Alisoka
Rising Star
50 mg oral 4-HO-MET
repeated smoked Cannabis
repeated inhaled Nitrous Oxide
I have yet to actually write a full report on this trip, so I suppose I'll be doing it now. I believe this experience came about two weeks after my previous trip on 4-HO-DET and LSD. At the time I was coming to terms with many drastic personality changes in myself following that previous experience, and I just wanted to put myself in a very moving state of mind to really help things all settle in. I also had just been dealing with some pretty heavily emotional life changes lately, and I really needed something to help clear my head up again. Thinking that I had been wanting to see more of what it's truly capable of anyway, I decided to go all out for 50 mg of 4-HO-MET.
The thing I would have to say that caught me the most off guard is how amazingly similarly the trip started out to smoking DMT for me. It was different than how 4-AcO-DMT or 4-AcO-MET can compare though.... It was really more like it skipped the intense tunneling experience and went straight to transforming the room into a breakthrough world. It happened so quickly for me that for a moment I was afraid of losing my lucidity, but after a minute of anxiousness I started to realize that this trip was actually even more clearheaded for me than an equivalent dose of DMT would be. There was nothing overwhelming or threatening about these intense hallucinations in any way; in fact, if I wanted to I could have basically acted like they weren't even there.
Enjoying this novel state of mind, I got up and started wandering around the house. Normally music has always been a must for me on psychedelics, but sometimes lately I've been starting to feel like sensory stimuli become so intensified while I'm tripping that sitting in silence can actually have a much more facilitative effect on my cognitive processes. That doesn't mean that I don't sometimes feel the need to just get lost in music too, but I feel like when I'm really trying to think about personal or philosophical issues some music can just get in the way of things, at least when it all hits you that intensely. Since 4-HO-MET already very strongly removes my filters on all sensory input as it is, it happens to be a great psychedelic for this sort of intimate quiet reflection.
At first, I was really just enjoying the strong visuals I was getting. Some of these were comical, such as enormous spinning wheel which contained repeating images of Roger the alien from American Dad! in divided segments around its edges. Others reminded me of past powerful hallucinogenic experiences, such as perceptions of multicolored lizards and spiders crawling around as part of the web of smooth mathematical constructs that was constantly materializing in every direction. Once the state started to sink in a little bit more, I began to notice just how acutely aware I was of things happening in the house. I felt like I could sneak around the house and move around walls and through cracks while causing as little sound or movement as physically possible, and I had quite a bit of fun pushing myself to my limits on this. Because of the remarkable amount of focus that the 4-HO-MET gave and continues to give me, I've actually sort of started thinking of it as a tryptamine adrenaline. I really do just feel like every single moment I'm on it is like a moment of heavy time dilation in a strong adrenaline rush as everything that your brain can possibly focus is aimed guiding you forward no matter the opposition.
Because of the amazing sensory enhancement I was experiencing, I decided to go outside. There was a beautiful warm breeze blowing around outside, with lots of wind rushing sounds and trees audibly moving around with the gusts. I pulled up a lawn chair and leaned back so that I could see the night sky ahead of my and the trees in my peripheral and just appreciate how supremely wonderful nature is. At the same time that this was going on, I could feel myself encompassing a massive spherical space similar to my experience with 4-HO-DET and LSD, but not out-of-body at this point. I actually felt as though I was at the center of the sphere and many individual rings of circling quasi-hieroglyphic patterns were located around the sphere and myself. The dominant color to this was a neon lime green on a dark blue backdrop, though there were other aspects to it as well. At the time however this was all just gravy for me, as I was already having one of the most calming and peaceful experiences of my life, feeling more connected to nature than I can remember having felt for a very long time before this. That alone was enough to make my time outside more than memorable.
There was nitrous oxide done somewhere in here, but honestly can't remember if it effected that much. I may have been too out of it to recall what happened, or I could have just been in too reserved a mood. I was thinking heavily about all of the issues that had been weighing on me in life recently, so it certainly wasn't a crazy all-out kind of trip. Either way, the cannabis that I smoked as well was indeed potentiating the trip. It was putting me into a trancey and hypnagogic mindset similar to the one I had experienced during my last trip. I went to my bed to lie down and found the space in my room to be greatly expanded in line with that trip as well, and so I decided to give something a go based on how things went last time. I took a good few more hits of cannabis before getting ready to close my eyes, and then laid back with my head on the pillow.
