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what are you waiting for???

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I am. said:
FEEL LIKE YOU'VE BEEN WAITING ON SOMETHING BUT YOU'RE JUST NOT SURE WHAT?
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Felt like it for most of my life. Here it is. I am not sure what and never will be sure what. Putting labels on it only detracts SWIM from learning further.
 
Maybe it's the unconscious knowledge of our impending death? Knowing that at some point the Grand Finale is gonna arrive, hence the feeling?

Or maybe it's just responsibilities you forgot to do and your conscience is trying to remind you of it?

In any case I agree with FastFourierT, just keep going with life, do what you have to do, try to each day be the best you can and overcome your limitations and weaknesses, retract from mistakes and try to develop the potentials, enjoying the ride and appreciating people and moments :)
 
Waiting for my car to lose control and hit the wall? Waiting to find a hidden 7th gear? (I'm stuck at the shop fixing 2nd now, greasy mechanics waiting for me to tell them how to do it)

Waiting for the finish line? Waiting to become the rush you chase? Waiting to saddle a comet and ride it into the sun. Waiting for waterfalls to crash on me? Waiting to see something majestic ....die? Waiting...for something...I don't remember what, but it's as sweet as a first kiss, sweeter than picking fruit under the golden sun, hot like the snakes bite, and moving through the garden silently beside us. What are we waiting for?
 
Yeah waiting for the energy to finish
Replacing the leaf springs on my
83 landcruiser sitting on jack stands in the mud.
 
this sure is going a lot quicker than i originally thought it would...anyone else relate?
 
I am said:
Feel like you've been waiting on something but you're just not sure what?
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Honestly, most of my life I have had a similar feeling, to one degree or another. While I sincerely believe I have found my unity within this vast universe and realized my own true face, as the empty visage of the Omniself... I still question how much of this is the mirrored illusion of my own mind. I have abandoned the mechanism of my routine thought-process, in favor of mindful spontaneity and so, been blessed (with the aid of Sacred Medicines) by deep immersions into the Clear Light of The Godhead. Essentially, I am still unformed, awaiting my birth, I am zero. :shock:

And so, this has hardly removed the feeling that something mysterious and incomprehensible is around the next bend in the path. Even now, I wonder what is actually real and what is going on behind the scenes, you know, The Big Picture. But these are mind generated conceptual affirmations and contemplative ideas. I do not know the future, I cannot be certain my perception of the past was in any way, close to reality and frankly, I will never be sure if I am even real. Who am I? So yeah, I do feel that I await something undefinable... my destiny. :idea:

Robert A. Heinlein said:
Waiting for fullness is...
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Rising Spirit said:
I still question how much of this is the mirrored illusion of my own mind. I have abandoned the mechanism of my routine thought-process, in favor of mindful spontaneity and so, been blessed (with the aid of Sacred Medicines) by deep immersions into the Clear Light of The Godhead. Essentially, I am still unformed, awaiting my birth, I am zero.

Even now, I wonder what is actually real and what is going on behind the scenes, you know, The Big Picture. But these are mind generated conceptual affirmations and contemplative ideas. I do not know the future, I cannot be certain my perception of the past was in any way, close to reality and frankly, I will never be sure if I am even real. Who am I? So yeah, I do feel that I await something undefinable... my destiny.
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Man, it feels good to read this. I have been so incredibly lonely with these thoughts. Thank you!
 
waiting for next summer, for tomorrow or the end of the day, for the emulsion to settle, the stuff to kick in, for the paycheck to come, the fear to drop, courage to raise, being old, waiting for the washing to dry, Batman to save the world, being ready to walk the path, the call... Waiting to be able to see there is nothing to wait because everything is already here and at the same time nothing is...
 
Yes, I have felt that way ever since I was young. Waiting on something to fully fill a purpose - yeah, sorry, I am no nihilist, nor am I what some would call a humanist, or lucifarian. I am definitely getting closer, and I don't think it is as simple as impending death of this flesh suite. There is something special about this life, and we are so much more than this life, this reality - though the undying and this world/existence of entropy are some how deeply connected. It is a multi-valent awareness. A lot has changed for me in the last few months, a laying down of modern, or post modern logic; what logic has become. The model of thinking has become corrupt in my opinion, and does not reflect creation, as a whole.

Perhaps it is about remembering and relationship?
 
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