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Welp you asked for it.....Notes from a hopeful traveler

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Luther

Luther

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Greetings to fellow travelers. You asked for an introduction essay, so here goes.....

Even when young and dumb and putting lots of really harmful stuff in my body I was never really drawn to psychs for whatever reason. Nothing against, just not my cup of tea.

I have had recurring issues with depression all my life. After a stroke in 2012 at 46 it kicked in like a mf! Damn near completely debilitating. 6 years of Scripts and “counseling” did little except make me psychologically numb, deplete my funds, and turn me against pharmaceutical remedies. I need a change. Hopefully a reset.....

I have been researching dmt, lsd and mushrooms possibly having theraputic benefits for depressives. I purchased supposed lsd once and boomers a couple of times. Only got a good buzz from the acid. The supplier had said it was old and made no promises. I did gain a new appreciation for the lyrics of certain rap music that night, so I guess it did help me expand my consciousness to a certain extent!

The mushrooms I had higher (😝) hopes for. They looked right, they were vouched for.......nada! Made tea twice from 4 g in an hour or so and then ate the dregs. Once again, great buzz, no trip. Did it again two nights later with some bourbon. The same result. I know from long ago past experience and word of mouth that this amount should have definitely done the job, especially since it’s been 25 years since I last ate them at a rock show. My totally unsubstantiated theory is that those receptors may have been “deadened” by all the chemical medications.

My main issue is supply. I live in a college town, but after 25 years of buying nothing but Weed my contacts are limited. This led me to the attempt to produce psychs myself. Mushrooms were my original goal. I read everything I could get my hands on about growing boomers. Seemed a bit of work but not much more difficult than growing any other fussy garden item. But I just never could pull the trigger and order everything. Due to my partner’s occupation I’m leery of having all the equipment and spores shipped here, not to mention having them sitting around for a couple of months as they grow and cycle through.

Researching mushrooms lead me to many cross references to spice. I didn’t know much about it. I’m a big fan of Sturgill Simpson, and his references, and subsequent interview with joe Rogan, had already arosed questions, and the more I read, the more my interest was peaked. I’ve read, I’ve watched videos, I think I’m ready to give it a shot.

I found a discrete source of mhrb. The Q21Q21 tec 1 meets my wishes for a non petrochemical mode of extraction. I’ve made the extraction and have what looks like some quality full spectrum spice. I have the house to myself next weekend and a willing chaperone familiar with psychedelics. Maybe I’ll hate it. Maybe it’ll be the best thing since the love of a good woman. But it can’t be worse than all those damn pills, and endless visits to therapists, can it? God, I hope not.

Peace and love, and I’ll see you at a rock show. Or on the other side.....
 
Thanks for that and re-welcome :thumb_up:

DMT is very rewarding, from finding a viable source to a consistent vapor or brew.
I learned a lot, about plant, then chemistry, but i believe the most where i learned is from me. Used with respect and good intention, it can enhance (as other psych) part of us if we decide to.

Peace dude & safe travels.
 
I think it is worth mentioning that DMT and psychedelics in general are not a cure all. It takes work on the self. You sound like you have already started this work, so you are definitely on the right path from the sounds of it.

Henry David Thoreau said:
Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence. Wherever a man separates from the multitude and goes his own way, there is a fork in the road, though the travelers along the highway see only a gap in the paling.
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Good luck in your healing! Please feel free to pop in here and talk about your process. We can all act as a sounding board for you. I wish you the best my friend!
 
Thanks for the kind words! I’m definitely not just looking for a magical cure-all that doesn’t exist. Just help with a mental reset.

Peace
 
T minus 7 days.....
I’m excited and apprehensive in approximately equal measures. Almost how it would have been if my younger Self had known well in advance exactly when he would first be intimate with a lover. Am I doing the right thing, am I ready, will I do it right and well? Will the day ever arrive? Will I respect myself the next day? (Let’s face it, too many of us would never have even considered that last one at 18 or so when it came to sex, or altered states, but I damn sure do at half a century)

I think maybe it’s time to back away a bit. Quit obsessively reading. Focusing (obsessing) on the project has actually been distracting and moderately therapeutic as I am weaning myself off the prescription anti depressants, but I’m due a break.

