DarkMedicine
Crucify the ego, before it's far too late.
While I am well past my first steps in hyperspace, this is where I am allowed to post currently due to my newly obtained membership so I thought I would share it here. I just got done with session about an hour ago. It was the most odd experience of my life. There is nothing that is even a close second.
I loaded my VG up and put my headphones on. My all time favorite song both sober and for DMT experiences was playing (Tool's Reflection). I have used this song dozens of times and it always enhances the experience plus it is 11 minutes long so it lasts pretty much the entire trip usually. I forget it is playing entirely and it is like the music is part of the experience. It always takes me to a similar place, though never too similar. Anyways, I lit the torch and inhaled. That familiar feeling began as I placed the VG and torch down on my nightstand. I closed my eyes and reached over for the lamp cord to kill the lights. And there I was again. Once the effects started to subside I felt as if I needed to reload and go again. I usually find the most depth in the second and third sessions. I loaded the VG and restarted the song. As I began to inhale, everything was business as usual (if that is appropriate to say of this molecule). But then the strangest thing happened. I began to feel a VERY PHYSICAL feeling of some kind of dark energy surging throughout my body. A very violent feeling. Not violent in the sense that it was trying to harm me but violent in the sense that it felt like I was becoming some kind of violent entity. I opened my eyes because it was very unsettling. The feeling did not subside but continued to grow stonger and stronger. Like electricity shooting through my entire being, both body and soul. I sat up lotus style on my bed and closed my eyes again. I began to accept this energy and thought "do whatever is needed" in regards to that energy. Almost immediately I felt like some kind of demonic entity. I transformed. I felt like I could kill a lion with my bare hands. I had passing thoughts that I could light my entire house on fire with my mind. That I could conquer the entire world. I felt so incredibly strong and concrete. Then, just as the energy came, it left and I was almost back to "normal" if such a thing exists.
This is not typical for me at all. I am not a violent person. I have been in the past. I changed that long ago. I have no desire to control or conquer anything. I enjoy peace and tranquility and my experiences usually follow this model. When I return from hyperspace I always feel revived and happy. Not the case today. I feel angry. I feel like I just want to be left alone. I tried to read a book (What is Hypnosis by Andrew Salter) to calm me down and I can't even finish a chapter. I have vaped DMT in the hundreds of times and I have met many dark entities and had many dark experiences. I have learned to embrace that darkness and you always come out the other side thankful for having embraced it. This was something different altogether. I tried to embrace it but it was just excessive.
Has anyone else experienced something like this?
I loaded my VG up and put my headphones on. My all time favorite song both sober and for DMT experiences was playing (Tool's Reflection). I have used this song dozens of times and it always enhances the experience plus it is 11 minutes long so it lasts pretty much the entire trip usually. I forget it is playing entirely and it is like the music is part of the experience. It always takes me to a similar place, though never too similar. Anyways, I lit the torch and inhaled. That familiar feeling began as I placed the VG and torch down on my nightstand. I closed my eyes and reached over for the lamp cord to kill the lights. And there I was again. Once the effects started to subside I felt as if I needed to reload and go again. I usually find the most depth in the second and third sessions. I loaded the VG and restarted the song. As I began to inhale, everything was business as usual (if that is appropriate to say of this molecule). But then the strangest thing happened. I began to feel a VERY PHYSICAL feeling of some kind of dark energy surging throughout my body. A very violent feeling. Not violent in the sense that it was trying to harm me but violent in the sense that it felt like I was becoming some kind of violent entity. I opened my eyes because it was very unsettling. The feeling did not subside but continued to grow stonger and stronger. Like electricity shooting through my entire being, both body and soul. I sat up lotus style on my bed and closed my eyes again. I began to accept this energy and thought "do whatever is needed" in regards to that energy. Almost immediately I felt like some kind of demonic entity. I transformed. I felt like I could kill a lion with my bare hands. I had passing thoughts that I could light my entire house on fire with my mind. That I could conquer the entire world. I felt so incredibly strong and concrete. Then, just as the energy came, it left and I was almost back to "normal" if such a thing exists.
This is not typical for me at all. I am not a violent person. I have been in the past. I changed that long ago. I have no desire to control or conquer anything. I enjoy peace and tranquility and my experiences usually follow this model. When I return from hyperspace I always feel revived and happy. Not the case today. I feel angry. I feel like I just want to be left alone. I tried to read a book (What is Hypnosis by Andrew Salter) to calm me down and I can't even finish a chapter. I have vaped DMT in the hundreds of times and I have met many dark entities and had many dark experiences. I have learned to embrace that darkness and you always come out the other side thankful for having embraced it. This was something different altogether. I tried to embrace it but it was just excessive.
Has anyone else experienced something like this?
