Sedrick
Rising Star
I'm slowly going up and up my doses because after i first done dmt (20mg) i had an extreme anxeity of it. Not because of a bad trip, but because of the pure intensity of the trip. However i slowly tried to take more and more my max was 30mg white and i swapped to yellow as im out of white
I just took 40mg of yellow (approx. 25 minutes ago i can still feel the eupohria and HD vision, but no CEV or OEV) and i tried to remember as much as i can directly when i got control of my body back i tried to write down somewhat but well you'll see.
at 21:10
i started to put on some meditation music and meditated somewhat so i can relax and take away my axiety i have due to pure respect of the DMT.
~21:22
I lit the fire under my oil pipe let some smoke gather and took one huge hit. I immedietly felt that was more than i ever inhaled. Directly i felt how i lose more and more control over my motoric body control.
between ~21:22 and 21:30
I felt how my body dissolved. I felt like i'm becoming everything. And i mean i was like in a void. It felt like a room tough, like a dark room. There where extremly nice visuals wich i cant remember much tough i just know due to the awesomemess of them i said "wow" all the time. I was waiting for machiene elves to show up like terrence mckenna said and like i read a lot on the internet, but there was nobody but me and i was everything. My "legs" felt like they were the end of the room they didnt feel like legs tough, they felt like a wall at the end of the void.
I remembered that i should'nt try to take control but closely watch and learn. So i said: "What are you trying to teach me?" There was no answer, i felt love tough. I still heard the relaxation music in the void and my dog breathing, but i heard my dog like he was breathing into my ear even tough he was a good meter away from me. I said: "i love you dog" (I called him by his name i dont want to use real life names though so i refer to him as dog
) i said: "I always want to be with him please"
At that moment i noticed the whole time, there was a presence right next to me. And i didnt even notice it till now. When i felt it i could'nt figure what the presence was. It felt like it was a higher loving presence at the same time i felt it was my dog and it felt like the presence was me, since i was everything. I said wow again cause that feeling was unbelieveble. And it still amazes me that i didnt feel the presence at first even tough i KNOW it was there all the time right next to me. Who or whatever it was.
21:30
I was back i directly looked at the clock wich was morphing and knew i was back. At first i gave in to pure amazement what just happened, but then i remembered that you forget what happens in hypersapce fast so i picked up a pen and wrote my experience down. Im writing it here but its in german and im translating it maybe not 1to1 what i actually wrote down due to translation errors and even what i wrote down is filled with gramatically errors, i think cause i still was high like in a 500mu LSD trip with vivid colours moving walls and stuff. Whatever here it is:
"I was all, i was all with everything in a black with everything filled room. Was god with me? The presence loved me and i it, fantastic."
I added punctuation marks to make it less confusing since i wasnt able to write them in that state :lol: .
21:33-21:40
I was still high as a kite and tried to have fun with it. In example i was waving around my arms since i had that hppd effect if you know what im talking about. I looked out of the window at the sky and the trees, it was wonderful but not so special i am always amazed by nature so it didnt feel special. I asked my dog if he was the presence with me since he woke up when i stood up. He didnt answer tough
i just cuddled him shortly and he went back to sleep :thumb_up: .
~21:40
went to this site and began writing.
Well there was certainly some things i may left out, but its impossible to write down a trip in human language anyway. Also i had some audio illusions and visuals i can neither describe nor remember exactly. But can anybody tell me where i was? I wasnt in the land of machiene elves there was nobody but me and the presence. And who was the presence? What is the void? Why do i feel like im everything in the void? What was that feeling of love i felt towards something i cant tell?
Edit: Some things i remember just now that came back to me when thinking about the trip. I felt like i was there before, i tought "man how could i forget this place" and the room wasnt completly black there where patterns in the void that kind of signed a wall but it wasnt a wall in a worldly kind of speaking. Hard to explain put it wasnt pure blackness in the void at least.
Mod said:
I just took 40mg of yellow (approx. 25 minutes ago i can still feel the eupohria and HD vision, but no CEV or OEV) and i tried to remember as much as i can directly when i got control of my body back i tried to write down somewhat but well you'll see.
at 21:10
i started to put on some meditation music and meditated somewhat so i can relax and take away my axiety i have due to pure respect of the DMT.
~21:22
I lit the fire under my oil pipe let some smoke gather and took one huge hit. I immedietly felt that was more than i ever inhaled. Directly i felt how i lose more and more control over my motoric body control.
between ~21:22 and 21:30
I felt how my body dissolved. I felt like i'm becoming everything. And i mean i was like in a void. It felt like a room tough, like a dark room. There where extremly nice visuals wich i cant remember much tough i just know due to the awesomemess of them i said "wow" all the time. I was waiting for machiene elves to show up like terrence mckenna said and like i read a lot on the internet, but there was nobody but me and i was everything. My "legs" felt like they were the end of the room they didnt feel like legs tough, they felt like a wall at the end of the void.
I remembered that i should'nt try to take control but closely watch and learn. So i said: "What are you trying to teach me?" There was no answer, i felt love tough. I still heard the relaxation music in the void and my dog breathing, but i heard my dog like he was breathing into my ear even tough he was a good meter away from me. I said: "i love you dog" (I called him by his name i dont want to use real life names though so i refer to him as dog
) i said: "I always want to be with him please"At that moment i noticed the whole time, there was a presence right next to me. And i didnt even notice it till now. When i felt it i could'nt figure what the presence was. It felt like it was a higher loving presence at the same time i felt it was my dog and it felt like the presence was me, since i was everything. I said wow again cause that feeling was unbelieveble. And it still amazes me that i didnt feel the presence at first even tough i KNOW it was there all the time right next to me. Who or whatever it was.
21:30
I was back i directly looked at the clock wich was morphing and knew i was back. At first i gave in to pure amazement what just happened, but then i remembered that you forget what happens in hypersapce fast so i picked up a pen and wrote my experience down. Im writing it here but its in german and im translating it maybe not 1to1 what i actually wrote down due to translation errors and even what i wrote down is filled with gramatically errors, i think cause i still was high like in a 500mu LSD trip with vivid colours moving walls and stuff. Whatever here it is:
"I was all, i was all with everything in a black with everything filled room. Was god with me? The presence loved me and i it, fantastic."
I added punctuation marks to make it less confusing since i wasnt able to write them in that state :lol: .
21:33-21:40
I was still high as a kite and tried to have fun with it. In example i was waving around my arms since i had that hppd effect if you know what im talking about. I looked out of the window at the sky and the trees, it was wonderful but not so special i am always amazed by nature so it didnt feel special. I asked my dog if he was the presence with me since he woke up when i stood up. He didnt answer tough
i just cuddled him shortly and he went back to sleep :thumb_up: .~21:40
went to this site and began writing.
Well there was certainly some things i may left out, but its impossible to write down a trip in human language anyway. Also i had some audio illusions and visuals i can neither describe nor remember exactly. But can anybody tell me where i was? I wasnt in the land of machiene elves there was nobody but me and the presence. And who was the presence? What is the void? Why do i feel like im everything in the void? What was that feeling of love i felt towards something i cant tell?
Edit: Some things i remember just now that came back to me when thinking about the trip. I felt like i was there before, i tought "man how could i forget this place" and the room wasnt completly black there where patterns in the void that kind of signed a wall but it wasnt a wall in a worldly kind of speaking. Hard to explain put it wasnt pure blackness in the void at least.
