Xabaddonx
Rising Star
Hey all, I need some advice. Let me give you a little background and then I'll get into my problem.
I have little psychedelic experience before DMT. Took mushrooms a couple times maybe 15 years ago, salvia once around the same time. Nothing too profound, just recreational.
Before I ever tried dmt a couple weeks ago, I had been meditating for about a year. I recently reached a point in my meditation where I started to feel pressure in my head, which could reach a point where it was painful. It felt like my eyes are straining. As soon as I dropped my concentration or opened my eyes, it went away instantly. At first I thought I was just crossing my eyes or something when I was focusing.
Then I tried DMT. At 10 mg, I felt a similar pressure in my head. I did some research on this and decided it may be something called kundalini syndrome, where too much energy is being drawn in but the body is not practiced enough at distributing it so it collects in the head. In physical terms I imagine this equates to muscles contracting that I can't consciously control. I think DMT is bringing in a big surge of energy similar to what meditation does but stronger. After doing DMT the first time, I found that this feeling would come up almost instantly when I started to meditate, which I associate with getting "deeper", so this seemed like a good thing in a way.
Fast foward to this Friday. I had had a minor headache earlier in the day but it had faded after I took an NSAID. I tried 17mg in my GVG, previously had not done more than 10mg. Instantly got a huge headache that continued throughout the trip, and lasted all through Saturday. I don't remember any feeling of "hitting a wall" or anything during the trip, it was visuals that I've gotten somewhat accustomed to after a few trips but more 3D than usual. Today (Sunday) when I woke up, the headache was basically gone but I can still hear the tinnitus (which I know is common) and blood rushing through my head if I pay attention. My mind feels a bit... raw. When I meditate, I definitely get the feeling even deeper than before, more painful but I can dissipate it somewhat by focusing on relaxing all the muscles in my head.
I know that sub breakthrough experiences can be harder like this, but this really makes me afraid to try to break through. Am I trying to force too much energy in when my nervous system is not prepared? I feel like this may be the case. I am considering trying to meditate more and perhaps try some other psychedelics such as psilocybin and 5-MeO-MiPT to try to prepare my nervous system / chakra system more before I dive back into DMT.
Would greatly appreciate any advice.
I have little psychedelic experience before DMT. Took mushrooms a couple times maybe 15 years ago, salvia once around the same time. Nothing too profound, just recreational.
Before I ever tried dmt a couple weeks ago, I had been meditating for about a year. I recently reached a point in my meditation where I started to feel pressure in my head, which could reach a point where it was painful. It felt like my eyes are straining. As soon as I dropped my concentration or opened my eyes, it went away instantly. At first I thought I was just crossing my eyes or something when I was focusing.
Then I tried DMT. At 10 mg, I felt a similar pressure in my head. I did some research on this and decided it may be something called kundalini syndrome, where too much energy is being drawn in but the body is not practiced enough at distributing it so it collects in the head. In physical terms I imagine this equates to muscles contracting that I can't consciously control. I think DMT is bringing in a big surge of energy similar to what meditation does but stronger. After doing DMT the first time, I found that this feeling would come up almost instantly when I started to meditate, which I associate with getting "deeper", so this seemed like a good thing in a way.
Fast foward to this Friday. I had had a minor headache earlier in the day but it had faded after I took an NSAID. I tried 17mg in my GVG, previously had not done more than 10mg. Instantly got a huge headache that continued throughout the trip, and lasted all through Saturday. I don't remember any feeling of "hitting a wall" or anything during the trip, it was visuals that I've gotten somewhat accustomed to after a few trips but more 3D than usual. Today (Sunday) when I woke up, the headache was basically gone but I can still hear the tinnitus (which I know is common) and blood rushing through my head if I pay attention. My mind feels a bit... raw. When I meditate, I definitely get the feeling even deeper than before, more painful but I can dissipate it somewhat by focusing on relaxing all the muscles in my head.
I know that sub breakthrough experiences can be harder like this, but this really makes me afraid to try to break through. Am I trying to force too much energy in when my nervous system is not prepared? I feel like this may be the case. I am considering trying to meditate more and perhaps try some other psychedelics such as psilocybin and 5-MeO-MiPT to try to prepare my nervous system / chakra system more before I dive back into DMT.
Would greatly appreciate any advice.
