Which feels more normal?

[TransistorBass]

Thinking of your default state, initially with no chemical enhancement etc

Which feels most normal to you?

Option 1: Closed Eyes with blackness / nothing to see, maybe shades of colours if ambient light changes.
OR
Option 2: Closed Eyes with colourful patterns, this would be with some chemical enhancement.

I'm currently leaning towards option 2, but I would never have thought that before DMT.

Though I've occasionally had very vivid colours while in a Yoga Class with some breathwork and that wasn't coupled to ambient lighting and even flashes of places I recognise or things I don't recognise but were what seemed to be actual structures or places.

 

[blig-blug]

I see color blobs moving and simple shapes with closed eyes always, and have since childhood, much before taking any psychedelic.

 

[Pandora]

I have to take drugs to get images behind closed eyes EXCEPT peak business times when I work for a couple weeks 12 to 18 hour straight days. I often don't get a chance to eat much during these times and the lack of food, the excessive work and the lack of sleep make for mind movies behind closed eyes.

I prefer mind movies but I prefer to get there with drugs rather than exhaustion.