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MacHimself

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Hi everyone,

I've been using DMT for not too long now and do not know more than the general facts about it. However, the profound life changing experiences I have had on it, with the encouragement of another member of this forum, have convinced me to create an account here and maybe be able to find some insight/answers to the realizations I have had.

Cheers everybody!

-Mac
 
Hello MacHimself, welcome to the Nexus. Yes it can be quite a task sometimes, to comprehend our experiences and learn from them and gain insight. Sometimes it's obvious and slaps us across the face (in a good way or a bad way), sometimes it's more cryptic and really quite impossible to even describe (let alone understand), and other times it's just downright weird.

Please do share you experiences with us and what you have got from these experiences. There will always be fellow Nexians ready to read your reports and discuss their own ideas and opinions. You made the right decision, so welcome again :) I can't wait to read more from you.

Peace

Macre
 
Well, you've certainly came to the right place any any type of advice and/or information regarding this molecule and the experience it facilitates. May I ask what your method of administration was and what your dosage/s were?

This experience, especially in the higher dosages, can and will slam you with VERY profound insights...not only about yourself, but about everything. These "This Is It!" type experiences hit everyone at different points in their journeys....sometimes never. But when it does happen..there will be absolutely no denying it.. I kid you not.

This experience of intensely sacred proportions demands the utmost respect and "outside" work. "Outside" work pertaining to anything that will help channel that "essence of greatness" into your daily life that will be conducive to your life path. Whether it be yoga, weights, running, long walks in the wilderness, meditation, art, music production, etc....all these things help nurture that ineffable greatness that's inside of you and everything else. It takes alot of time, but it's VERY well worth it. :thumb_up:

And once you realize it in your daily life..it will realize you...and you'll have a best friend for life.
 
you should consider some regular meditation and be decisive in your administration and your chosen distance (regularity/dosage). dont be inclined to dine regularly, i find it better to decide for myself that im completely sure i want to dose, so i go in for an experience then usually give it a couple of weeks. but thats me. when i first started it was every 2 days, but dont get carried away, dont dose small. dose hard and dose when you know you want to. because mobb deep said it right "scared to death, scared to look \\they shook \\'cause ain't no such things as halfway crooks"
 
Thanks everyone, you all seem like a good bunch. I have only smoked it in a bong (about 1/5th of a gram per blast) and have smoked it mixed with weed a few times.
Honestly, the last time I "blasted off", I was looking for answers to questions that had been deeply eating at me. I realized the answer finally, and it was not the expected answer nor one that I wanted to know.

Looking at oneself with no outside influences, beliefs, value, ego, can be seriously life changing and I haven't figured out if it was for the better the last time I did it. It kinda screwed up my whole week and left me feeling almost sick the following days.

Basically, first I smoked some, and thought about A LOT of things (it wasn't like flying through space at this point), and then came to the realization that underneath everything I'm not a very happy person, even though I am grateful for a lot of the things in my life.

I then eagerly wanted to find out the answer to what is missing in my life, so I waited about a half hour and smoked the same amount, again in a bong. I had visions of my ex-girlfriend (we've been broken up for a solid 3 months, and really she was quite rotten to me in the end) and for some reason something was telling me, that that she's what I've been in such denial of missing for the past while, hence leaving me unhappy.

I ended up contacting her after the trip (again, first time in months), and went and saw her the next day. After seeing her and catching up on a lot of things, I still remember how bad she was to me and whatnot, and she is seeing someone else (who in time I'm sure she'd leave for me), so my BRAIN is now saying to keep moving on and don't look back. These mixed feelings left me feeling very confused.

I contacted a more experienced user about it, explained my trip, and asked if I was gonna always feel confused now about this situation due to the DMT trip. He told me my psyche was likely trying to tell me I don't miss her, that I miss/need just love in my life, and that love is everywhere etc...

Can I get a second opinion? I know it wasn't the best description.

Thanks guys
 
I think she has nothing to do with it, thats the psyche. an exquisite experience is a more personal thing and relates more to yourself and your insecurities. if thats your insecurity, don't let it influence your trips. thats bad, it will only result in conflict within your mind.

