richard_hole
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So the other day I decided to try some mushrooms for the first time.
I have tried mushrooms previously a few years ago but to be honest it was at the end of a horrible stimulant/alcohol/god knows what else binge and I don't really remember anything about it.
I've changed my ways since then.
So I ate the 7g of shrooms alone at home at 12:30pm. I ate them raw, dry, bit by bit chewing and swallowing them.
I'm quite used to eating things like crispy kale and dried out vegetables as I have a habit of sticking veggies in the oven for too long, so they had quite a familiar taste.
About 90 minutes passed before I began to feel anything significant and I spent the next hour watching youtube videos and laughing uncontrollably, by myself, at some of the ridiculous comments people find the need to post.
I went to the bathroom and realised I was getting further into the experience and decided to pay the mushrooms some better attention so I turned my laptop off.
From here on in the trip was dark; going into every bad aspect of my life, duelling on it and bringing it out into the open, showing my bad habits, not really telling me what to do about them, but rather giving me a stern telling off.
Everything was very blunt and negative making me feel very small and I even cried a little haha.
However, there was one part where I felt heavenly, as if I was about to cross over into a better place, a real floaty feeling that was accompanied by partly euphoric bodily sensations. I thought this was the start of a smooth ego death but unfortunately it wasn't
I wanted this feeling to last and develop but I've found it best to give everything equal attention and just let things be. I didn't try to hold onto this positive part of the trip, I just let it be then it faded.
My plan to not have a bad trip was to not resist anything, and it worked.
There was one point where I seemed to be in a constant loop of trying to focus on one thing which kept failing over and over. I stopped this loop by getting up and doing some angry pressups.
Concentration and distractions are definitely something I need to work on in my life and I think the trip was trying to show me this as well. I've had very similar experiences on dmt.
Overall the trip showed me how I haven't been true to myself these past few years, an eye-opening experience that showed my true reality with no excuses for bad behaviour or actions. Everything is as it is.
As said, concentration seems to be key to progressing in my life. I'll probably try to meditate more and apply mindfulness to my daily life.
I'm thinking of trying a higher dose next time, or even something more potent. The idea of getting stuck in a hell of ego-death loop for hours doesn't sound very appealing but I think with the right mindset you can enjoy any experience.
Or perhaps that is an extremely ignorant thing to say considering Terrence McKenna's bad experience that put him off mushrooms for the remainder of his life.
I really want to go further with mushrooms, do you think it's wise to increase dose or try something stronger or am I just asking for trouble?
I have tried mushrooms previously a few years ago but to be honest it was at the end of a horrible stimulant/alcohol/god knows what else binge and I don't really remember anything about it.
I've changed my ways since then.
So I ate the 7g of shrooms alone at home at 12:30pm. I ate them raw, dry, bit by bit chewing and swallowing them.
I'm quite used to eating things like crispy kale and dried out vegetables as I have a habit of sticking veggies in the oven for too long, so they had quite a familiar taste.
About 90 minutes passed before I began to feel anything significant and I spent the next hour watching youtube videos and laughing uncontrollably, by myself, at some of the ridiculous comments people find the need to post.
I went to the bathroom and realised I was getting further into the experience and decided to pay the mushrooms some better attention so I turned my laptop off.
From here on in the trip was dark; going into every bad aspect of my life, duelling on it and bringing it out into the open, showing my bad habits, not really telling me what to do about them, but rather giving me a stern telling off.
Everything was very blunt and negative making me feel very small and I even cried a little haha.
However, there was one part where I felt heavenly, as if I was about to cross over into a better place, a real floaty feeling that was accompanied by partly euphoric bodily sensations. I thought this was the start of a smooth ego death but unfortunately it wasn't
I wanted this feeling to last and develop but I've found it best to give everything equal attention and just let things be. I didn't try to hold onto this positive part of the trip, I just let it be then it faded.
My plan to not have a bad trip was to not resist anything, and it worked.
There was one point where I seemed to be in a constant loop of trying to focus on one thing which kept failing over and over. I stopped this loop by getting up and doing some angry pressups.
Concentration and distractions are definitely something I need to work on in my life and I think the trip was trying to show me this as well. I've had very similar experiences on dmt.
Overall the trip showed me how I haven't been true to myself these past few years, an eye-opening experience that showed my true reality with no excuses for bad behaviour or actions. Everything is as it is.
As said, concentration seems to be key to progressing in my life. I'll probably try to meditate more and apply mindfulness to my daily life.
I'm thinking of trying a higher dose next time, or even something more potent. The idea of getting stuck in a hell of ego-death loop for hours doesn't sound very appealing but I think with the right mindset you can enjoy any experience.
Or perhaps that is an extremely ignorant thing to say considering Terrence McKenna's bad experience that put him off mushrooms for the remainder of his life.
I really want to go further with mushrooms, do you think it's wise to increase dose or try something stronger or am I just asking for trouble?

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