 2cb to see if she was ready to manage again in a psychedelic space. I would like to quickly add that my partner is a rather experienced user of psychedelics and we have shared many amazing experiences together in the past. Once again I found an available moment to walk back to campsite alone and enjoy a solo DMT experience. It was sub-breakthrough and not serious at all... quite fun... Until my partner returned to our campsite while I was still in the middle of the experience. I will not go into any details as I find it all a bit traumatic... but suddenly she was in the same state as NYE again! in the time it took me to walk away from the dancefloor to the campsite and enjoy some DMT, she somehow was transported to exactly the same delusional psychotic state as last time! Luckily I had some close friends camping with us who helped me calm he down and confront her illusions... the whole ordeal was over sooner than last time.
But I cannot ignore the connection between my use of DMT and the triggering of this state in her... very strange...
The final part of this tale ends with an Ayahuasca experience I had a couple of evenings ago. I had acquired some strong caapi brew and decided to mix that with some rue and double the amount of DMT I used in my last journey. I was determined to get some answers to what was going on. I fasted from all food for the day and was expecting a deep and profound journey. Earlier in the day I decided to wet my feet and smoke some DMT to see if I could perhaps scout out the journey ahead. I weighed and prepared only 30mg of some very large crystals. I noticed in particular that before I launched my heart was pounding much faster and harder than usual.
(it is as if my body knew what was coming). Once I had calmed down a little I smoked the bowl and was overcome with the strength of the dose. As I held my breath I was overcome by an intense head rush that made me feel like I was going to pass out. I tried to lay back into the couch (it was outside near my veranda) but it was very uncomfortable. The last thing I remember is the trees in front of me dissolving into what looked like a melting painting. during the experience I vaguely remember lying down on the couch and feeling very uncomfortable waiting for it to end. I do not remember any imagery or anything from that journey at all. Quite strange for that size of a dose. Maybe my scales are out, or maybe the size of the crystals or purity of the DMT made it much much stronger... I dont know....
SO anyway this did phase me a little and I was going to abort the evenings aya journey, but I did a couple of I-ching readings and got the message that I should make the journey... so I summoned the courage to go ahead.
The journey itself was not very visual at all. The imagery I experienced was quite dream like and did not have much clarity. However I very much felt the presence of the caapi spirit and there were many unexplained bumps and knocks and sounds throughout the house during the whole journey.
There is one vision that I would like to share that I believe has meaning and connection to everything else. I found myself in a jungle. There were 2 tribesmen standing next to me. They said something in a tongue that I could not understand but I got the sense that they were warning me. My perception then shifted to across a clearing the where I saw a figure. It was very dark. It was oval shaped and covered in dark hair all over. There was a small space in the center where a face could have been. I felt that this entity wasn't very benevolent. It may have been a shaman in a costume? it may have been a spirit? It was familiar. It scared me. I opened my eyes to try and shake it off... and felt a presence in the room... it inhabited a large banner that I created and have on my wall... I got my partner who was sitting me to light some white sage and clear the room. which really helped (I would like to share with the reader how important sage can be to help clear energies during intense or fearful experiences).
The rest of the experience was filled with lots of deep purging. Quite intense and I know that there was some deep healing occurring. There was some very strange colored phlegm in my purge. I believe that perhaps there were some 'darts' that I may have purged.
I awoke feeling cleansed and filled with a deep respect to the power of the vine.
SO I quickly summarize all of this by saying that I am awed and humbled by the power of the tool that we have. There is so much that I do not understand. There are dark forces at play on the other side. We must all be very careful with what we are doing in hyperspace as it can have unexpected painful and damaging repercussions in the real world.
Where the fuck is the instruction manual?
Woah. If you have come this far I deeply thankyou for reading my ramblings. I would sincerely like any feedback you can offer to help me unravel the strange mysteries the spirit molecule has immersed me in.
Recently It feels like my experiences have evolved onto a new level. I went through a period of quite regular journeying... with an even balance of low doasge pleasant experiences ...and high dosage amazingly cosmic, hyper-dimensional, mind-twistingly epic carnival rides filled with many riddles and epiphanic discoveries. I had begun to begin to navigate through the space somewhat... and returned regularly to the same tribe of entities or collective entity energy to commune and gain knowledge. Although it is always hard to bring back all of the information learned during a experience, I felt that even though I did not have direct conscious knowledge, on some level I was growing and gaining important lessons... and as always whenever I returned to hyperspace my previous journeys were instantly downloaded back into my consciousness, only to once again evaporate back into the ether on re-entry... There were a number of experiences that seemed directly linked to other important psychedelic initiations I had at other periods in my life... A direct continuation of an awakening and remembrance of something important....