The more I’ve read, I’ve decided to postpone Changa with caapi till a full 60 days completely “clean “ of any prescription anti depressants. Next weekend will only be 24 days free after 2 months of deceasing doses so I’m just gonna have a Jim-jamboree!

I’m still debating methods of application. Current thinking is as follows. I have multiple Crafty mesh screens. They fit well in my old arizer extreme desktop vape machine. Also they fit a 14 mm internal diameter grav bowl I have that looks perfect for use. It’s solid in the center with tiny hole all around the edge, They even fit in a glass dab bowl. I plan to pre load various strengths and see which works best, probably starting with the grav on a little 6” beaker type bubbler. I have a decent amount of extract to experiment with so I have room for trial and error. This seems easier than trying to handle and vape the smaller beginner size doses of non Harmala enhanced leaf. Any further suggestions/recommendations along these lines are appreciated!

Does anyone have suggestions for relatively concise reading or video material aimed specifically at informing non travelers? My partner knows and approves that I’m doing something in an effort to improve my head, but I haven’t filled her in completely. I’m leaning towards “The Open Hyperspace Travler” written word and maybe “DMT the Spirit Molecule” video, even though it’s on the cheesy side for me (sorry Joe).

Till next time.....Peace, y’all!
 
Luther said:
Does anyone have suggestions for relatively concise reading or video material aimed specifically at informing non travelers? My partner knows and approves that I’m doing something in an effort to improve my head, but I haven’t filled her in completely. I’m leaning towards “The Open Hyperspace Travler” written word and maybe “DMT the Spirit Molecule” video, even though it’s on the cheesy side for me (sorry Joe).

Till next time.....Peace, y’all!
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I think the video below is really good. It is a compilation of people attempting to explain what they experienced on DMT.

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Thanks DmnStr8 but I’m afraid that one might be a bit too much for someone who’s going to be supportive but deeply concerned that It might do more harm than help.....

The descriptions there and in other places of geometric or fractal beings reminds me strongly of his description of certain Spren spirits in Brandon Sanderson’s Stormlight Archives series. Methinks I might guess why.....
 
Since I can’t sleep I’ll add in a brief tec description.
I wanted an all food safe non petrochemical extraction so Q21Q21 tec 1 (slightly modified with the Blab description of an oven evaporation) was the choice. 200 g total mhrb powder in two quart mason jars with suggested proportions of water vinegar and lime. I only had 6% vinegar in house at the time so a bit extra lime was added to ensure basification. once I got it to consistency 1 I placed the jars in a cabinet. It was planned for the mixture to sit overnight but life got in the way and it was 3 days until the first pulls were done.

I added, Agitated, and poured off the d limonene into a clean jar, added the vinegar to wash, then warm water. The vinegar/water was removed with a kitchen baster into a glass and then I did the same again to try to get out the last super fine layer of the d limonene still present. (Came from the exterior of my baster i theorize). I did 3 washes on one jar and two on the other for about 9 shot glasses of liquid over 24 hours. Any little amount of vinegar/d lim left over I dumped back in the main jars.

I poured them in a glass dish and left it sitting over night. Next day I set the pan in my oven on lowest setting with the door open and a fan blowing directly into the oven. I set timers, I adgitated, I watched closely, and I still almost let it get too hot. Luckily vinegar has a really distinctive odor when it’s almost completely evaporated and that saved me. After cooling I scraped the goo up using 2 razor blades.

