fractalmatter
Rising Star
So I have roughly around 70mg left of the molecule & was planning on saving it for the "right time" or when it felt right. I felt as if I still needed to process my last experiences & work on one particular thing i was told I needed to improve on. When I'm finally ready I plan on trying to breakthrough.
Anyways, I had a little molecule left in an oil burner from my first 2 attempts at experiencing with it. It had some re crystallization from it, so I thought to myself. I'm going to try & hit this to just see if anything happens. No "disrespect" to the molecule, but I figured the very first sample run I did with this molecule was 5mg sandwiched between a bowl & the sacred geometry flower of life came over my chest & communicated to me that I was ready for the journey.( I was fully awake & walking around). That experience alone was beautiful to me, so I figured even if something like that happened I'd be satisfied & itd lift my mood.
The thing is during my experience I understand what's going on & it has meaning & I feel so happy & joyful during the experience and then it seems as if immediately after I'm back in my body that I become confused, and I'm like wait?? How am I this human? This is a mistake? How did I come from there to here? Why would I choose to be here? Something had to have happened. Almost like the perfect spiritual world broke and its contents splattered and there's evil spiritual thieves that steal the good spirit matter & are doing am experiment with it. At least that's the notion I got, but never necessarily thought of things like this before.
Ok so to my trip: so I lay on my bed & heat the oil burner & toke. I hold it in & lay down & as I do this I try to meditate on holding my breathe. Then before I even let loose I blast off. I came into this "room" or "space" and at first it seemed as if I was an outsider looking in onto what was going on...and what was going on was AMAZING CREATION and they were doing it so fast my mind couldn't comprehend it. Well, when they noticed my presence they stopped creating and recognized me. I got a feeling right then like oh no I'm not supposed to be here. But then, immediately after that they resonated with my spirit & knew I was a part of them, whatever that was. Then they got exited & they were like we're going to show you some things! Then they started creating & everything was beautiful! The things they created could not be explained or comprehended.It was 4D geometrical shapes but everything was morphing & changing so quickly and the shapes looked like so many things were going on within it like it had cracks and each section of the shape was a different pattern but everything about it was beautiful. It felt so natural to be there as if I had already been there or will be there existing in that particular moment & will actually know what is going on. It's like I just got a peek.
I felt in my spirit that I was about to leave & sure enough they said their joyful goodbyes & then it's like I fell & that's when I got the notion of good spirit matter being collected by evil..so maybe they hang out in the void in between trying to get what they can. Like if certain souls are journeying that are spiritually weak at the current moment in their existence?
Also, these things in this realm of reality did not seem like the "elves" described in so many trip reports. But they definetely were showing me amazing art/beauty/creativity/life/something? & it seemed to be directly connected to this life. Has anyone else experienced this. I'm feeling so alone. No one is answering?
Anyways, I had a little molecule left in an oil burner from my first 2 attempts at experiencing with it. It had some re crystallization from it, so I thought to myself. I'm going to try & hit this to just see if anything happens. No "disrespect" to the molecule, but I figured the very first sample run I did with this molecule was 5mg sandwiched between a bowl & the sacred geometry flower of life came over my chest & communicated to me that I was ready for the journey.( I was fully awake & walking around). That experience alone was beautiful to me, so I figured even if something like that happened I'd be satisfied & itd lift my mood.
The thing is during my experience I understand what's going on & it has meaning & I feel so happy & joyful during the experience and then it seems as if immediately after I'm back in my body that I become confused, and I'm like wait?? How am I this human? This is a mistake? How did I come from there to here? Why would I choose to be here? Something had to have happened. Almost like the perfect spiritual world broke and its contents splattered and there's evil spiritual thieves that steal the good spirit matter & are doing am experiment with it. At least that's the notion I got, but never necessarily thought of things like this before.
Ok so to my trip: so I lay on my bed & heat the oil burner & toke. I hold it in & lay down & as I do this I try to meditate on holding my breathe. Then before I even let loose I blast off. I came into this "room" or "space" and at first it seemed as if I was an outsider looking in onto what was going on...and what was going on was AMAZING CREATION and they were doing it so fast my mind couldn't comprehend it. Well, when they noticed my presence they stopped creating and recognized me. I got a feeling right then like oh no I'm not supposed to be here. But then, immediately after that they resonated with my spirit & knew I was a part of them, whatever that was. Then they got exited & they were like we're going to show you some things! Then they started creating & everything was beautiful! The things they created could not be explained or comprehended.It was 4D geometrical shapes but everything was morphing & changing so quickly and the shapes looked like so many things were going on within it like it had cracks and each section of the shape was a different pattern but everything about it was beautiful. It felt so natural to be there as if I had already been there or will be there existing in that particular moment & will actually know what is going on. It's like I just got a peek.
I felt in my spirit that I was about to leave & sure enough they said their joyful goodbyes & then it's like I fell & that's when I got the notion of good spirit matter being collected by evil..so maybe they hang out in the void in between trying to get what they can. Like if certain souls are journeying that are spiritually weak at the current moment in their existence?
Also, these things in this realm of reality did not seem like the "elves" described in so many trip reports. But they definetely were showing me amazing art/beauty/creativity/life/something? & it seemed to be directly connected to this life. Has anyone else experienced this. I'm feeling so alone. No one is answering?
