Joshua2112
Rising Star
- Merits
- 42
It's been a long time since I have posted and a full week since my undeniable initiation to the ranks of those who have had a breakthrough experience. Not a day has gone by since since the experience where I have not pondered, postulated and reveled in the experience. It seemed even more special as hyperspace opened up to me on my 42 birthday with my last 50ish Mgs.
I was camping with my wife and two children, the kids were fast asleep in the motorhome and it was a beautiful quiet night. My wife had been my sitter in the past for sub breakthrough doses but I am thankful I again prepared her for "sitting". As previously reported I always kept eyes open and never took a second hit. I had always marveled at the perceptual shift and had always been awe struck with lower doses, I had no idea up till last week what awe struck was.
I took 1 long deep hit, inhaling harder than I usually do. Perhaps it was the technique but I am leaning towards there being residual DMT in the pipe from a previous session. Instantly, before I had exhaled the geometric patterns and shapes, which previously seemed translucent and needing time to form and coalesce erupted or exploded across my closed eye visual field. Little did I know I was "out" the pipe (thankfully not a GVG) had, according to my wife tumbled out of my hand. The breakthrough transition was utterly powerful. The strange shapes and patterns spinning and interlocking at incredible speed of transition. And the sounds. It wasn't music per say but neither was it just a cacophony of tones, it seemed to blend perfectly with the shapes and patterns forming until it hit a crescendo at which point everything stopped instantly with the electronica like vibration/sound striking one final held tone. I seem to remember saying in my mind at this point, OH....MY......GOD but even my own inner voice seemed slowed and reverberating. Then I was "there".
Gone was the forest and the trees, gone was the camp fire and my family. Gone was any sembelance of the universe I knew. I have made a previous post where I described being in a room, similar to my own living room but very very different in a DMT way and pondering to the community if I had broken through. I now know, that for me at least, if I have to ask I haven't broken though as a breakthrough is utterly undeniable.
A version of being in a room remained, however this room, was made of pure energy and did not seem to conform to a 3D model of a room. I was observing everything in that space from strange angles. I was elated, flabbergasted. I got the sense there were "others" in the space but I saw no beings. I am unsure as to whether I was just thinking to myself and responding to myself, but I remember thinking/ saying this changes everything and either my own inner voice or a telepathic type response saying "yes, it sure does". Unable to rationalize the experience I truly, implicitly had the sense that " normal reality" is, well, the matrix. I got the impression that something was as elated for me as I was. It is so hard to remember details, I came back with the impression I was in well, almost like a digitized hyperspace disco tech.
I don't recall the transition back to ordinary reality. My eyes opened and at some point I noticed wet material on my shirt and pondered out loud what was it? At this point I didn't even truly comprehend I had broken through. My wife then told me I had coughed out the vapor I had inhaled and been drooling. She went on to describe that I was "out" but I had been making vocalizations, giggles and squeals of joy and she was surprised camping neighbors had not come out to see what was going on. It was at this point I realized I had done it. I finally had my unmistakable breakthrough hit.
I am no longer afraid of breaking through. There was no fear, even in that OH....MY......GOD moment. I returned unscathed, there was no roller coaster or bungy jumping physical transition(which I deeply feared) and I didn't have a heart attack. Difficult experiences are likely to occur in the future but I look forward to being shown what's beyond that psycho disco tech space and travel deeper down the rabbit hole.
I feel so truly privileged to have had this experience. Perhaps it was merely luck that I had my first breakthrough on my birthday but I like to think not. I am so thankful there is a community like this. No one that I have told outside these forums can even remotely appreciate the significance and magnitude of these experiences.
Thank you all for reading, relating and appreciating.
I was camping with my wife and two children, the kids were fast asleep in the motorhome and it was a beautiful quiet night. My wife had been my sitter in the past for sub breakthrough doses but I am thankful I again prepared her for "sitting". As previously reported I always kept eyes open and never took a second hit. I had always marveled at the perceptual shift and had always been awe struck with lower doses, I had no idea up till last week what awe struck was.
I took 1 long deep hit, inhaling harder than I usually do. Perhaps it was the technique but I am leaning towards there being residual DMT in the pipe from a previous session. Instantly, before I had exhaled the geometric patterns and shapes, which previously seemed translucent and needing time to form and coalesce erupted or exploded across my closed eye visual field. Little did I know I was "out" the pipe (thankfully not a GVG) had, according to my wife tumbled out of my hand. The breakthrough transition was utterly powerful. The strange shapes and patterns spinning and interlocking at incredible speed of transition. And the sounds. It wasn't music per say but neither was it just a cacophony of tones, it seemed to blend perfectly with the shapes and patterns forming until it hit a crescendo at which point everything stopped instantly with the electronica like vibration/sound striking one final held tone. I seem to remember saying in my mind at this point, OH....MY......GOD but even my own inner voice seemed slowed and reverberating. Then I was "there".
Gone was the forest and the trees, gone was the camp fire and my family. Gone was any sembelance of the universe I knew. I have made a previous post where I described being in a room, similar to my own living room but very very different in a DMT way and pondering to the community if I had broken through. I now know, that for me at least, if I have to ask I haven't broken though as a breakthrough is utterly undeniable.
A version of being in a room remained, however this room, was made of pure energy and did not seem to conform to a 3D model of a room. I was observing everything in that space from strange angles. I was elated, flabbergasted. I got the sense there were "others" in the space but I saw no beings. I am unsure as to whether I was just thinking to myself and responding to myself, but I remember thinking/ saying this changes everything and either my own inner voice or a telepathic type response saying "yes, it sure does". Unable to rationalize the experience I truly, implicitly had the sense that " normal reality" is, well, the matrix. I got the impression that something was as elated for me as I was. It is so hard to remember details, I came back with the impression I was in well, almost like a digitized hyperspace disco tech.
I don't recall the transition back to ordinary reality. My eyes opened and at some point I noticed wet material on my shirt and pondered out loud what was it? At this point I didn't even truly comprehend I had broken through. My wife then told me I had coughed out the vapor I had inhaled and been drooling. She went on to describe that I was "out" but I had been making vocalizations, giggles and squeals of joy and she was surprised camping neighbors had not come out to see what was going on. It was at this point I realized I had done it. I finally had my unmistakable breakthrough hit.
I am no longer afraid of breaking through. There was no fear, even in that OH....MY......GOD moment. I returned unscathed, there was no roller coaster or bungy jumping physical transition(which I deeply feared) and I didn't have a heart attack. Difficult experiences are likely to occur in the future but I look forward to being shown what's beyond that psycho disco tech space and travel deeper down the rabbit hole.
I feel so truly privileged to have had this experience. Perhaps it was merely luck that I had my first breakthrough on my birthday but I like to think not. I am so thankful there is a community like this. No one that I have told outside these forums can even remotely appreciate the significance and magnitude of these experiences.
Thank you all for reading, relating and appreciating.
One of my most powerful journeys was on my birthday. I don't think it's a coincidence. Congratulations, it is quite somethig, is it not?! :shock: :want: 
