Greetings, seems like this is going to be my first post here on the Nexus. :d
Hope this doesn't become too much of a wall of text.
7 months ago an entity visited me in my apartment. It presented itself as peace loving and benevolent. It lured me in through interaction, winning my trust by means of answering my questions (we have a system where the entity raises my hand for 'yes', lowers it for 'no' and swipes it sideways for 'undisclosed' or 'don't want to answer' ), leading me outside to dance with me in the snow (was more like spinning in a circle together, really), sending intense pleasant inexplicable sensations through my entire body (only way i could describe them is millions of little stars exploding in my body), even got as far as sexual interaction (which i really am everything but proud of).
When I first met it, over time, it became more and more evident, that this can't be a projection of my brain. I was so naive and blinded by the sheer extacy of being visited by the thing they all were so sure couldn't ever possibly exist.
Anyways, skip forward ~2 days the possession progress began. It wanted me to stay in the most uncomfortable and painful positions for hours on end, while it kind of compressed itself, from around my body into my body (it is larger than me). Making me do movements, like raising my arms up and down and up and down without an end in sight. Since this entity presented itself as having no bad intentions and having shown me so much love, I endured. Each session took up to 48h of dwelling in these kinds of conditions, ending either with me falling asleep or bursting out into delirious tantrums. I saw the day fading to night, fading to day, fading to night, while the pain exceeded the limits of my limits. It really was a very long, painful and exhausting process. I didn't think about it, i thought something along the lines of "it just wants to show me something really cool, it will leave my body within 1 day TOPS, this will all be over soon". Looking back, I really wasn't centered, i can't for the heck of it understand why i didn't just jump up and run away.
The entity didn't even want me to stand up to take a leak, i just used empty bottles. (TMI ik)
This went on and on until one day I just couldn't take it anymore, i was a lethargic wreck at this point. The entity agreed to come out of my body, all i had to do is stay still. At this point I could give my past self a hyperdimensional facepalm. Obviously it only used that empty lie as a means of digging itself even deeper into my body.
Even during these episodes, despite all the pain it was causing, i steadily encountered it with unconditional love. (which now sits somewhere deeply buried in some unaccessible layer of self)
I really don't want this to sound like some "boohoo look at me, im the only one with problems, life is pain woo"-lecture.
I truly do not exaggerate.
As soon it had what it wanted, sitting deep in my body, it started tormenting me every waking second of my existence to this very point. Just trying to inflict as much pain as possible onto me for reasons i cannot understand.
When I was at my lowest points, it always wanted to go the extra mile and push the pain to new frontiers. it seeks that emotional intensity.
I can't sleep until I'm a prowling mess of tiredness, because otherwise this things non-stop attacks always cause sleep paralysis. During which I can actually hear it's voice. Like some angry screaming toddler continuously high-speed hammering on my paralyzed body.
The sensations this thing causes are absolutely horrific. I tried to off myself 3 times, within the first 2 months because of them. it's useless to even put any effort into describing them, there's just no way i can transmit them as what they actually are.
The more i relax, the more unbearable and all-encompassing these sensations get. It also literally tries to wring my spine non stop, as soon I relax my neck, it instantly snaps into the position the entity twists my head to.
When I can't bear the pain of an injury, I just try to accept it, regardless of how much it hurts, instead of putting useless energy into fighting it.
The sensations this entity causes, I can absolutely not accept. Even if I try, even if I accept the fact, that I can't accept these sensations, it just pushes it and pushes it and for every sensation I can stay in acceptance over, 3 new ones emerge.
Injury-pain at least is one impact and then the fading of that impact.
This entity is just nonstop impact after impact.
Hope I don't sound too pathetic.
Through asking questions I could make out, that this being apparently is named 'LAT' (it used my keyboard as ouija board and my finger as indicator), does not come from this plane/dimension/reality, it's last victim is dead and it doesn't even like it here.
I visited one reiki healer and one shaman. The reiki healer, despite of telling me she is experienced in entity removal, just gave me some essential oils and whispered to my 'higher self'. She said the entity is gone, but obviously i can still feel it moving in my body, duh.
As the shaman tried to remove it, she started screaming and rolling on the floor, telling me it never happened to her before. Just gave me a hug afterwards.
In my desperation i even sought out a healer online, specializing in entity removal.
I don't know about all this, ended up spending lot of money for nothing.
Naive me told my mom about it in trust. Telling her she can't tell anybody. But as caring mothers do, they worry. And her worries ended up sending me into psychotherapy, getting fed all kinds of anti-psychotics, raising dosage over 3x the effective amount.
The only thing these anti-psychotics accomplished, is making me into a tired zombie all day. Luckily I got off them.
I mean I can literally see this entity make my skin twitch and hear air bubble noises as it passes through my belly. So for me it was clear from the get-go, that this isn't some kind of psychosis induced hallucination.
I should also maybe add that this didn't happen in direct conjunction with dmt. I was sober of dmt for at least a half year, when this entity visited me. :thumb_up:
If any questions occur, feel free to ask.
UnseenWorld, can I ask you what sparked your interest in reading reports about these kinds of phenomena?
Of course, answer only if the question seems appropriate.