Yakub's Ayahuasca Journal

[northape]

I drank the rue before the bhastrika, so 45 minutes before taking the acacia.

20-30min is all you need between rue and acacia. Try to be careful with strenuous pranayamas beforehand. I don't know how experienced you are, so judge for yourself.

I did notice a qualitative difference between the mimosa visuals and those of the acacia. What the mimosa showed me was more "carnavalesque", with higher contrast, sharper edges, more saturated colours, and faster movement. It was the closest I've been to smoked DMT. The acacia visuals were more intense (probably as a result of taking more rue), but also a lot more spacious, less "in your face". I felt like I was contemplating the immensity of the universe breathing and slowly morphing. Both experiences were stunningly beautiful, but each one had its own "vibe". I've heard people say that acacia has a more compassionate, "feminine" energy. I suppose I can see where they're coming from.

They are quite different, and Mimosa is closer to clean DMT. It's very sharp and chaotic compared to Acacia.
Acacia could be very heart-opening and divine. It is a good plant for any trauma work, ime.

My father sexually abused me when I was very young, probably under 5.

Sad to hear it. It's good that you're at a point where you can talk about it. Aya and its analogs are great for these types of healing.
For most of my life, I thought I was from a fine family. Only after about five years of medicine work did I understand that it was my coping mechanism.
My father was simply nonexistent in my life. It's a different kind of trauma, but medicine helped me to open up to it and come to some acceptance.

She's been single again for a few months and was telling me how much she's grown as a person and all that...

You know it all yourself. That's usually a lot of bs, but you can give her a chance. We're all human...

The ayahuasca also gave me some ideas for business. Basically, all I need to do is tell my story of how I've overcome different health issues and such, and offer consultations.

Good luck! I think it's a good idea, and you'll be better than most in the scene. It's a direction that could lead to a beautiful future. I'd give it a go

 

[Yakub]

20-30min is all you need between rue and acacia.

Good to know, thanks

Try to be careful with strenuous pranayamas beforehand. I don't know how experienced you are, so judge for yourself.

I've been practicing for over ten years. I find that one very energising and it takes the edge off any anxiety I may be feeling before entering hyperspace.

My father was simply nonexistent in my life. It's a different kind of trauma, but medicine helped me to open up to it and come to some acceptance.

At this point it seems easier to ask who doesn't have some kind of childhood trauma. This is why I don't want to dwell on or make a big deal of it, but at the same time I can't have it holding me back in any way.

You know it all yourself. That's usually a lot of bs, but you can give her a chance. We're all human...

Well if anyone has grown as a person in the intervening years, it's me. I was a fucking retard at 26 She's not devious or deceitful and I think she is committed to spiritual growth - we used to go to yoga together and she's just completed a two year sophrology course. She's just had a bit of a chaotic life and made some bad decisions, but again, daddy issues... I'm not too bothered either way and I'll see how things play out.

Good luck! I think it's a good idea, and you'll be better than most in the scene. It's a direction that could lead to a beautiful future. I'd give it a go

Appreciate the encouragement


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I look forward to this.

 

[Transform]

I've had a look through your posts, and they're all over the place If you have a personal database, perhaps AI could be of use for organising them. I've played around with an Obsidian plugin, and there's some potential there. I'm not sure if there are any privacy concerns, but in any event, I don't have sensitive information in my notes, so I'm not worried.

Thanks for the tip; most of my information I've simply memorised. It's the digging up of references that becomes problematic as it's a matter of integrating paper notes, printed material, and local unsynchronised digital storage along with two decades of online references starting from the point of crawling out of a hedge as a homeless Luddite.

Anyhow, thanks for starting a great thread here, please just remember we have a few strict rules here, for the security of the forum and our members, in particular:

No discussion on selling, buying, sourcing, acquiring, pricing, trading, receiving, distributing, mentioning pending deliveries or smuggling of drugs

This includes all isolated psychedelic compounds and RCs (Research Chemicals), whether they are legal or not. The only goods allowed to be discussed are legal live plants, legal viable seeds (both in the Sustainable plant and seed suppliers subforum) and legal/unwatched chemical supplies. See Street Value of DMT (AND WHY YOU SHOULDN'T EVER SELL DMT AND OTHER PSYCHEDELICS) for good reasons why we don't allow this.

Also please read this thread: Bye bye MHRB sourcing talk, we will remember you

Unfortunately, dried plant material is not allowed to be discussed, no matter how excited about it you may be feeling

 

[Yakub]

Unfortunately, dried plant material is not allowed to be discussed, no matter how excited about it you may be feeling

Second time now really sorry, it won't happen again.

Thanks for the tip; most of my information I've simply memorised. It's the digging up of references that becomes problematic as it's a matter of integrating paper notes, printed material, and local unsynchronised digital storage along with two decades of online references starting from the point of crawling out of a hedge as a homeless Luddite.

Sounds like you may need to block off a whole weekend in that case