My first encounter with death was when i was 6 years old. My appendix had more or less exploded inside of me and i was walking around with that shit in my body for two or three days. The pain was agonizing. I remember that i was literally trembling, shaking and screaming from pain. Unfortunately, the doctor was not immediately able to tell what it was. So then i collapsed. I remember that i felt i was spinning around in space and there was a sort of 'carrier wave' noise, wich is a typical noise familiar to users of DMT(see lexicon).
At a certain moment, i was shown all kinds of things about my live up till than: my house, my neighbourhood, my parents, my sister, etc.
There was some kind of entity, but i didn't pay much attention to it, that was giving me this guided tour through my life as it had been thus far.
For the rest of my life, the idea of death only provoked a sweet sort of melancholy.
Due to my very strict christian upbringing, i lost all interest in anything spiritual. I felt that it was all a hoax,made-up to keep us docile. As sheep, litarally.
That changed when i started experimenting with LSD.
But it was a high dose of oral cannabis, that made me experience 'god' again, like i had when i was a child. At a certain moment i had a very descartes-like experience where everything seemed totally uncertain.
I was listening to a piece of music that was totally beautyfull (alpine symphony by richard strauss, very reminiscent of wagner) and i felt that somehow i was forgiven my turn away from god and spirituality, that god still loved me.
That was awesome.
My experiences with DMT, ayahuasca, mushrooms and mescaline that came much later have brought me closer to that force.
In september i took a very high dose of mushrooms combined with ayahuasca.
At a certain moment i realized that it was much stronger than i had anticipated. I started to fear that i wouldn't be able again to ever make it back. I was unable to see normal with my eyes open. There where only loose ends of the normal world. Everything was like dissolving in a pattern of vibrations. And then i started to feel something that was so awesome.
It was the happiest moment of my life, without a doubt.
I suddenly realized how beautyfull it all is and i felt a sense of bliss that is simply undescribable.
The love i felt that night i will never, ever forget again.
I can only say that my life simply can be divided between everything that happened before that night and everything after it.
I can not even start to explain what it was that i experienced there. Time and space where simply dissolving. Into a vibration of extremly colourfull light, an energy field with infinite depth.
God revealed itself to me that night in a miraculous way, i saw my own death, the secret of space and time, the history of mankind.
It took an entire day to come down from it.
But i learned so much.
The lesson most worth sharing maybe is, on this weird little planet full of financial crisis and a society obsessed with material gain to the point where it becomes totally meaningless....the greatest succes a human being can ever have in his entire life, is simply to love life, to love this existance.
It is that simple, and it makes ALL the difference in the world.
. I guess that he had also experienced an awakening due to the group setting!