There is so much that I would like to try and communicate based on many experiences so please forgive me if this post seems chaotic and all over the place...
For a while I have had some inklings of parallel realities. Then there were a couple of experiences that showed me the veil between these worlds... There are parallel synchronous realities that are running on a time line like our own. These realities are also moving towards a point in the future of immense change. I will not go into details about this time of change as it deserves a thread of its own. In these journeys I met some beings morphing and pushing against the membrane of the veil that were travelers just like me! What I mean is that I got the sense that they were literally conscious beings who were using DMT as an interface to travel the matrix of hyperspace to meet other beings, like me. I got the message that there was a huge battle going on in their dimension and that things were very dark there, with a hugely oppressive dark force controlled and dominating the light. However these beings were using DMT as a tool to connect to other realities... and at the very last moment before the cataclysmic time of change and ultimate domination by the forces of dark, they are going to use DMT to save and evolve their whole reality! It was the utmost divinely sacred secret that their underground of shamans were using to manifest a much better higher dimensional reality. After this experience I believed that DMT is the most preciously amazing tool that we have in this life and it must be protected and kept secret at all costs. For a long time I was totally silent about this revelation and did not speak about it at all. After a lot of deep contemplation I came to the realization that although this appeared to be a totally separate but synchronous parallel world... it was but a mirror of our own experience here and now...
so after this rather deep and perplexing enigma, I had a number of deeper experiences that all were quite enjoyable and filled with light... there were a number of journeys where I could feel my being vibrating to higher and higher frequencies until I was experiencing traveling as embodying a flat transforming geometic pattern. OOn one journey I reached a high enough vibrational frequency so that I was shunted through a number of training 'rooms'. There was intense preparation underway and at the end of it I felt like I was getting put aboard a lightship and saying goodbye to everything. A totally 'out-there' cosmic experience but very enjoyable. The trippiest thing about this experience is this: It actually occured to the side of a chill music stage at a large music festival. As I was re-entering and becoming aware of my reality again a dark skinned tribal man walked up to next to where we were sitting and started chanting in time to the chill music. He was shaking these shaker type things that kind of spun around his hand and chanting in a very deep low resonant tone in a language I did not understand. This dude was dressed in full tribal gear... feathers, grass skirt, arm bands, etc. He chanted to the music for about a minute (while I was still under the trailing remnants of the DMT) and the turned towards us bowed said thankyou and walked off! One of the most unexpected and synchronistic experiences of my life. I would like to add that the DMT during this journey was smoked with a caapi leaf mix and that there was a friend with me who also saw the tribal man chanting and confirmed for me that it was actually real.
I was getting confident that I knew how to control my experiences in the other world... too confident
This is where some of my experiences get quite serious.
There was an experience that I find very hard to translate into words. I do not believe that I have consciously brought back the majority of this puzzle but it is my first experience of the energies of hyperspace directly affecting my reality and life here in the real world.
This is the short version of this tale:
It was NYE. I was at an outdoor music festival with my soul-mate. After the new year clicked over I took advantage of an opportunity to wander back to our campsite alone to enjoy my first journey of the new year. It was a medium sized dose that should have been borderline breakthrough. I would like to add that I was on a little mdma and in a very happy and relaxed state of mind. I do not remember much of the experience other than overall it was quite pleasant, although md seems to always make it pleasant for me... There is one part that I do definitely remember.
I was in hyperspace and got the re-occuring sense that (for lack of a better description) there was some kind of struggle going on... It was an epic battle between light and dark. This is a feeling I have had a number of times and have the urge to strongly share with anyone reading this that DMT space is not all fractals and swirling geometries... there is some serious shit that goes on over there that we cannot fully understand.
So... I found my awareness perceiving a large amorphous purplish entity. I think it seemed female. This entity seemed to be sort of hollow and it appeared to have a number of smaller green/white entities living inside of it. I then perceived that the dark energies were conducting some kind of evil experiment. They were working/operating on some of the little green/white beings they had captured and manipulating what would translate as their DNA (or some fundamental structure of their makeup). I am not entirely sure what they were doing but it was not good at all. I then perceived the purple entity again and was watching as lots of the little green/white entities were entering though the purple entities mouth/womb... Suddenly the purple entity realized that something had been done to some of the other entities that were entering it and it freaked out and closed its mouth/womb. There were lots of little entities outside jumping up and down and trying to get in... suddenly the large purple entity seemed sort of sick and ejected all of the little entities that were living inside of it. This was not good at all
The experience pretty much ended then... although I have some recollection of a couple of simple glowing blue energies that seemed somewhat dark. This experience was not un-enjoyable at all, but was noticeably dark.. It seemed very psychedelic and it was not until I was not on mdma and a few days had passed that I linked the experience to what was to come next... - My beloved partner and soulmate had a very very bad trip (from a tiny dose of LSD) after my DMT experience. As far as I can tell the bad trip started at around the same time as my DMT trip. Basically I returned from the campsite to find her in a very badly altered state of mind... I will not burden you with all of the details... but I will say it was one of the worst experience of my life. My partner became locked into a totally delusional psychotic state and stuck in a re-occuring negative thought loop that continued, ever so slightly diminishing over about 10 hours. This peaked with her getting extremely violent and suicidal. A very horrible way to begin the new year... and something I will never forget It was not until much later that I begun to try to draw connections between my DMT experiences and her mental state that night...