With eyes closed I drifted for a moment, and then without warning the pleasant but basic color patterns that I had been seeing erupted to the point of decently-rendered entity perceptions. These girls were wearing what appeared to be one-piece bathing suits in addition to latex gloves and stockings, and there was a color dominance of green and red among them with the suits and black for the rest, and they were all placed upon a backdrop of brilliant golden yellow. I allowed this scene to drift by me, and then I felt myself entering a deeper level of borderline consciousness in which I felt as though it was my change to push my thoughts into something significantly more substantial. I suddenly found myself picturing a beautiful girl hanging out next to a pool with what appeared to be at least a few other girls walking around, and without hesitation these images burst into dream-like realism around me. I actually felt my awareness center into the original girl that I had imagined, and I felt as though I could have then moved my third-person view into her body and experienced the dream world in first-person, which is based on something that I have become quite adept at in my lucid dreams. But, sadly, thinking of these possibilities seemed to snap me too much back into normal awareness, and the scene vanished as quickly as it emerged.
It would have been nice to carry that experience further, but I enjoyed myself very much as it was with just getting even that far. It gives me many ideas for the future as well as more excitement for seeing that the psychedelic realm is just going to continue getting more and more advanced. Though these are not exactly the kinds of doses that I expect to be taking all the time, especially of research chemical tryptamines, it is nice to know that these kinds of phenomena are waiting for me when I am ready to observe them. As usual, 4-HO-MET continues to prove itself as a powerful and significant psychedelic in me, and as always I am very grateful for the experiences that I am able to have with it.
There was a little bit more to my experience, but it mostly centers around me making good psychological progress on the things that I had gone into the experience hoping to work out. Eventually the effects started to wear off somewhat, and I was able to fall asleep without too much trouble. I woke up the next day feeling refreshed, somewhat enlightened, and at the very least more ready to face the world than I had felt on the previous morning.
repeated smoked Cannabis
repeated inhaled Nitrous Oxide
I have yet to actually write a full report on this trip, so I suppose I'll be doing it now. I believe this experience came about two weeks after my previous trip on 4-HO-DET and LSD. At the time I was coming to terms with many drastic personality changes in myself following that previous experience, and I just wanted to put myself in a very moving state of mind to really help things all settle in. I also had just been dealing with some pretty heavily emotional life changes lately, and I really needed something to help clear my head up again. Thinking that I had been wanting to see more of what it's truly capable of anyway, I decided to go all out for 50 mg of 4-HO-MET.
The thing I would have to say that caught me the most off guard is how amazingly similarly the trip started out to smoking DMT for me. It was different than how 4-AcO-DMT or 4-AcO-MET can compare though.... It was really more like it skipped the intense tunneling experience and went straight to transforming the room into a breakthrough world. It happened so quickly for me that for a moment I was afraid of losing my lucidity, but after a minute of anxiousness I started to realize that this trip was actually even more clearheaded for me than an equivalent dose of DMT would be. There was nothing overwhelming or threatening about these intense hallucinations in any way; in fact, if I wanted to I could have basically acted like they weren't even there.
Enjoying this novel state of mind, I got up and started wandering around the house. Normally music has always been a must for me on psychedelics, but sometimes lately I've been starting to feel like sensory stimuli become so intensified while I'm tripping that sitting in silence can actually have a much more facilitative effect on my cognitive processes. That doesn't mean that I don't sometimes feel the need to just get lost in music too, but I feel like when I'm really trying to think about personal or philosophical issues some music can just get in the way of things, at least when it all hits you that intensely. Since 4-HO-MET already very strongly removes my filters on all sensory input as it is, it happens to be a great psychedelic for this sort of intimate quiet reflection.