I was pleasantly surprised that I got 1.18 g Jimjam that looked like the pictures, according to my scale accurate to .00 g! (Guess what my next purchase will be)

Today, 1 week out, I did 2 more pulls from each. I’ll post yield upon evaporation tomorrow. I got some icky emulsions this time when the vinegar was agitated. The plant matter is at this point really soupy from ?absorbing limonene? I assume. I read that this tec could absorb a lot of the limonene into the plant matter. I started with 24 oz and am down to about 6 or 8 oz, after extractions and a little spillage. Does this sound about right? It seems a lot, but I have no basis for comparison. Is there any way to reclaim any absorbed solvent? Food grade d lim is not inexpensive.

I plan to let them sit for a week and give it a last go, unless yield indicates there might be a significant amount of spice left, based on expected approximately 1% yield: ie 2 g spice from 200 g mhrb. Should I maybe spread the plant matter in a pan and dry it out in the oven before the next attempt?

Here are a couple of observations on dealing with/removing the salted vinegar with household utensils. Put it and the limonene in the smallest small mouth canning jar that will hold everything to do your shaking. Sit it on a running clothes dryer for a minute after shaking to help separation. Turn the jar so one corner is down and slowly pour, using that corner of the jar to dam the underlying vinegar mix. If you’re careful you can get almost all of the d limonene out this way. Then finish with a baster. I actually had to macgiver something else today when the bulb on my old baster cracked. I sat the jar with the mixture higher than my Receptacle and filled a long flexible drinking straw with water and used that to create a siphon to remove the salted vinegar. I think this may be less likely to leave residual micro amounts of solvent than a baster, and I was able to remove slightly more liquid from the mixture than I was able to before without getting any more solvent.

If you don’t have cotton balls to make a filter out of a funnel like the tec suggests, break the tip off several cotton swabs and place them together broken ends down in the funnel tip. Make sure it’s not too tight to allow liquid to flow through.

I’ve seen complaints about dealing with the full spectrum goo. I used a dab trick and scraped it all into a slick and stuck it in the freezer. In 5 minutes it’s almost the consistency of shatter. Put it in a fold of parchment paper and squeeze it into a flat rough rectangle. Dosing should then be relatively easy with a good scale. I haven’t tried it yet but I feel sure cutting cold product with a cold blade will work just like it does for thc concentrates.

Lastly, I’m storing it airtight in the freezer with a desiccant pillow from an aspirin bottle to hopefully soak up any excess moisture.

See you at the rock show!
 
I want to comment that as much as its the job of the compound to take you on the trip its also your job to go along with the trip. What I mean by this using your awareness to be in tune with the things going on around you, to take you to new thoughts, new experiences and a new appreciation for life. A big part of tripping is going with the flow. A huge part of psychedelics is state of mind, set and setting. Intention is everything when on these compounds.
 
That video Damstr8 shared is cool. I think youre really smart to want do do Changa: dmt with Caapi harmalas. I think you are doing yourself a very good favor. Youre mining gold there.

As for starting the proccess being beneficial and re invigorating; totally! I am the worst cigarrette addict I ever met and I quit that shit during my investigation proccess. It took like 3 months from since i wanted dmt to when I smoked it. It was my first hallucinogen. I thought of it every second of every day, and quitting cigs and hitting the gym hader and quitting porn was the best thing I ever did in my life and it was all because I was afraid of dmt not liking me if I wasnt pure enough :lol:

Its such a good thing to not fail in that...to be the best person you can be before smoking, as if you are meeting your death...its so sweet and cleansing.

Be careful of not letting these bad habits creep up again after losing the dmt v-card.

DMT: The best thing since sliced bread!!

Much luck man!😁
 
Thanks for the kind words FranLover!

Debating on methods of application for tomorrow. Volcano pads fit perfectly in my bubbler bowl. This seems relatively straightforward. That was original plan.
But as I was having a "dab" of smoke this evening I'm now considering my APX Volt. Its a portable vaporizer that has a ceramic "bowl" over the coil. It creates nice strong vapor from wax herb extracts, which are approximately the same consistency as the jimjam I extracted, so I think it might work well. With a fresh bowl\coil of course.

Is anyone familiar with one of these?
 