Dose hard and dose well my friend. dose wise without lies.
 
Okay so what can you recommend? This is really messing with my everyday life.... I don't know whether to dose again or not
 
MacHimself said:
I have only smoked it in a bong (about 1/5th of a gram per blast) and have smoked it mixed with weed a few times.
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Fifth of a gram per blast!?! 200mg spice??! :shock:

Thats WAY overkill, you'd be black'd out no doubt. You only need 30mg to have a full breakthrough, possibly even less.

And if your "mixing" it with weed that could be the issue. Have you done the "sandwich method"? Put a bed of leaf on the bottom, put the spice in the middle, then put a light layer of leaf on top. Carefully light the top layer of leaf, drag it SLOW. Take a good 2-3 solid, slow hits, holding each hit for 15-20 seconds until reality as you know it starts to break down COMPLETELY followed by the "oo i've done it now". :thumb_up:
 
That is serious overkill. You only need like a 200th of a gram, maybe even 3 thousandths. Instead of measuring by the gram, measure by the milligram. You only really need 30-50mg, maybe even just 20mg. It may also help to purchase a VG or GVG.

Peace

Macre
 
Also, if your typically just using a bong or a standard pipe, look into making some enhanced leaf. Thats where you infuse the leaf of choice with the spice, so you don't have to worry in regards to burning it trying to vaporize it. Just light the leaf and go!

Here ya go: Nexian DMT Handbook

Go to section 14.1 Enhanced Leaf. Everything you need to know is there and its a SIMPLE preparation. :thumb_up:

With this you will go far on MUCH less. :twisted:
 
Wow. Didn't realize I was that overboard. But what happened happened, can anyone else maybe try to spell out that realization for me?
 
Hi Mac, Welcome to the nexus.

I think you may feel something unsettled with your ex, maybe something you haven't thought of you want to let her know.

Maybe really you've been feeling lonely and need new companionship, I think that's a pretty likely scenario.

Also, take into consideration that her being nasty in the end of your relationship doesn't necessarily reflect the individual she is normally, but the individual she happens to be under certain stressful situations.

I couldn't tell you though, I don't know much about the situation, maybe describe that specific trip in more detail for me?
 
It's hard to say without knowing the full situation, or what your experiences have shown you or told you. I think parallelwhispers makes a good point, in that maybe you need companionship. You had companionship with your ex, but if the relationship didn't work then it's best to move on, and learn from it for your next relationship.

Vaping DMT is a very intense experience that can sometimes be hard to recollect. Sometimes when you want to go deep and learn real lessons about yourself then Ayahuasca can be part of the answer. This is something you have to commit yourself to with clear intention, respect, patience, openness and bravery. It may chew you up and spit you out, though a lot of times you come out better for it.

You're on a journey, your own individual path as we all are. When you get answers new questions are opened. This is an on-going process and life will always throw tests and lessons at you. I wish you luck and hope you find what you are looking for, and can achieve a greater sense of balance.

Peace

Macre
 
parallelwhispers said:
Maybe really you've been feeling lonely and need new companionship, I think that's a pretty likely scenario.
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That's what feels like it might have symbolized. It makes the most sense to me...

Okay, it started in one blast, where I had the ego disassociation and came to the first realization that really hit home (I'm not really as happy as I should be? Considering how good I have it compared to some) but then I really wanted to know why, and that question wasn't answered.

So, stupidly I filled another bowl a bit later and blasted off again, this time went into a cave of darkness, some sort of hole I guess, but I realized the reason why I was there (to get the "why" question answered) and then, once again, ego-less but somewhat aware, started analyzing every aspect in my life. More and more questions arose but then I had a very strong feeling about the ex, like one of those super deep realizations that just shocks you but there were no real words, just feelings I can't even describe, and then I think, (or at least thought) about that and figured I miss her even though I've been in major denial of it. After I done being shocked, the trip was over and I was left with a strange afterglow. Not happy but not mad or sad, just confused. So I contacted her later. But then like I said, I visited her the next day and we talked for the first time and 3 months, and left feeling very uneasy, felt that the DMT tricked me into going over there in a way, because there are still traits about her that I see that I feel caused me to break up with her ultimately.