At first, I was really just enjoying the strong visuals I was getting. Some of these were comical, such as enormous spinning wheel which contained repeating images of Roger the alien from American Dad! in divided segments around its edges. Others reminded me of past powerful hallucinogenic experiences, such as perceptions of multicolored lizards and spiders crawling around as part of the web of smooth mathematical constructs that was constantly materializing in every direction. Once the state started to sink in a little bit more, I began to notice just how acutely aware I was of things happening in the house. I felt like I could sneak around the house and move around walls and through cracks while causing as little sound or movement as physically possible, and I had quite a bit of fun pushing myself to my limits on this. Because of the remarkable amount of focus that the 4-HO-MET gave and continues to give me, I've actually sort of started thinking of it as a tryptamine adrenaline. I really do just feel like every single moment I'm on it is like a moment of heavy time dilation in a strong adrenaline rush as everything that your brain can possibly focus is aimed guiding you forward no matter the opposition.
Because of the amazing sensory enhancement I was experiencing, I decided to go outside. There was a beautiful warm breeze blowing around outside, with lots of wind rushing sounds and trees audibly moving around with the gusts. I pulled up a lawn chair and leaned back so that I could see the night sky ahead of my and the trees in my peripheral and just appreciate how supremely wonderful nature is. At the same time that this was going on, I could feel myself encompassing a massive spherical space similar to my experience with 4-HO-DET and LSD, but not out-of-body at this point. I actually felt as though I was at the center of the sphere and many individual rings of circling quasi-hieroglyphic patterns were located around the sphere and myself. The dominant color to this was a neon lime green on a dark blue backdrop, though there were other aspects to it as well. At the time however this was all just gravy for me, as I was already having one of the most calming and peaceful experiences of my life, feeling more connected to nature than I can remember having felt for a very long time before this. That alone was enough to make my time outside more than memorable.
There was nitrous oxide done somewhere in here, but honestly can't remember if it effected that much. I may have been too out of it to recall what happened, or I could have just been in too reserved a mood. I was thinking heavily about all of the issues that had been weighing on me in life recently, so it certainly wasn't a crazy all-out kind of trip. Either way, the cannabis that I smoked as well was indeed potentiating the trip. It was putting me into a trancey and hypnagogic mindset similar to the one I had experienced during my last trip. I went to my bed to lie down and found the space in my room to be greatly expanded in line with that trip as well, and so I decided to give something a go based on how things went last time. I took a good few more hits of cannabis before getting ready to close my eyes, and then laid back with my head on the pillow.
With eyes closed I drifted for a moment, and then without warning the pleasant but basic color patterns that I had been seeing erupted to the point of decently-rendered entity perceptions. These girls were wearing what appeared to be one-piece bathing suits in addition to latex gloves and stockings, and there was a color dominance of green and red among them with the suits and black for the rest, and they were all placed upon a backdrop of brilliant golden yellow. I allowed this scene to drift by me, and then I felt myself entering a deeper level of borderline consciousness in which I felt as though it was my change to push my thoughts into something significantly more substantial. I suddenly found myself picturing a beautiful girl hanging out next to a pool with what appeared to be at least a few other girls walking around, and without hesitation these images burst into dream-like realism around me. I actually felt my awareness center into the original girl that I had imagined, and I felt as though I could have then moved my third-person view into her body and experienced the dream world in first-person, which is based on something that I have become quite adept at in my lucid dreams. But, sadly, thinking of these possibilities seemed to snap me too much back into normal awareness, and the scene vanished as quickly as it emerged.
It would have been nice to carry that experience further, but I enjoyed myself very much as it was with just getting even that far. It gives me many ideas for the future as well as more excitement for seeing that the psychedelic realm is just going to continue getting more and more advanced. Though these are not exactly the kinds of doses that I expect to be taking all the time, especially of research chemical tryptamines, it is nice to know that these kinds of phenomena are waiting for me when I am ready to observe them. As usual, 4-HO-MET continues to prove itself as a powerful and significant psychedelic in me, and as always I am very grateful for the experiences that I am able to have with it.
There was a little bit more to my experience, but it mostly centers around me making good psychological progress on the things that I had gone into the experience hoping to work out. Eventually the effects started to wear off somewhat, and I was able to fall asleep without too much trouble. I woke up the next day feeling refreshed, somewhat enlightened, and at the very least more ready to face the world than I had felt on the previous morning.