A day of quiet reflection. My goal is some time around sunset if the spice agrees. I started with a light breakfast and then plenty of coconut water. Mini fast otherwise.

I decided to pass some time fiddling with the mhrb soup left after I ran short of limonine. It had been on a shelf since the last pull, and had a layer of limonine liquid on top with grey (I'm assuming) plant emulsions. I drained this off last night and after sitting overnight it separated into layers. I placed this on a running washer for a couple of loads and it separated fairly well. I was able to siphon out most of the solvent and leave the crud behind.

I originally planned to spread the remaining plant matter in a pan to dry it and save for another extraction. When I did however I noticed the matter immediately began oozing d limonine! Through stirring and tilting the pan I was able to remove almost a pint of solvent I thought was gone for good! After salting all of this recovered solvent I have what looks like a considerable amount of spice that I wasn't expecting this morning!

This has helped to nicely counteract a "set" back that has me actually considering postponing my journey. My sitter bailed last minute. This really bummed me, especially because it's a close friend who, I thought, knew how important this was to me. I found a substitute who can't stay for an extended session as planned but can be here for at least a couple of sessions so.....

I'll start low and work up. After a week of mental preparation I'm not sure I'm ready to postpone. If I get there, wherever there is, all will get good. But if all I get in are some sample doses that's cool too!

If I'm able I'll check back in afterwards. Or tomorrow it not tonight. I'll see you on the other side, Lord willin' and the creek don't rise! Peace y'all.....
 
One word.....WOW! I worked up 5mg at a time starting at 15 mg. After some trial and error on the smoking technique i was able to get to the edge but not completely through at doses in the 40-50mg range. By this time it was late, and further exploration will have to wait.

No doorways, no direct contact with entities( there was this one little guy who kept peeking around the geometric patterns and laughing at me, but it would disappear every time I tried to focus my attention that way!) The intensity was just right for my first attempts. Much more and it would have been overwhelming. The last effort of the session had a really weird vibe,and I knew it was time to quit.

I did not see the shifting colors that many speak of. Eyes open or closed everything trip related took on hues varying from light to dark, but no vivid colors. Best example is as follows. Eyes closed, dimly lit room. song playing is Spirit in the night.....Everything had an almost bright cream colored back light of aura. About the time I was able to notice the juxtaposition for light and dark Suddenly an entity more felt than seen made a slashing motion and everything shifted to the comfortable darkness of a mid summer's evening.

Ambient sound made a big difference. Im a music lover to begin with, so I suspected as much. Native American music was nice, but I think "comfort" tunes are the way for me. The one go with no music had almost no visuals but a crazy heavy body buzz.

My last go i remembered to smoke a bowl of lotus flower first and that really had an interesting effect. I'm still about s month away from being clear of depression meds, and I'm looking forward to combining with caapi in Changa.

My biggest issue was holding all that lovely, nasty smoke. Twice at the 45 mg range i coughed hard and lost a good bit. One of those was the most intense experience of my night, and I wonder if I would have broken through if I had been able to keep it all in?

I'm definitely glad that I tried the spice. And now I will feel comfortable taking a solo journey when the time is right.

See you at the Rock Show, and peace y'all!
 
As of now 2.093 g jimjam from 200g mhrb. This seems to be in the expected range for extraction. Would it be worth my time to do more pulls from my now mostly dry mhrb? If so should I rebasify, basically starting from scratch, or just add more d limonine?
 
After a third round of washes I’m now up to 2.418 g spice. By round I mean 2 washes spread over 10/12 hours and them evaporation.

Maybe it’s a coincidence. I’m getting closer to being clear of the pills. I’ve been eating better. We’ve had a week of mostly sunshine for the first time in a century. But I’ve had the best outlook on things the last few days that I’ve had in forever, it seems. Damn near forgot what happy for no reason feels like! Therefore I choose to give the spice a large portion of the credit, and a big Thank You!

See ya at the Rock show!
 
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