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Using mushrooms after a breakup. Can I use them to help heal? If so how can I be safe?

GreenGoblin69

GreenGoblin69

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Hey so a couple weeks ago my partner of 4 years broke up with me. She told me she just doesn't love me as much as I love her anymore. This has been really tough on me considering I honestly was so in love with her, we communicated our feelings often and I was so comfortable around her. Once I graduated high school we lived together for a year and spent a lot of time together. This week we talked and she gave me better closure and told me that she genuinely just doesn't want to be with me anymore, and I could tell the way she was speaking she was very serious. It hurt a lot to hear that but it was better closure then the week that passed. Even after such closure I think about her at least once every hour or two, and often think about how badly I wish I could see her. I have been in a really good headspace most the time and I distract myself with things like wrestling and listening to podcasts (and work of course). I mean I'm listening to podcasts all the time or else my brain will think of her or remind me of something we have done together. I've been trying to think of ways I can mitigate these feelings and thoughts like realizing that I can't do anything about it, and that I have to accept that I won't be sharing experiences with her anymore.

I have used mushrooms lots of times the past couple years but never under a circumstance or after a traumatic event such as this. I understand that I need to find a way to give less power towards my feelings towards her and understand that I can transfer these feelings somewhere else and give power to other parts of myself. Is it safe to do so with mushrooms. If I keep my doses low and set the intention of healing myself and transferring my energy somewhere else, idk?

Honestly I'm not to sure how to even go about it? I honestly just want to start healing faster then I am now. Today was one of the first days I didn't feel like there were sheets over my emotions. Whenever I think about her I feel my heart beat in my stomach. I was with her all through highschool and 2 years after? I'm trying to figure out how to live still, I turn 20 in a couple weeks and I thought I would spend it with her, it feels like my whole world has fallen apart at times. Not always but often. Can I use mushrooms to help me heal. I have a sister i'm very close with and whom I love very much. I would be tripping around her and the cats.
If I did decide to use mushrooms to help myself heal how should I go about using them? If you have personal experience but don't want to talk about it publicly please reach out to me. This is my first break up and a tough time in my life. I would like to get out of my head and would appreciate all the thoughts and opinions. THANK YOU!
 
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Oh man...this hits close to home for me. I had a similar breakup with my highschool sweetheart after almost 5 years together when I caught her cheating on me. It broke me into a million little pieces and for almost an entire year I had lost any and all purpose in life. I was just a heartless husk being carried on the winds of fate, and at one point I got dangerously close to harming myself in an irreversible way just to escape the suffering.

I know how you're feeling. I know the pain, and I know how heavy a burden it is to carry around. I cannot give you a magic bullet that will fix your issue, but I can tell you how life happened to me, so maybe you can extract something of value for yourself...

Right at the end of that year of suffering I mentioned above, I decided to have my first ever psychedelic experience. It was with LSD, not mushrooms, but the transformation it led to, and the enormous amount of healing work I managed to do in one go, completely turned my life around.

Keep in mind the trauma was not very fresh at that point, a whole year had passed. Yours sounds like very fresh to me. While mushrooms can definitely help you work on these emotions, I think it's important to give yourself a bit more time and try to find at least a little bit of peace with the fact that your paths diverged.

Don't think of this whole thing as something you "lost", or a "tragedy" that happened to you. Both of you were destined to play a certain role in each other's lives. A role that leads to learning and growing and...change. What that entails for her is beyond the scope of this. But what it entails for you is an opportunity to deal with emotions that are challenging and painful. It's an opportunity to profoundly understand things about yourself and life in general.

I know it might seem difficult to grasp all that is happening right now, but that's because you're too close. When you're too close to a mountain, you cannot see the peak. You need some time to process it all, to put some weeks and months and perhaps even years between yourself and these emotions to fully understand them by seeing the whole picture.

This is an opportunity for you to heal and become better than you were before. Give yourself some space and time, sit with your emotions, come to peace with them, and then reach out to the mushroom spirit for further guidance on the path of healing.

I'm sorry if you were hoping for a strict recipe to follow out of heartbreak. As far as my experience indicates, there is none. It's always a process that takes time and effort. But know this - time helps. Rushing something that cannot be rushed only introduces anxiety and unease.

My heart goes out to you. If you need to talk through some emotions you're having, or just vent, you can always PM me.