Whew, thanks for reading all that, guys.

-Mac
 
Macre said:
Vaping DMT is a very intense experience that can sometimes be hard to recollect. Sometimes when you want to go deep and learn real lessons about yourself then Ayahuasca can be part of the answer. This is something you have to commit yourself to with clear intention, respect, patience, openness and bravery. It may chew you up and spit you out, though a lot of times you come out better for it.
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My friend who extracted the DMT for me mentioned Ayahuasca the other day. I would not know what to expect. Honestly my favorite DMT trips are the ego-softening ones, I learned more from any single one of them than all of the vivid visual ones I`ve had.
 
I'm about to do dmt right now. I'll tell you what it says to me.

Dmt always takes my brain and floods it with information.


Now I saw that the answers we're hiding is that we do not exist.

We do not exist.

There are no answers then, because the answers don't really exist.


As for your girlfriend, I heard nothing this time friend.

Now I will stop polluting your new thread with my garbage and create a new one!!!


I love you, god loves you, everything loves you, but we do not exist.
 
MacHimself said:
But then like I said, I visited her the next day and we talked for the first time and 3 months, and left feeling very uneasy, felt that the DMT tricked me into going over there in a way, because there are still traits about her that I see that I feel caused me to break up with her ultimately.
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Couldn't this be DMT showing you that you don't need her?
 
MacHimself said:
Okay so what can you recommend? This is really messing with my everyday life.... I don't know whether to dose again or not
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I wouldnt. not until you feel there are no negative influences... or things that are going through your mind that you havent dealt with in any way yet, if there are new 'problems' that have arisen due to thought stimulated by the dmt trips you have had so far, my advice would be to just forget about dmt for a while. figure out what it is from these trips that has made you start to think about these things so much. live healthy, find out where others intentions lie, be productive towards yourself for a little while, enjoy the small things. answers do come if you allow them

MacHimself said:
But then like I said, I visited her the next day and we talked for the first time and 3 months, and left feeling very uneasy, felt that the DMT tricked me into going over there in a way, because there are still traits about her that I see that I feel caused me to break up with her ultimately.
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The molecule has no agenda, i can assure you of that. whether or not your interpretation of experiential events was right or wrong (according to how it[the trip] may or may not have been intended) is irrelevant. all interpretations are valid. They are valid, because you are valid. you thought the thought, and you exist.

These traits, are they severe? are they moralistic?
Can you change her? if not, then what is it about her if its not another relationship?
 
5 days later, my mental state seems to be back to normal.

OK, so I don't want the girlfriend, even though my brain does/trip told me I do.

Now I'm still completely mixed over it. Should I just forget about the whole thing and move on? There's no future for me and the ex and I'm aware of that. I just feel strange a bit, because of the intensity of that trip and the thoughts I had (hence the half week mental weird funk I was in)... I'm like afraid that by re-suppressing how I feel will only lead to more problems down the road...

If that makes sense.

Thanks again guys,

-Mac
 
MacHimself said:
If that makes sense.
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yes it does, and i like your approach to all of this because an amateur would have smoked more to explore the feeling and perhaps made mistakes. waiting on an emotional brain state is valuable to see how it (really) fits with your own true perspective, as goes with after thoughts which correspond with changes in behavior.

I sit eager to delve into the spice again after a year of uneventful experiences, a year because when i first started smoking the spice i smoked very frequently and got really crazy. well not crazy in a bad way but just really reactive and fast with everything in my life. i ended up being scared away from it by pre-flight anxiety and went months on end without smoking then getting the urge and having a weird/unpleasant experience (a few good uplifting trips too). now its different, but im more respectful to the substance and i try to pre set the setting. have an 'occasion'

good traveling to you. and may the fruit of your labor be fruitful
 
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