Several weeks later, after we had worked through some of the dark issues that surfaced on NYE and begin healing, we were at another outdoor music festival. She had decided to sample a small dose of 2cb to see if she was ready to manage again in a psychedelic space. I would like to quickly add that my partner is a rather experienced user of psychedelics and we have shared many amazing experiences together in the past. Once again I found an available moment to walk back to campsite alone and enjoy a solo DMT experience. It was sub-breakthrough and not serious at all... quite fun... Until my partner returned to our campsite while I was still in the middle of the experience. I will not go into any details as I find it all a bit traumatic... but suddenly she was in the same state as NYE again! in the time it took me to walk away from the dancefloor to the campsite and enjoy some DMT, she somehow was transported to exactly the same delusional psychotic state as last time! Luckily I had some close friends camping with us who helped me calm he down and confront her illusions... the whole ordeal was over sooner than last time.
But I cannot ignore the connection between my use of DMT and the triggering of this state in her... very strange...
The final part of this tale ends with an Ayahuasca experience I had a couple of evenings ago. I had acquired some strong caapi brew and decided to mix that with some rue and double the amount of DMT I used in my last journey. I was determined to get some answers to what was going on. I fasted from all food for the day and was expecting a deep and profound journey. Earlier in the day I decided to wet my feet and smoke some DMT to see if I could perhaps scout out the journey ahead. I weighed and prepared only 30mg of some very large crystals. I noticed in particular that before I launched my heart was pounding much faster and harder than usual.
(it is as if my body knew what was coming). Once I had calmed down a little I smoked the bowl and was overcome with the strength of the dose. As I held my breath I was overcome by an intense head rush that made me feel like I was going to pass out. I tried to lay back into the couch (it was outside near my veranda) but it was very uncomfortable. The last thing I remember is the trees in front of me dissolving into what looked like a melting painting. during the experience I vaguely remember lying down on the couch and feeling very uncomfortable waiting for it to end. I do not remember any imagery or anything from that journey at all. Quite strange for that size of a dose. Maybe my scales are out, or maybe the size of the crystals or purity of the DMT made it much much stronger... I dont know....
SO anyway this did phase me a little and I was going to abort the evenings aya journey, but I did a couple of I-ching readings and got the message that I should make the journey... so I summoned the courage to go ahead.
The journey itself was not very visual at all. The imagery I experienced was quite dream like and did not have much clarity. However I very much felt the presence of the caapi spirit and there were many unexplained bumps and knocks and sounds throughout the house during the whole journey.
There is one vision that I would like to share that I believe has meaning and connection to everything else. I found myself in a jungle. There were 2 tribesmen standing next to me. They said something in a tongue that I could not understand but I got the sense that they were warning me. My perception then shifted to across a clearing the where I saw a figure. It was very dark. It was oval shaped and covered in dark hair all over. There was a small space in the center where a face could have been. I felt that this entity wasn't very benevolent. It may have been a shaman in a costume? it may have been a spirit? It was familiar. It scared me. I opened my eyes to try and shake it off... and felt a presence in the room... it inhabited a large banner that I created and have on my wall... I got my partner who was sitting me to light some white sage and clear the room. which really helped (I would like to share with the reader how important sage can be to help clear energies during intense or fearful experiences).
The rest of the experience was filled with lots of deep purging. Quite intense and I know that there was some deep healing occurring. There was some very strange colored phlegm in my purge. I believe that perhaps there were some 'darts' that I may have purged.
I awoke feeling cleansed and filled with a deep respect to the power of the vine.
SO I quickly summarize all of this by saying that I am awed and humbled by the power of the tool that we have. There is so much that I do not understand. There are dark forces at play on the other side. We must all be very careful with what we are doing in hyperspace as it can have unexpected painful and damaging repercussions in the real world.
Where the fuck is the instruction manual?
Woah. If you have come this far I deeply thankyou for reading my ramblings. I would sincerely like any feedback you can offer to help me unravel the strange mysteries the spirit molecule has immersed me in.