May the healing winds fill your sails onward <3
 
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Oh man...this hits close to home for me. I had a similar breakup with my highschool sweetheart after almost 5 years together when I caught her cheating on me. It broke me into a million little pieces and for almost an entire year I had lost any and all purpose in life. I was just a heartless husk being carried on the winds of fate, and at one point I got dangerously close to harming myself in an irreversible way just to escape the suffering.

I know how you're feeling. I know the pain, and I know how heavy a burden it is to carry around. I cannot give you a magic bullet that will fix your issue, but I can tell you how life happened to me, so maybe you can extract something of value for yourself...

Right at the end of that year of suffering I mentioned above, I decided to have my first ever psychedelic experience. It was with LSD, not mushrooms, but the transformation it led to, and the enormous amount of healing work I managed to do in one go, completely turned my life around.

Keep in mind the trauma was not very fresh at that point, a whole year had passed. Yours sounds like very fresh to me. While mushrooms can definitely help you work on these emotions, I think it's important to give yourself a bit more time and try to find at least a little bit of peace with the fact that your paths diverged.

Don't think of this whole thing as something you "lost", or a "tragedy" that happened to you. Both of you were destined to play a certain role in each other's lives. A role that leads to learning and growing and...change. What that entails for her is beyond the scope of this. But what it entails for you is an opportunity to deal with emotions that are challenging and painful. It's an opportunity to profoundly understand things about yourself and life in general.

I know it might seem difficult to grasp all that is happening right now, but that's because you're too close. When you're too close to a mountain, you cannot see the peak. You need some time to process it all, to put some weeks and months and perhaps even years between yourself and these emotions to fully understand them by seeing the whole picture.

This is an opportunity for you to heal and become better than you were before. Give yourself some space and time, sit with your emotions, come to peace with them, and then reach out to the mushroom spirit for further guidance on the path of healing.

I'm sorry if you were hoping for a strict recipe to follow out of heartbreak. As far as my experience indicates, there is none. It's always a process that takes time and effort. But know this - time helps. Rushing something that cannot be rushed only introduces anxiety and unease.

My heart goes out to you. If you need to talk through some emotions you're having, or just vent, you can always PM me.

May the healing winds fill your sails onward <3
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Honestly this is exactly the response I was hoping for, and the ones that make me why my own heart beats. I had the thought that I should wait and to just embrace my feelings. And find things to make me happy even in the mundane. The trauma is definitely very fresh and i'm still learning how to deal with these emotions. I will make sure to give it lots of time before embracing the mushroom again. The loss of what is my best friend is hard, and I understand that learning to live without her will be strenuous. I hope I can learn a lot in these times. I agree grasping it all seems so impossible. I honestly have never felt so lost. Thank you for writing this and sharing your experience. It truly means so much to me. Sending lots of love<3. I'll probably making up a follow up post at some point, maybe even dive back into meditation. I've been scared of what things will come up in my mind again though. Thank you!
 
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It is through hardship that we mature and become stronger. That feeling of being lost is not unnatural, and you shouldn't run away from it.

You're so young, just 20 years old. Temporally speaking, the world is your oyster. There's so much ahead of you, so many new best friends to make, so many new fantastic experiences to go through. You've barely scratched the surface of what life has to offer you.

Sit with this knowledge and embrace it. One door closed on you, but another opens, and beyond it new things expect you. Things that will excite, terrify, and change you in ways beyond your imagination.

If I could give you some advice to help you on your way now, it would be this: eat good food, exercise frequently, sleep well, and spend more time in Nature. Following this simple formula makes everything in life more enjoyable.

Don't be afraid. You are not alone on this journey.

Love & Light <3
 
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Everything you feel is ultimately generated within. All the good- that’s you doing it. Don’t expect to feel that way though. You will feel that way again and it will likely be better each time you do and this will be a distant memory.

I think MDMA might be most helpful for processing these types of experiences if it’s still very recent.
 
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hey @GreenGoblin69 hope you get fine very soon, I agree with you mushrooms will wash deep feelings that are entangled with her energy, start with a medium dosage and prepare yourself to fight the fears related to the end of the relationship.

In this sense what's helping me a lot is the concept of "spiritual emergency" coined by psychiatrist Stanislav Grof, nor you can get rid of the present emotions but you can use them as a tool for your next spiritual phase.

This type of "crisis" holds an enormous potential, be careful, trust the process and trust your good karma.

All the best
 
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