In my eyes, non-psychedelic drugs are in certain case spiritual as well, but they do not infuse you with consciousness, but rather reflect your own consciousness with certain differentiations, depending on the molecule of the substance. There is no need to dislike something if it does not work for you. It works for other people, and you must solve the mechanism of each drug to fully enjoy it.

I see hate on my favorite thing, MDMA, so I'd suggest that it "xplodes" your ego energy positively, so the calm emptiness after that can be used, to stay calm? Though, if you are egoistic, prepare for bad empty negativity after the course. It's a bit evil in the way, you start feeling like an ant dragging food to your formicary. But just play the role, keep calm and stay in spirit. Peace.